Urban Poly Princess

WOW!!! I looked up David's LinkedIn profile to see if he was still graduating this year. I think he is. Sooo with him on my mind I had a weird dream last night. We were both at the same training in Utah. I talked to him and he told me he was living and working in Colorado. He also told me he had left the church. His best feature is his testimony. I've been worried about that all day. Instead of going to FHE first I am at Harmon's right now. I wrote him a long message on Facebook asking him to please consider the choices he makes. I don't think anything's wrong with working in Colorado or anywhere. I don't think for a second you have to live in Utah to maintain your testimony. I do believe I was given that dream for a reason however.

AFTER writing my message I just tried to send it and it said he's not receiving messages from me. I wished him a happy birthday in October. I can't believe him.

I am such an idiot to even try. What the hell. One day I hope my dream never comes true. Even if he is a jerk he has always had a firm testimony. I don't want anyone to ever lose their blessings. I always thought he lost them long ago in Logan when I first interacted with him. Now I think his fall to hell is complete.

This is a huge organized entity I hadn't really considered. WOW!!! I was interested in attending the national military library organization stuff but I had no idea there is a huge organization just for air force librarians. There is so much information available that it makes it sooo amazing. I wasn't encouraged by the databases mentioned in the information online and posted. I seriously considered trying to get our patrons access to Utah's pioneer databases accessible from any Utah public library BUUUT after finally viewing the real list there isn't a need.

There is so much to learn and I can't wait. My brother told me to arrange things so I work 40 hours AND supplement my income with real estate. Since I'll be setting my own schedule this shouldn't be a problem. I can't get enough of my nieces and nephews. They are a delight. I am so grateful my brother was able to change my brake pads for me. I need my car to last longer. I hate that it feels like it drains money from me continually. I need to get my safety check completed next month and it will help. Looking at how worn my brake pads showed me how needed it was.

George has all sorts of tools. He loves doing this stuff. I am lucky. He changed my alternator for me once. He isn't afraid to try to do it.

The air force chief of staff puts out a yearly reading/media/art list since 2006 to allow airmen to have common points of reference. I can't wait to learn as much as possible and I can't wait to decorate this thing. One of my new workers reached out and emailed me to see if I'd do lunch with she and the other workers this Monday. I agreed of course and I can't wait to meet them all.

Mom is watching George's new dog while his family goes to Vegas for the night. They'll bring her home tomorrow or Sunday. We went late to our family meeting with uncle Lehonitai and aunty Lini but AFTER an hour there she still hadn't arrived. I wanted to get home. I had to stop at Lehi and get some caffeinated beverage. Time for me to work out and eat well again. It is so time.

I'm so grateful for the many opportunities I continue to receive.

My brother is changing my brake pads. I am here in Provo feeling stuffed. We are sleeping over to see Aunty Lini and uncle Tai at the Provo Sunset ward chapel tomorrow. Originally they planned on meeting and eating together at Golden Corral in Orem BUUUT they changed the plan. Aunty Lini and uncle Inoke are back from their mission in Tonga. Uncle Tai is visiting with his wife now too.

My mother kept freaking out about how there was supposed to be a storm today so we weren't going to travel to Happy Valley. I bought everything to provide Thanksgiving for my mother since I don't know how long it'll be before she isn't here anymore. She's 71 now. I love my nieces and nephews so much. They are so cute.

I FINALLY met my boss. He is amazing. I will enjoy working with him very much. I told him the only way I'm going to be able to reconcile this is if I work part time. They seem to only hire people with a guarantee of 25 hours a week but then he told me I can work 40 hours if I want.

Training - the mandatory so the company isn't liable type AND signing more papers. I am so grateful for this job but sooo not grateful for what I'll be paid. I was trying to look up the Dugway proving ground librarian. He is my contemporary in Utah. I wonder if he's going to our conference.

I was hoping to meet my new boss today but I didn't. I am going to go home and sleep. I don't get commissary or PX benefits. I wonder if Dougway Proving Ground and Hill Air Force Base collaborate at all. I'm tired mainly because that training is draining. There are aspects of my job I love and aspects I don't.

I like that I was hired as a supervisory librarian. I have 2 employees one of whom is full time and from lodging.

I love it so much buuut when I have to work the 10am session it makes for a looong day. I got out around 12:15pm. It was nice to see Elder Okabe there and then to see the sister the works the receptionist desk. She yelled out my name as they were filing in for the 10am session. Tisina, mom's friend, was also there. I am fortunate to have the connections I enjoy.

I saw Ofa Pulu the mother of one of the little girls I mentored with the Asian Association. It is getting colder. Tomorrow is Stake Conference. I am at Harmon's now. I wanted to get online asap to see if any email had backed up. That performing artist at the U to pretend you are a patient came through. It pays $15 an hour and it would be a nice little supplement.

So everything is done and cleared and I can't wait!!! There is a division in the SLA or Special library Association for Military Librarians and their conference is at the beginning of December in Virginia. I would looove to attend and I definitely want to be a member too. ULA is at the Davis Conference Center this year so it'll be very convenient to Hill AFB.

I am going to prepare now. There is a Hawaiian librarian at the local high school closest to the base or Northridge High School I added her on LinkedIn after doing a search. I am going to gather all the information I possibly can pull. It is so fun to make plans and then implement them. They've done a fantastic job with the library so far. Their events look fun and amazing.

I just emailed my boss about the workshop. My mother and brother told me about how economical it is to fly with the military. Especially since I'm working with the Air Force. I hope I can attend. I know it is rather soon but I had to try since it hasn't happened yet for the year.

I am going to start compiling a document with information to help me at my new position.

I went to get my fingerprints taken at Hill AFB earlier today. I couldn't find the building at first although I did run into the library. When I was done I drove back there. I am so happy. It is the perfect size. North Logan is larger as is Logan and Hyrum. All the County libraries are larger. When Herriman was at the strip mall of course it was smaller. It is about the same size as the City Sweet Library in the Avenues. I am excited to see it especially since it's getting renovated now.

Next week I start Tuesday. I'm so excited!!! FINALLY!!! This is exactly the job I want. Managing a public library. I never thought it'd be on a military base but that's just fine with me. I ate lunch today at the mall food court. It is a crappy mall and the people there were NOOOT normal. They and that area just South of the base is not a nice area. When I went to ULA at the Davis Conference Center I went to a nicer part of Layton. It is newer and developed more. The base is so much larger than I had first supposed.

I intend to get to know EVERYONE I possibly can. There is an actual newspaper just for the base. Mail considers Hill AFB a city in Utah. Interesting. There were 2 pots of boiled peanuts at the gas station stop. It reminded me of Hawaii. I love Filipino boiled peanuts. There were 2 different flavors and I know they eat them in the South. I welcome this chance to meet a bunch of new people and to share the gospel with them eventually. Baby steps. I can't wait for all of this to come together.

It is so nice to worry about work again. I looove that I'm over the library. My boss seems very cool AND he is a Director of Force Development Flight 75FSS/FSD. I wish I actually knew what that really meant.

I bought some chocolate muffins today for AJS tomorrow. I am going to visit, take the chocolate muffins and Thank you cards. I'm so grateful to them for how much they helped me. If I hadn't been trying to get my numbers I never would've applied for the position in the first place.

Extensive paperwork AND a detailed online questionnaire PLUS I also get to go in and get my fingerprints done. I need my official transcript sent with my MLS listed. My official title is supervisory librarian. I am so excited. This is the perfect job for me - a part time librarian who runs the whole show. Sooo up my alley!!! All the buildings on base look alike to me and I spent a fair amount of time running around being lost. Add that to they're building a traffic light at the South entrance and I got to leave my Driver's license with some guard while I turned around and went to visitor's parking where I had to get a visitor's pass AFTER showing them my license, registration and proof of insurance. The visitor's office was filthy and I was disgusted with it. Isn't the military supposed to be freaky clean? The women who work there should think to dust the damn computers and desks visitors have to look at. Everything is old too. It can be clean and old however. I don't know how they stand it.

I am sooo grateful I have this job. I will prove my worth before I even start to work on a pay raise. I met someone named Bob in the office. He is retired from the NAF or the division I work for. I invited him to visit the library. I'd like to complete everything I need to do then start identifying grants the library may qualify for. I'm not sure how that works since it's a federal thing. Tonight is my ward Christmas party/auction to raise money. The drive was fine. It takes about 22 minutes. It is closer than many libraries I used to work at regularly. It is closer than Bingham Creek, Sandy, Draper, Herriman, Riverton and the South Jordan libraries. If I hadn't lived in Logan I wouldn't have realized that. Weird. I just never went North for any reason.

That Korean restaurant Carline took us to is a couple blocks from base. I went and got Bulgogi Kim bap before I came home. I am sooo going to be a frequent customer there. It is a rundown place but their food is excellent and reasonably priced. I haven't found a good Korean restaurant in Utah.

I got the correct name of the man who interviewed me so I'm going to send him a thank you card. Dale Emmerson. His LinkedIn page is filled with impressive experience. I'm going to do my homework and research on him too. Rather on everything I can find about the library.

Dale wasn't kidding and someone called me today. I am going there tomorrow to fill out paperwork and I officially begin on the 24th. I'm very excited.

Thelina also said it was her last day. I heard from Roseman University and they're not giving me another interview. REALLY???!!! I thought at least I'd get that. I applied for a Global Operations Software Trainer job at Merit Medical and a Performing Artist job at the U. It is to pretend to be a patient and act out scenarios for medical students. I just need to apply for stuff EVERY day. I'm trying to incorporate the 15, 10, 2 principle.

I still have the number for Dale and so I called it. It went directly to voice mail and I discovered his last name is Hendrickson. I just applied for my 3rd job. A real estate position. I wanted to apply at Kelley Services too but it is now after 6pm.

I called Dale from Hill AFB and at least I discovered his last name is Hendrickson. I think I found him on Facebook but I'm not certain. I think he lives in Brigham City. It is actually faster for me to drive there than for him since my mother is almost in North Salt Lake City but not quite to their city limits.

Job-hunting continues to be annoying and frustrating.

I applied for 3 jobs, 2 at some recruiting firm named The Job Window. Upon closer inspection they are a front for recruiting demonstrators at Sam's Club or Costco's. Annoying. I thought they were a national recruiter with local offices/recruiters. I bought food from the store A HUUUGE MISTAKE. I spent $8 on potstickers, an egg roll, raspberries and yogurt with some sort of seltzer drink I'm NEVER buying again. It just tastes like Perrier.

The water is off at home so I'm not going there and my mother's at the family history library. It is only after 3 so I have 2 more hours to kill. No word yet from anyone at Hill Air Force Base. I am trying to get Dawna - some lady who ran our Professional Networking Group to give me the contact 411 for someone she knows there.

It takes half an hour to drive there and I found a Facebook page for the library online. If I ever actually do that job I'm going to take advantage of the state resources and then also meet and form alliances with other Layton librarians at the local Davis county libraries in the area. I'm not moving if I get the job. Half an hour is fine. It's just that I usually don't travel North. I'd go to the Bountiful temple when Salt Lake was closed but other than that there was never any reason to travel North.

When I get hungry or if I get hungry again I can just hit up MickeyD's. Actually I want some cheese but I just refuse to pay the prices here although cheese would've cost me a little less than $3 and I wouldn't be ticked right now.

I need a job-finding activity right now. I've exhausted my indeed leads and ula, county, state - everything else.

From yesterday

Today some director called me from Hill Air Force Base. He wanted to be sure I was alright with less than 40 hours a week. YES, I'm alright with that. Actually I want that. It sounds like an amazing job I'd love ALTHOUGH it pays 16.75 an hour and it is a solo librarian position that would do ALL the programming - Children, Teens AND Adults. There are 2 other library aids that also work there. I am sooo up for that sort of challenge BUUUT the position should pay A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT MORE. I do like the part time aspect however because it will allow me to develop my real estate thing. He did sound like we could work on the pay however which encouraged me.

At the end he told me he would send my name to Human Resources and that they would call me with an offer. I was almost about to ask him if he didn't want to interview me first but I caught myself in time. I told him I'd watch my email. I haven't heard anything YET which is most frustrating. I went to my interview with Robert Half today. It was alright, actually it was very good. I will make sure to write my Thank you card tonight. I'm hanging out at Harmon's so I can check my email periodically. It is after 5 now so I probably need to wait until tomorrow.

It's getting cold in here.

Yesterday this ward acquaintance - he's been at fhe which is why I recognize him, asked me out of the blue if I'd go to New York with him for Thanksgiving where we could watch the parade, go and see his girls and just have fun. OF COURSE New York for Thanksgiving sounds amazing, with some guy in my ward who is good-looking BUUUT divorced with children AND who has never even asked me out or even sought me out just for conversation. I asked him if he was going to pay for my ticket BECAUSE THAT'S why I'm not going. He said he couldn't but that my ticket would only be a little over $400. I thanked him for the invitation BUUUT seriously???

If he developed a friendship with someone he'd probably find someone to go with him. He is physically attractive to me. It was so strange. It didn't feel like he was even asking me out. A buddy trip perhaps? He needs to work on his technique.

Last night I went with Cara, bishop and his wife to my friend Lusi's house. Her father just passed away. He is 88 and had been ill for some time. Lusi was the YA rep in the first Tonga ward I attended in Salt Lake City. She is stalwart and although she lives in Salt Lake she doesn't communicate in English unless she has to do that. Lusi is one of 15, yes 15 children. 3 are triplets. Bishop has 6 kids. I told Sister White last night I bet she thought she had a big family.

Bishop was perfect last night. I waited for he, his wife and Cara so we could go nicely in together. We had a nice conversation with them. I'm glad I was there so we could do that well and keep the cultural norms. I'm so glad my mother found this nice crocheted blanket I could give Lusi. I wanted to do that for her. Cara sent a card around the RS to sign and bishop gave her another card. I did the traditional thing. She cried when I gave it to her she was so moved.

I love how stalwart her entire family is. We could all learn from her family. I see her mother in the temple EVERY Saturday. She hardly understands English but she is there EVERY Saturday.

I certainly don't want to quit AJS but my mother told me she doesn't think she can afford to help me pay for gas there. I already spent money on my insurance or rather the bank paid it and I''ll have to pay it back or risk closing my account again which I certainly don't want. When I was considering temporary agencies I felt a spiritual inclination towards Robert Half so I went out of my way to apply with them  BUUUT no one ever returned a call to me.

Frustrated I was annoyed with the recruiter who didn't call me back. LDS Employment services had Tiffany come to speak with us. I already had a bad attitude because it was the lady who didn't return my phone calls Tiffany. It turned out to be a different Tiffany. Every other AJS member had interviews with Tiffany and that ticked me off because I had that initial spiritual nudge but NOTHING. Sooo I decided to try again and I emailed the new Tiffany who replied she'd forward my resume to the first Tiffany. NOTHING happened and I decided to leave that alone BUUUT she called me and so I decided to make an effort with her and called her back. She was very pleasant on the phone and I told her I wanted temporary work since nothing had happened yet with the jobs I had applied for. I am meeting with her Monday at 3pm.

I'm trying to keep following the AJS principles even if I don't have the gas money. I will borrow and get money to continue this if I can get an assignment with Robert Half. That would be so sweet. INALJ is a fabulous resource. I found a Hill Air Force Base librarian supervisory job along with a Sr Event Coordinator job I'd love at the U. Sometimes I feel like I have too many scattered interests. I looove event planning but then I also love decorating and real estate and libraries.

The state has a great job I'd love doing too. I requested a new password so I can apply for it but it hasn't sent me one yet. I even bothered looking because of the INALJ Utah site. It is a fabulous resource I am happy to have found. I'm not going to quit AJS if I can help it and Robert Half may allow me to retain it.

Our director Christy was ticked at Trevor and I although she addressed ALL of us about what we were doing. She said basically that we weren't putting forth the effort the missionaries were to get the jobs we wanted. I wanted to scream at her but it was better to say nothing. She said she was led by the spirit to tell us that. How the hell are you supposed to argue with that? I am really putting forth the effort. I haven't incorporated my zumba and eating healthy again which I know will help but I certainly didn't need her attitude. Some bishop called her and wanted to know what was happening. I wonder if it was my bishop.

Maybe she feels we need a kick in the pants. Whatever. I just did not appreciate how she was acting. I am happy whenever anyone has success BUT when I HAVE been working my butt off to try to reach the metrics they've developed for us it is frustrating when nothing's happened yet.

I went to the U's job fair. It was impressive. When I was there I attended job fairs but they were nothing like this. I made a point to meet the Biofire recruiter. Her name is Kim and I appreciated very much what she told me. She said whoever was hired would be starting from scratch and putting the whole system together EXACTLY what I like. I looove any assignment where I am in charge of creating something new. I want that job.

I also applied for an editor/office manager position at Friendemic. It sounds like an amazing company to work for and they're located downtown. She looked at me condescendingly and questioned my editing skills. My name and appearance don't lead people to believe I can do that. They look at me and my name and assume stupidly English is my second language. When I encounter people like that I just think racist condescending dingbat. YES I do go there because people go there all the damn time with me. I wonder if she'll even give me an interview. I hope she does and I hope I can change her stupid initial assumption.

I feel good about my phone interview I had yesterday. I don't know what my competition is like however which is always the case with these librarian jobs. I think there are enough differences from StevensHenager to challenge me. I would be part of a library team. The facility is beautiful which matters a lot to me. I still hope to get an interview at Biofire. It sounds like the perfect challenge and opportunity for growth. Roseman University hours are up to 11 m through th. That could mean some degree of flexibility which I like.

15, 10 and 2 I haven't paid attention to my resources, contacts or face to face stuff like I should.
I want to give this program the attention it deserves but it is difficult when my mother's been supporting me as long as she has without me providing anything. She was complaining a lot tonight about me not just getting anything.

The City emailed me saying they are reopening the position and will still consider me for the position. I told them it would take me 45 days to have my record expunged because that's what Salt Lake Courts told me. Midvale finished MUCH faster than I expected much to my happy surprise. I can't help but wonder if the manager did that to accommodate my record clean-up time. That is very vain to think that but part of me actually thinks they want to give me the job but are held from that just because they want to take the 45 days it will take for my record to clear.