Urban Poly Princess

BUUUT I'm off the entire weekend so it is worth it to stay and push through it. My girls just left so I am here for another 2 hours. I am attending the Regional Midsingles New Years Eve dance at the Stadium. I was going to buy a new black dress but then I thought of how I actually have 4 black dresses right now and the weather is cold so I'm just going to use the one I have and wear my comfy white boots along with my furry white decorative coat. It is just decorative as in it is NOOOT warm.

One of my girls got another job within NAF with our Human Resources. I am so happy for her. I had to cut hours this next week and the response was chilling. I can't help it if that is what I was dealt and it was difficult to let them know their formerly 40-hour  job was being cut in half. I do not like that position at all but it is all a part of being a manager. There are a lot of things I need to get rid of. I discovered MORE damn files retained probably by my girl who disillusioned herself into thinking they'd get rid of me and need her assistance. The first thing I'm doing is retrieving my key.

Since Ahllam left Helen thought that meant she'd get her hours ... uh NOOO!!! Anna was pushing to get her the hours too. Helen said Dale told her or rather told Ahllam she'd get Helen's hours when she moved to Texas in July, uh NOOO!!! I reiterated

I was informed I get to MC the soft opening. Things R FINALLY coming together. I am going through these files from forever ago. I need to buy some of that window washer solution for my car. I am going to leave base to get my windows clean and buy some other stuff. I need some bread. I think Walmart is the best place to do that since I want to spend a little over a dollar not $5.


People really love their library here. There has been a steady stream of people even with the limited services we are offering now.

It's like no librarian since the existence of the facility in 1968 ever threw ANYTHING away and each subsequent librarian just created their own files so we have files and files and files and you had better believe I'm purging what I can when I can. We are having our soft opening tomorrow even though our computers haven't been set up yet. At least all the books are back on the shelves. NOW to get them in order on the shelves.


My fingers are so dry from handling so much paper. My goal is not to eat out this week. I bought some French bread and mayonnaise this morning from Walmart along with some chips. I think I'm going to do it. We have our soft opening tomorrow. We got the flag hanged after multiple attempts and different ladders. It looks great. The main part of the library reminds me of a hanger and I am anxious to get some model planes hanging from the ceiling in there. Sooo many records and paperwork.


I have a couple hours left for work. I am working 40 hours a week so I need to coordinate everything. I can't wait until all of this stuff is done and I can focus on story times plus meeting people on base and developing relationships with them to help my library. It is looking fabulous and I can't wait for it to be completed.


Nata didn't have any gifts on Christmas to unwrap. I told her I would try to make up for it now. I am going to send her a box and I'm going to get my mother to wrap the things so she can open something even if it isn't on Christmas. My poor niece felt like a loser and its us that are her loser family.

It began to come down on my way to work this morning. I got here at 8:30 a.m. this morning. I made fried rice for my girls. Weird for a Christmas gift but I know they're not the type that like baked goods. Tomorrow or rather tonight I'm making cinnamon rolls for my boss and this other guy Roy who has helped us so much with the library.


That was the start of yesterday. This morning there was a bunch of snow but it's all good now. I can't wait to see Nata tomorrow on Skype. I love the rest of my nieces and nephews and I can't wait to see them either. I'm at work. The library is FINALLY beginning to shape up. My boss and Roy bought us pizza before they disappeared on us. I have a bunch left still to take home.


I've been trying to make all of my Mid single activities lately. I'm wondering if I need to get a new home teacher. He is a good home teacher and he has a girlfriend. This is what I really liked about him because I would never date him EVER. He is a good person but he isn't the sharpest saw in the tool box. Financially he is SOOO NOOOT what I want either. He and Donna make a good match.


He didn't like when I decided to quiz and talk with this other guy in the ward and he kept trying to make he or I uncomfortable which didn't happen. He wanted to talk about him again when I saw him at our FHE too. VERY ANNOYING!!! I didn't give him what he wanted because I didn't have anything negative to say about the other guy and even if I did I wouldn't say it to my home teacher and give him false hope.

Thank Goodness!!! I am so happy it was moved to next Monday especially since we're closed Thurs/Friday/Saturday. We will have the same schedule next week with New Year's weekend. I had to tell one of the girls her hours would be cut significantly. She is upset and told me she would have to talk to Dale about it. We are ALL going to have to cut our hours. I can't help it if this is how it works. I feel bad for her but this is the way it is right now.


One of my other flex girls works extremely hard and I would love to increase her hours and get rid of this other one. She won't do anything unless she's specifically told to do that. I don't like being micromanaged OR having to do that either. FHE tonight is a potluck. I don't have time to make anything good. I'll just have to pick something up at the store. Maybe I'll do Little Ceasar's and cut it up on a tray from the dollar store or cookies from there. My go-to place when I'm running late and don't have time to do anything.

I didn't turn some videos in and now I have a fee of  $12.50. GRRR!!! I want to go to the library and finish rearranging things but I also know it is time for the rest of the stuff to get done too. I'm so grateful for many blessings I enjoy. It is so nice to have this day off however. All the working to make up the hours I missed from the snow first and then because I couldn't find my key.

I just want to go home and watch videos and nap. It's weird how much I need these breaks. I can't imagine a more perfect job for me. I love this and all it will add to my life. Next stop real estate. I have to get on this too - asap!!!

Since the carpeting is being redone it is time now to move the shelves while they are empty. I am so happy we got it done!!! I am so happy about that. Now I am going through all the old paperwork former librarians for some reason hung on to longer than they should've. It is monotonous which is why it is driving me a little stir crazy. I love how open and light the new set up is and I'm glad my boss seems to like it too.


I am having fun redoing this and I can't wait until it is all how I like it to be. Tonight the Asian girls are having a Korean movie night thing I would love to attend but she lives in South Jordan and it will take me longer to get there. The temple is closed the next 2 Thursdays which is nice for me. I have to stay until 6:30 tonight to get my 40 hours in.


Monday is our last push to get this library back to normal-looking at least. A bunch of volunteers are helping Monday to get this completed. I've gone through so many binders to get rid of items. I am still doing that and unlike the other longer days although this is longer it isn't as long as it's been these past few nights to make up hours for my snow day and my key drama day.


I am reviewing all the old documents they have in my office. It doesn't seem like people threw ANYTHING away. NO MORE!!! I wanted a big jack like they have at the downtown Target but they didn't have any here. REALLY???!!! Come on Layton. Their Target shoes were ugly too. Downtown target has nice boots. The Layton buyer sucks. I love how the shelves moved opens up the children and teen rooms. The shelves are ALL wooden. I love that. They are beautiful.


Chief Hiatt and Chief Gaither brought the staff cookies and stopped in to say hello. It was very nice of them. I love how it opened up the children's and teen rooms. They will be bright and happy now.


I love my job and I am so happy it landed on my lap the way it did. I can't wait to make the most of this opportunity and I'm doing it right now. My boss is very cool and the base in general is very cool too.

I'm at work now and I took a break to order pizza since I don't want to waste time right now and I'm hungry. I just ordered a veggie with chicken and a 20oz Diet Coke. Last night or rather yesterday I left early as in around 3ish. The drive to work I began at 6:15am but didn't finish until 8:09am. Many vehicles were sliding and stalled everywhere. The roads were filled with snow from the storm during the night. It was weird to drive 25-30 mph on the freeway but it was the safest method.


I decided to shovel snow last night from the driveway and then before going back inside the house I decided to grab my boxes from my car. I did then I tried to return to the house but I discovered I didn't have my key. I went around the house and yelled at my mother to let me in. I was certain I left the keys in the car.


I had some adventure with rip-off dishonest locksmiths before I had one charge me $80 for what took him 5 minutes to open. Unfortunately my keys were nowhere to be seen. I had them to open the car but not to open the house. After looking for the keys for hours my mother talked to the locksmith I used to see how much he'd charge to create a new key. He said $220 but he'd apply the $80 I'd already spent to the payment. It sounded great but I waited for this morning to get another quote from the dealer who referred me somewhere else. Glenn's keys wanted $220 PLUS an additional $50 service fee and then additional cost for the key. Oh hell NOOO!!!


I had to call in to work. The new circulation desk was delivered. It is beautiful. I got here around 4pm and to make it worth it I'm staying until 8pm. I am doing BOOORING but necessary online training. I also decorated my office with stuff from home. I will bring a couple more plants and then some books and then I'm done for now.

I had concerns about the pay and I didn't really know what I was getting myself into BUUUT it is exactly what I want - a good library job that is flexible enough to allow me to pursue real estate AND an LDS social life. I know my social life won't end just because I leave the Mid-singles program BUUUT it is easier to meet people at the same stage of life that way.

I am so grateful for first just a job period and secondly for a position that allows me to develop my leadership and creativity as much as I want to do that. It is fun to be the boss and my other positions would not have given me that. I can't believe this is what I received. I am so grateful for this opportunity. It is a job I can stay at for a long time. It is in leadership AND it gives me the freedom to develop this exactly how I want. Where else will I get to do that?

Life is very, very good. My boss didn't go to the Christmas party AND he told me tickets were $15 instead of $10 since I'm a manager. Christmas party time is soon. Time to be social and interact with my ward peeps.

I changed my temple time to Thursday night. The Saturday mid-day shift I originally planned  to join called me twice to see if I'd be there today. I woke up extremely early Thursday and made it there to my Library at 5:45. I left my Thursday meeting at 2:17 and got there but since I couldn't find my locker key I had to get a sister to go with me to sign the locker key out. It is such an inconvenience although I get why they have to do that.

Thursday nights have half hour dinner breaks. That was very nice although I am disappointed by the prices at the temple cafeteria. I plan on taking my own food in the future. After a very hectic day at work it was great to have a calm evening in the temple. I love it there and I am grateful I can still do and AND not have to work on Saturday early morning anymore.

I have decided on my new schedule. The library will continue its old hours and be open late on Mondays and Wednesdays. I will work Monday and Tuesday from 7am to 6pm with an hour lunch, Wednesday from 7am to 8pm with an hour lunch and then Thursday from 5:45-2:15 with half an hour lunch. I won't work Friday or Saturday. That'll give me my full time hours AND allow me to attend FHE and ward temple night usually held on Tuesdays. I'll miss institute but although the teachers were interesting, I disliked their emphasis on the intellectual aspects of the gospel. It was fine but one reason why I loved Bro. Salmon in Providence is he highlighted intellectual stuff but he never let it overshadow the importance of the spirit and the Savior.

I will develop my real estate on Fridays and Saturdays and I'm just not going to take that job at the U.

I am getting so excited about my job. The air force mission is to win in the air, space and cyberspace. Since the main part of the library will feature antique planes and aviation, I can develop the children's area to focus on space and the teen area will handle cyberspace. I am only thinking of decor but each fits those selections anyway. My bishopric is getting reorganized tomorrow. Tonight is our Christmas Party. We are all supposed to don ugly sweaters. I found a black sweater with gold lettering stating this is my ugly Christmas sweater but it isn't ugly, it is black and cute.

I didn't really want to intentionally buy something ugly although I did consider a few this is the one I settled on. I think it is at 7pm but I need to look for sure. I am going to miss bishop. It is unfortunate he has known me as the unemployed girl for so long. I want my business cards printed as soon as possible. I am going to network like crazy for my library.

I need to think of appropriate gifts for my library girls and an appropriate gift for my boss. I spent about $50.00 on a Salt Lake Temple lego set for my office. It is the perfect conversation piece. It is symbolic of Utah and not just the church. I want everyone I meet to get a sense of who I am and definitely when they see my lego creation. My mother's going to help me. I thought it would be simple but it isn't and there are 12000-17000 pieces with illustrations that'll hopefully guide me enough to put this thing together. It states on the box it is for people 12 and up. I feel like I'm going to need help. My mother's agreed to help where she can.

Early this morning as in 3am, that's when I tend to do any thinking, I thought a lot about how I needed I study my scriptures more intently along with the recent conference. I have never been more sure of the gospel before in my life. This past year has been hell. I am grateful I found out about my record and that I've been able to expunge my record BUUUT I am also a little concerned that my Father in Heaven let me flounder as much as I did. It hasn't been easy for my mother to support me. I should be supporting her now.

I am so blessed but I still feel weary and beaten and I REALLY don't get what I was supposed to learn from that experience from Hell FOR SO FREAKING LONG. I have my dream job EXCEPT the pay. My library looks amazing and I can't wait to make it as great as I know it can become. Today I started work at 7am and it was fine. I told my boss I am going to work at 6am Thursday which is when he begins. He doesn't care as long as I work under 40 hours and do what I need to do. I'm changing my temple shift to Thursday night for my real estate venture AND because I am going to make the concerted effort to get to know, date AND marry someone and I am going to attend all the mid single activities I can as soon as I get a chance.

This is my last year or actually less than a year that I have. I will turn 46 in September and I don't plan on being like all these other people I know who keep attending even when they've aged out. Maybe I'll move to Layton when that happens so I don't have to attend a Rose Park Ward.

It is easy to read the scriptures and counsel from our leaders daily. That and prayer is how we can all draw closer to Him each day. It has never been more clear or obvious. I've thought about my friend actually falling away from the church. From what I know of him it doesn't seem possible BUT many of the elite have fallen and lost their blessings. I NEVER want that to happen to me EVER BUT if I keep feeling cheated and forgotten and instead forget what brings me lasting and then even happiness right away I know I and anyone can end up in that position.

Heavenly Father loves me and keeps blessing me. I know the challenges made me better although I know for sure I never would've chosen them. I can't wait to get through this week, feel better physically then devote myself to Zumba again along with eating healthily. I love my library and my new office. I can't wait to decorate. I am so happy I'm the Director. I love my job. I want to exceed expectations AND rock real estate too. Life is filled with opportunity. I am grateful.

I wish I could be as great as I know I can be. I know perfection is a process. I just wish it didn't require what it did sometime.

I just need to explore more. There is a Target nearby, a bunch of chain restaurants and George said there's even an ivory homes community nearby. I could live there. It isn't Logan and Salt Lake is close enough too. Moria suggested I move there eventually and I thought I will NEVER move there but I could do it. Not anytime soon however. I am going to finish paying the taxes I owe first.
I didn't go to church today. I wanted to rest for next week

No temple today for me and next week I will start the mid day shift. I have to sign these forms to accept the job at the U. My priority however is the library and I am going to do an amazing job there.
I feel weak and gross all over. I missed a nice mid singles dance at the capitol. I am so grateful for my job. I love the challenge and there is so much for me to learn and do as soon as possible.

So much to do and to be done. I am grateful for every opportunity I receive.

I am just on here doing what the hell I can and I am also feeling so very crappy. I had my eye appointment today which is nice. My vision is worse which sucks BUUUT I can see much better and the glasses can rest!!! I hate them so much. I have my access AGAIN, sort of!!! There are so many different systems and I am trying to get on all the ones I'm supposed to be on. I know eventually this will all make sense but then in the meantime it sure sucks a whole hell of a lot!!!


My computer doesn't work yet and someone from Jamie's old area is helping as a personal favor to her which is very nice because I get to benefit from that. I just can't wait until I'm in the library and really in my own office.


I am on someone else's PC now. Things work with an access card which works for me so hopefully I won't have to do this much longer. I want everything running as it should so I can just concentrate on doing my job well. I went to an eye appointment today so I'm staying longer today.

I left my contacts on and fell asleep. Since I was catching a cold it follows that one of my eyes would get infected. The redness is decreasing however and it isn't as bad as it was that one time in Logan.I do however feel like a damn dog since I'm not wearing makeup AND wearing my glasses. I called Sister Call to change my temple shift. I'm moving to Saturday Mid day for now until I add the real estate thing. I want multiple sources of income. I NEVER ever want to be that hard up for money EVER again.

Boss is in Las Vegas... Which means I have to come up with things to do since I can't get on the damn computer ORRR net... THANK U secure government. When that FINALLY clears I'll be able to move forward. I am doing a lot of thinking about decorating. I love aviator themes and how can I NOT do that in the library? I went to the Air museum today to look at what they have and see if I can sweet talk the curator so I can get him to help me hang stuff from the ceiling. I know I can make it look super-cool.

Maybe it's too obvious to use that theme. BUUUT what the Hell AND I can trick it out for the little ceremony we need to throw in mid-January. I want to hone the points we want to focus on during the ceremony. Like the me-in-30-seconds thing I'm going to target the message and market myself, the library and Dale so we all look amazing AND are amazing by providing the best services we can.

The U hired me for that patient acting position. I'm taking it. It isn't very many hours but it can supplement my income and since I set my own schedule I can make it work whatever and however that might be. It is so easy and although it only pays $15 an hour it is worth it part time and since I set the schedule I can certainly make that work.

I think George gave me my cold. I thought I felt crappy because it was that time of the month but that's done now and I still feel horrible. My computer access could take as long as 3 days now. There was a form my boss didn't know I needed to sign. He also had to sign it along with some other guy. That is so irritating. There is only so much I can read before I go crazy. I am however going to start scheduling events and compiling a list of things I want Dale to do as well as get resources gathered. I am going to schedule ULA conference dates I plan to attend too. There is so much to do and I am very excited about that.

I also need to compile some pictures for decorating ideas. There is so much to do and I'm so excited about all of that.

I think David is doing his best but it's just a feeling I have. I think my reaction is just more of my diva princess thing I always have to remind myself to overcome. I hope and pray he never makes those stupid choices that can lead to his not receiving the amazing blessings he can enjoy. He is the most intelligent AND spiritual person I know. His weaknesses pale in comparison to his strengths.