Urban Poly Princess

He told me I'm still 20% responsible since I didn't notice the other driver until it was too late. I am sooo SICK of this! I called George who wanted the telephone number and was LIVID!!!

Monday should B an interesting day with George. I'm glad they're taking over the rent-a-car payments.

This car business has completely overwhelmed me this week and last BUT my life is SOOO NOT about this. There R amazing opportunities and I REFUSE to let this setback paralyze me anymore. I'm sick of crying and stressing out over something I can't control. If I do EVERYTHING I can to progress as I should I just have to let go and allow my father in heaven to make up the rest. THE very basic principle of the gospel of Jesus Christ is that he will make up for our short-comings. The world never has been fair. I know that. I just wish that made this easy. It doesn't.

I'm so grateful for the scriptures, for the temple, for the leaders I've been blessed with. My father in heaven loves me very much. My car may B totaled but I didn't suffer anything physical. My mental anguish however has been hell on earth.

It may not seem like I'm letting this go but I am. This is why I dubbed this my blogging therapy. I love writing. It sharpens my focus and allows me to realize the REAL impact. It helps me grow. Exertion is required. The eternal law of the harvest persists. No pain, no gain. We reap what we sow. What is this experience supposed to teach me? One thing is certain. NEVER is this EVER going to happen to me again. I will B overly cautious and record witnesses names and telephone numbers. I will NEVER be in this position again. The officer's reassurances about NOT needing the witnesses turned out to B crap. I could tell him that but he NEVER answered his damn phone. His sergeant did the exact same thing. I wasn't doing anything wrong. Why did they all treat me like this???

The Allstate agent for the girl RESPONSIBLE for my collision, loss of work, money, time-that I REALLY DON'T HAVE!!! told me his client is only 80% responsible since I should have been able to slow down-I told him that was pretty hard with 2 lanes of traffic obstructing my view but he maintains I said otherwise. I don't remember saying that. He is completely taking advantage of me. He reminded me that he advised me to contact my insurance company to make a claim. BUT Y the L would I do that when it was COMPLETELY her fault???!!!??? Sooo he's doing this to teach me a lesson? Because I didn't listen to him? I REALLY hope that's NOT Y. He is totally taking advantage of me. He called me just B4 5:30 eliminating ANY glimmer of hope I had to get this done this weekend. They will only pay 80% of my post-collision bills. I WAS SOOO royally ticked off-BUT I am more sick of dealing with this and I just want it over asap. So I left a message telling him I just want it to be over and to let me know what I need to do to speed this up.

Since now I'll B buying an even crappier piece of metal, I'd like it already. I want to return this rent a car ESPECIALLY since it's a Toyota Corolla and the news last night ran a special about Toyotas issuing a recall because people have DIED because of some default they haven't identified yet that makes it accelerate randomly. They STILL don't know what's wrong although initially they Blieved the car mats were to blame. They fished a late model Toyota out of a lake that killed 4 or 5 people. Toyota found the floor mats in the trunk so they R at a loss as to what caused the defect.

Even with the crap this has given me I am VERY GLAD this is about over. I feel like the agent is trying to drag this out. Whatever!!!

Last Monday on my way to ward FHE in Kearns someone plowed into my car. I noticed her too late and my car is now Totaled.

THANKS A LOT!!!

I was incensed!!! Although the front of my car looks like an accordian, I didn't suffer a scratch. My brother had to remind me of how much I had to B grateful for. Instead I've been focusing a lot on hurrying the insurance company along, the police along, EVERYONE along so they can JUST cut my check and I can get another car ALREADY!!! Sooo annoying!!!

My rent-a-car's reminded me of how easy it is to drive a car vs. an suv. NO taking extra special time or care rounding the corners is nice! Time for me to drive a car again because if I bought an SUV it would have to B an even older model. I've decided to get a 2006-something. There are enough for sale throughout SLC that'll allow me to get a pretty good car. I've been combing the ksl.com ads. These are nice because they include pictures. I'm sure I'll get a boring 4-door sedan but it'll at least B reliable and good on gas.

I want this to B settled asap. My job-hunting and fitness goals have been taking a backseat to this turmoil! I can't let this keep turning everything upside down like I have been.

I'm going to hone my blogging 2! This is going to get better!

I've been thinking a lot about what I truly love and how I want to spend my life. I have a clearer vision of what gives me joy. I like interacting with people, I love variety and I like change. I love flexibility.

I'm excited for clarity. With my goal to apply for 5 different positions a day I thought about the last customer service job I had. While I did it well and enjoyed talking to and helping a variety of people, it's NOT something I'm passionate about doing. When I think about ALL the jobs I've had that I enjoyed they were NOT 9-5 jobs where I did the same thing EVERY DAY. Admittedly dancing was a job that spoiled me. I know how lucky I was to B paid to perform when I was in JR high and then high school. I had fun acting in plays in Tonga growing up and I loved being in color guard in high school. I loved missionary work, I enjoyed leadership positions, responsibility, speaking to the public, interaction. I had fun being a mentor to Pacific Islander and Asian kids. I liked giving elementary school kids tours of the circuit courts in Hawaii, I enjoyed being a church service missionary at the conference center. I will ALWAYS love sharing information about the gospel with other people.

There are enough jobs out there for me to apply JUST for things I find fascinating and I DON'T have to just work anywhere.

It's fine to B choosy, I just need to B persistent with ALL my choices and make sure each of these supports exactly where I want to B!!! Life is fabulous! We all have sooo many amazing opportunities. I am so grateful for my insight. The hardest thing about ANYTHING is figuring out what we want. Achieving it is simply a series of steps. Time for me to get stepping!

Sooo grateful and sooo blessed for sooo much! After graduating in May of 2008 I thought I'd have my full time librarian job making enough money by now to refinance my school loan into my 1st house loan BUT thanks to a hiring freeze with the County, NOOOO... now I've been out of school for over a year and a half AND I STILL have the SAME job I landed while I was STILL in school. Now I knew I'd have to pay my dues... BUT come on now!!!

My last interview with the county was for a 20-hour youth services librarian position-we had 80 applicants and at least one I know of from out-of-state. My interview went well and the manager told me how well I interviewed but that other applicants had more experience-yeah that's ALWAYS going to B true for awhile. Sub experience is great and I am so grateful for it but right now I'm sick of watching EVERY penny. I'm sooo NOOOT KIDDING about that. One $3500 car repair is all it took to throw my finances to hell. My brother told me uh U need to work a 40-hour job like "normal" people. Yeah he's right! I just thought I could handle waiting until my librarian job showed up since my car's paid off and I don't pay rent with my mother. My mother decided she's had enough of the snow and she's planning on leaving back to Hawaii. She wants me to go BUT NOOO!!! Sooo it'll B back to the real world where rent is a monthly occurence. Fine usually and I could do it provided I had no surprise repair bills from Hell.

Now it's time for me to work full time somewhere and SUPPLEMENT with librarian subbing instead of making it my main source of income. Tithing settlement helped me realize how crappy my annual earnings were and I'm just not willing to do that anymore plus with my mother leaving I need to pay rent again and I have no choice!!! I wonder what I'll be doing. I still want my Salt Lake City entertainment blog but I do need money NOW!