Urban Poly Princess

Fast Sundays are all about magnified emotions for me. I think I was given more than my fair share of the emotional stuff because I'm sitting here crying about nothing and everything and anything. I'm sure I'm start my period soon so I can quit feeling like an idiot.

I didn't see David in church today. I miss him but I don't really have anything to say to him either. His degree of jerkhood was truly phenomenal.

I still enjoy and miss his company. I just wish we could be NORMAL but since we met NOTHING has been normal about our relationship AT ALL. Funny-while I still think he's attractive, I know him well enough that it doesn't matter what he looks like anymore. That doesn't mean if I see him in an ugly t-shirt or tie I won't want to burn it. I still don't know how that happened. I feel like I lost one of my best friends. I don't have any friends as smart as him who also love the gospel, live it AND find school important too.

Actually I don't really get that school is all that important to him. I know he does well there and I know he wants his PhD but I feel like he was told by the spirit to get it but that he doesn't really see the need for it. I don't get that he wants to teach either. It is important to me that he get his PhD. I'm glad he has his master's degree now. I'm not sure why that is so important to me but it is.

In my research for my thesis I came across an article in Forbes magazine. It said the least-profitable master degree is library science. At the other end of the spectrum one of the most profitable is his-electrical engineering. An MLS is supposed to make an average of 60,000 mid-career. An electrical engineering master degree should bring in 110,000 mid-career. That is almost twice more. The MBA is supposed to earn between 70-150,000 by contrast. I don't want to just be a librarian. I like being in charge. I want to be a library director. The average salary for a library director nationwide is 91,000. Less than 100,000 but that is just an average. If make over six figures I'll be fine. When I have children however I don't plan on working outside the home.

I'll just have my Zumba business that'll be completely up to me as far as scheduling is concerned. Alisa has her own punchcards for her Zumba students. They are awesome!!!

I remember when I first met David and he was talking about being in school. I felt horrible because I thought he was getting his undergraduate degree.

I wish I was in Salt Lake to see the Christmas devotional. I don't want to drive there however. I'll watch it online instead. Not the same but better than nothing. My emotions have calmed down significantly.

I miss David very much and I want to be his friend again. I don't know how to do that but after my MBA is done that'll be where I turn my attention to next-that AND Zumba AND my Recycling formal dresses project. 2013 is the year for making 50,000 a year. I'm thinking David probably made around 75,000 a year when he was an engineer BUT it could've been more. I don't think he made 100k yet BUT again I could be wrong.