Urban Poly Princess

EMZ is always wonderful. I feel like I've been on a huge Zumba vacay. It was nice to finish it. My mother thinks I should apply for and take a job that doesn't pay well. She wants me to work for the airlines so she gets free flight benefits. She told me I'm putting riches before what I should. I don't think so. I didn't get 2 master's degrees to go and work somewhere for $10 an hour or even $15
-she needs to get a grip.

I am applying for the diversity resident librarian at the University of Utah. She is driving me crazy. I know the position can start as late as July BUUUT I need it now.

I don't want to drive to Draper to attend this fireside but I should go that's what you do when you are trying to find and marry your eternal companion.

Curtis posted some pictures of he and his family. He is in full-on grizzly bear beard mode AND he is still hot. I guess when you look that good it doesn't matter what you do with your facial hair. He is the ONLY guy I know who can get away with that. He isn't half-Chinese or half anything. He is completely white but he is completely beautiful.

There's a Midsingles fireside in Draper. There's a fireside next week too and gas will go down if I go all the way to Draper. It's not like I don't know how the hell to get there and I love Draper. The neighborhoods and amenities are all things I like. My gas tank is full.

So I looked at Shem's brother's page. I think I was just in shock to see someone Asian. Shem is the best-looking. I saw pics of his brother singing so he probably shares that in common with Shem. I have absolutely no sense of either's spiritual state from their pages BUUUT then that really doesn't indicate anything.

I like the name Shem. I am grateful there are so many different men I am meeting here. I saw and danced with Steve too. He was looking pretty dapper as well. I know he is good spiritually. I wish I felt something at the temple that one time. It makes me think he's not for me but he's the best spiritually that I've met and he doesn't look bad. He's just short which I hate. It was so refreshing to go to a dance and have fun dancing to good CURRENT music played on a nice sound system at a nice venue. I was impressed and glad I went. I was exhausted that day. I wore flat boots instead of the stilettos I should've worn.

Since Shem looked pretty spiffy at the New Years Dance and got rid of the facial hair I decided to look at his Facebook page closer and I'm pretty sure he is 1/2 Chinese. Who knew there were so many with that combination outside of Hawaii. That's why he looks Hawaiian. He has a brother named Han which is completely a Chinese name and he looks Chinese too. He is gorgeous. He lives in New York and was an English major too. He was raised I think in Ogden which is where his friend I met is from.

Shem doesn't look bad especially since he shaved AND he sings and dances well. I love that he was an English major too BUUUT he also has some hipster tendencies I don't like and his apartment is awful. I am grateful to have him as a friend but I'm not sure we could ever be more than that. I don't feel like he wants more anyway. I don't have any sense of his spiritual state although losing the facial hair is a veeery good thing to me. I'm afraid he's disenchanted with the gospel although he hasn't done anything to give me that impression.

I was thinking about the position at the University of Utah for a Diversity Library Resident. How can this position NOT be tailor-made for me? I could finally finish my 2nd bachelor degree in broadcast journalism WITH 1/2 off tuition. Plus I could get a Master degree in Art History, something I've always been interested in. Regardless, I am still more interested in public librarianship BUUUT no one seems to want to give me a chance and I am sick of trying. The residence pays 53,000 a year which is alright supplemented with real estate. It is a 2-year commitment I want because it won't be out of Salt Lake City. It will also provide me with the skills to be employed at ANY University Library ANYWHERE. 

This morning I didn't even hear my 4:40 alarm so I missed the first EMZ session of the year BUUUT I was so sleepy and I think I was sleep deprived because I did get up at 5:30 and decided not to get up then and catch most of Zumba. Instead I slept until it was almost 9am. Now I ate my leftover pizza and junkfood I bought yesterday.

My friend messaged me 2 pictures from high school. Wow!!! Major blast from the past. I'm not really doing anything. I need to put away stuff in my room. It is messy.

I read 1 Nephi 2. I know the beginning of the Book of Mormon very well from my many attempts to read the entire thing when I was young. The first time I actually read it in its entirety was before my mission. I read it along with the church's officially commentary. I don't know why it suddenly made a difference. I took the first Book of Mormon class at BYU but I don't think I was ready then for it to sink in.

I went to seminary too. Why did all of my attempts FINALLY work. How did it make a difference then and I am so grateful it did. If I had any idea how amazing the Book of Mormon was when I first encountered it I think I would've tried harder. Now that I do know I don't think my parents taught me the way they could have. I often felt the spirit but as far as cultivating it and courting it, I didn't experience that until the MTC.

That is such crucial knowledge I am grateful to have in my life now. I wonder how many members of the church were raised like me, with all the semblance of activity but without the spirit being central in their lives or focusing on how the Savior always makes the difference and using that as the measurement for anything we do.

I just applied for 2 jobs so far. I need to do this each week until my unemployment runs out. I need something asap and I just want something close by that I can do just to fill my gas tank as I pursue my real estate career. It would be fantastic if I was hired as a part time librarian with the City Library but they seem to ignore ANY time I apply for ANY position there. I really don't want to be an academic librarian. HOWEVER the University of Utah has a diversity position I should apply for. That is NOOOT where I want my career to go but it starts over 50,000 a year and would allow me to at least work in my profession.

We had our last EMZ session of the year yesterday morning at 5:30 when I got home I jumped in the shower and got ready to leave. At the end of that I hit up the SouthEastAsia Market on 9th South since they have frozen dim sum for 5 something each. They can be steamed and are delicious. I bought 4 trays to take to Alisa and George's house.