Urban Poly Princess

I just called and found out. There are maybe 8 other librarian jobs but they are all academic. I don't want to work at an academic library. I actually want to do real estate so I should get a part time job somewhere. I got over $400 from my deposit from my former landlord. Veeery nice. I'll get unemployment tomorrow giving me around $700. I can get a part time job and save for my real estate fees and then in the meantime prepare for that every day.

There's a full time Executive Assistant with RE\MAX that would be perfect. I want to do the real estate thing full time now and then add a librarian position to that. If it doesn't happen I'd like to either substitute or volunteer with Salt Lake City Public Library.

This could be my blessing and a push to use my real estate thing.

How grateful I am to have my online life back again. I just looked up David Neal on LinkedIn and I didn't feel anything. That is sooo great!!! Curtis completely fulfilled his purpose in my life which was to get me off my psycho-trains of thought. Of course it would've been better if I didn't look at all BUT at least I quit seeing things after Curtis moved into my thoughts and the best part is I don't know Curtis very well and while I wish him the best I will be happy for him whatever happens or not because I haven't fallen for him because we had a NORMAL friendship that is only as developed as the time we spent together which wasn't very much.

David from the beginning was this freaky connection even with the many things I don't like about him. I feel sane again and the world makes sense again. If I actually saw him that might go away and I am more than happy not to test that theory.

Having Julie and Renee in my ward and seeing them today made me wonder what he was doing. Even if he wanted to be my friend however that is never happening and I have always had more friends than I wanted.

I can't wait to explore these Mid Single things around the Valley. I want to get married and I know it doesn't just drop in my lap out of nowhere.

It is so weird for me to finish church and think in my head it's around 4 or 5 ish when it isn't. All the relief societies met together this week. It was so nice to go to Taia's baby shower last night. That's one of the things I've missed about this place. I love my extended family and all the stuff they have. It is fun to have a big family and get to spend time with them regularly.

I am calling Park City tomorrow because they haven't contacted me at all and I would at least like an interview. RE\MAX is a broker in Cottonwood looking for an Executive assistant with a license. I could help them very much AND help myself at the same time. I still want Keller Williams but I don't have the cash to shell out now to even get started. Either I get Park City at 50,000 OR I work for a crappy rate BUUUT my fees are paid for me and I can start my real estate education.

I don't mind starting real estate in Park City. Keller Williams has an office there too. I would looove that. There is NO ONE ATTRACTIVE AT ALL in my ward, at least no one I've seen so far and I really haven't seen anyone. I sat with Renee AND Julie during Sunday School and sacrament meeting and then we all attended choir individually. Renee invited me to her birthday party Friday. That was really sweet. I still don't know anyone really and maybe there are lots of hot men there I just haven't met but I doubt it.

When I visited Cache Valley I messaged Curtis on Facebook first to let him know I'd be passing through and that if I could take him to lunch the next time I was there. I ended up having to go there on my birthday and there was no way I was going to spend my birthday with someone I still don't really know. Not that it would be bad, just freaky. I wish Curtis OR ANYONE would post on his page so I'm not at the top of it STILL. I am so grateful for my brother and I am so happy I don't have to wait until Thursday to get online HERE in my bedroom!!! I also have my TV hooked up and that is so lovely too!!

Curtis didn't answer me but that's fine. He is such a sweetheart and really I don't know what I want with him. I just haven't met anyone even nominally attractive here yet OF COURSE I still want to hang out with the hottest guy I've seen in years who is ALSO LDS AND age-appropriate!!! He may not want to bother and that is surely his right and I bear him no ill will. He can't help it if he is so gorgeous and if I bother him even when I moved already.

We don't have anything in common at all. He is sweet and fiiine... I know there are many Mid single opportunities I can and should take advantage of right around here. If we had any type of future he'd have to move and why the hell should he? He has an awesome job and beautiful home right in the town he loves and grew up in. He is close to his parents and they live there on a farm. It is a blessing to be able to raise your children on a farm and he can do that sort of with his parents nearby. He deserves to find someone who can appreciate how great all those things are... and I do, it's just not what I want for my life.

Renee invited me to her birthday Friday. She lives right by Liberty Park. I have a lot of history with this place and areas all over the place here. She said she's having chocolate waffles. That sounds delicious. It should be fun.

Mormon 8
15 For none can have power to bring it to light save it be given him of God; for God wills that it shall be done with an eye single to his glory, or the welfare of the ancient and long dispersed covenant people of the Lord.

I was sooo sick of this cable BUUUT my brother came over and fixed it with his wife. I can't believe that just happened. Xfinity is open 24-7 and I was able to activate my modem AND my digital TV. After feeling and having such a crappy attitude the entire day I can't believe that's done!!! I'm so grateful and I am NEEEVER going back to the damn library to use the net again and I don't have to wait until Thursday. My brother is awesome and he has helped me so much on so many different occasions.

I am loooving this right now and I am so grateful too.

I AM SICK OF GOING TO THE LIBRARY TO GET ONLINE!!!

Thursday DirectTV was supposed to give me HD TV and I was FINALLY going to see HGTV and BRAVO again BUUUT there is a tree in my mother's front yard that the technician said would block my signal so he said to cut it. My mother doesn't want to cut it nor do I but yeah whatever. Sooo... I waited for my CenturyLink tech to get there between the hours of 12 and 4 like I was told and NOTHING. Sooo... I call and find out the salesperson LIED TO ME and he's not coming until the second week of October. I am sooo ticked then I look online and he's taken 39.00 dollars from my bank, he said it was 35. The first time I called CenturyLink they told me I owed $4 NOT 35 I was later told. The last salesperson said I owed 35.95 so I gave him my bankcard #'s BUT 39.95 was taken out of my account. I CANCEL the service because of all of this crap.

My mother feels bad for me so she tells me she'll hook-up my Internet as long as I pay for it or she will cancel it. The salesperson tells her if I pick up the modem myself I can save $35 AND not have to wait for a technician. Sooo... we go there this morning where a new girl is flustered and doesn't quite know what she's doing. She gives me all the stuff for the internet and HD stuff (sort of) but fails to give me ALL the equipment OR the directions. I get home and can't hook anything up so I go back!!! TO TAYLORSVILLE where Xfinity is located and get the rest of the equipment. I hook up the modem then call to establish my connection but SINCE the cable outlets in my room haven't been used in over 4 years, they need to get a technician to do that and the earliest he is available is next Thursday.

I feel spoiled to be so frustrated with this but you can't look for or apply for jobs now without the internet. I'd like to be paid the next time I have to be here at the damn library BUUUT that is how it is for me now. No more public librarian jobs are appearing and I don't know how much longer I can take this. I am sooo angry and annoyed by anything and everything right now. I love Zumba but nothing else is how I want it. My prayers and scripture reading are not consistent either.

I am loving my Zumba class more each time I attend. Yesterday I went to my orthodontist appointment back in the Dairyland. I first bought a Costco card, filled my gas then made the looong drive. Compared to the first time I made the drive it was so much easier. I also went to the pay my last electric bill with the city. I still need to pay my gas bill but that's it. My apartment is supposed to send me a check. I wonder how much it'll be. They have new tenants there already. That was sure quick. I'm glad because they put the electric bill in their name on the 15th meaning they didn't keep charging me although I just remembered to call them to turn it off yesterday.

It was my birthday yesterday. One thing I don't really like about Facebook is it lets the world know exactly when your birthday has arrived. After paying my bill I got out of the Dairyland quick. I didn't want to see anyone on my birthday. I wanted to buy a peach pie at Maddox so I went there but they stopped making it Saturday. I was sooo ticked because I thought it would be a good indulgence for me to celebrate my birthday BUUUT instead since I hadn't eaten the entire day I went to get more dim sum this time from the new Golden Dragon restaurant on state street. So much dim sum on one street. How nice.

I got 2 shu mai, 2 har gow and 2 other stuff like har gow but not har gow. It was scrumptious. The job hunt is pretty slow. I want the Park City Senior Librarian job. It is exactly what I want to do and it pays well too. The state pays well and I know that only because legally they have to advertise that.

I just called to hook up Direct TV AND CenturyLink. I hope it works the way I want it to work. It'll be about $70 a month. It better freaking B worth it.

This sounds perfect!!! I hope I get it. Tomorrow I need to mail my application. Although you are over the Spanish outreach and selecting Spanish materials, IT NEVER SAYS YOU HAVE TO SPEAK SPANISH!!! Park City has the best restaurants and it reminds me of Hawaii because it is so visitor-oriented.

I need to make fried rice for my Zumba class tomorrow. They always have parties. This is the first one I'm attending. I was 10 minutes late today but I still got a nice workout.

We spent a lot of time figuring out how to highlight our best features at every stage of the job hunt. There is a public librarian position in Park City that is looking for someone who speaks Spanish. I'm going to apply anyway and highlight how I am familiar with immigrant populations. It sounds fabulous and Park City is only half an hour away. I hope I can convince Adrienne of what a good fit I'll be for her.

It takes 38 minutes to get there. I would love this job!!! I know I don't speak Spanish. I'm hoping it'll still be alright.

What we learned today made me feel like a politician BUT it completely makes sense that you should figure out and plan to present your skills in the best light possible.

I've done the professional workshops before. The director told me to do them again. I'm going to join their accelerated job search group. You have to agree to identify 15 new resources, make 10 new contacts and hold 2 face-to-face meetings daily. The director has a warped view of librarians. He has an MLS degreed lady in his ward who never worked in the field and who has experience limited to call centers. HELLO IDIOT. I doubt that she volunteered at a library which is what the hell you do if you aren't getting any jobs. I doubt she joined ULA or ALA OR went out of her way to participate in her professional organization which is how the hell you get it done.

I am however happy I decided to do this it will more than meet my unemployment qualifications AND if nothing else it will improve my ability to get hired or chosen for anything I might attempt. You are trained to develop power statements that will help immensely in interviews or even when you are just communicating with others. It helps you prepare for interviews by identifying specific experiences that can be shared with people who will learn what you want them to learn about you because you choose the dialogue they hear.

It reminds me a lot of politics. When I covered the Legislature at the U I was particularly struck by how politicians speak in sound-bites. Lazy journalists and reporters are spoon-fed language that was prepared and practiced. Stuff is so calculated. I am glad I started studying broadcast journalism. It helps me analyze and try to discover what is really happening.

Politicians are constantly trying to sell themselves to the public BUUUT we are all doing that. Of course a company wants the attractive, competent, skilled AND brilliant individual. One thing consistent with all the members of the many PAC meetings or public advisory committee meetings I used to sit through at Stevens-Henager College is that people want to hire individuals with "soft skills" who had the ability to communicate effectively with others.

Unfortunately it isn't something that can really be taught although people can definitely improve. There is an "art" to being an effective human being. Since I'm confused about what I should do now as far as what type of job I should aim to get, this is exactly what I was looking for. I am very excited about this and I know simply considering these things is what I really need to do now.

I'm grateful I have my MBA BUT I'm not sure exactly what I should do with it. I want this to help me identify options. Other than administration at a library I don't have that identified.

I REALLY miss the INTERNET!!! I think I determined Xfinity is the best but when I called them they won't let me have a separate account and my mother won't let me have it UNTIL I'm gainfully employed. I guess that makes sense but I have unemployment so it shouldn't be a problem. I may have to move up my orthodontist appointment because I have a little over 50.00 left thanks to unexpected house guests before I left Logan. Not totally, I didn't have to eat out as much as I have. I was just so deprived living in the Dairyland.

It is so tough right now. I don't want to work for academia and ALL the normal jobs seem to be there now. I want a part time position but I'm not sure what I should do but then I need A LOT more money now just to begin real estate which I had planned to pay with my last 2 checks. So much for that bright idea. My mother keeps reminding me of how lucky I am not to have any expenses BUUUT it SUCKS NOT HAVING MONEY. I want a public librarian job BUUUT should I get something else until then? What? Do I get a job I'm just going to quit when I get my librarian job? Should I get an academic librarian job then leave when a public position comes up?

ANY librarian job will pay me more than something else. Why isn't it just crystal clear? This is so hard trying to figure out what to do. I signed up for the ward sealings Wednesday night. Julie signed up too. I'm definitely going to take it to the Lord.

2 Nephi 3
24 And there shall rise up one mighty among them, who shall do much good, both in word and in deed, being an instrument in the hands of God, with exceeding faith, to work mighty wonders, and do that thing which is great in the sight of God, unto the bringing to pass much restoration unto the house of Israel, and unto the seed of thy brethren.

A beautiful scripture about Joseph Smith. I want that to be said about me. 

In RS I saw Renee immediately then Julie came in a little late or after the introductions of the new people. YES I got to introduce myself too. As class continued people kept joining our class. Julie just moved into her new place around 3rd South and I think 4th East. I used to live at 2nd South and 4th East so right near where I used to live.

Julie and I attended choir practice together after which we saw Heidi Lebaron and Janella Fairbanks ALSO from our Mid Singles ward in Logan. Sooo there were 5 of us from my Logan ward at the same chapel Sunday right on the U of U campus. Sooo weird. I was going to bear my testimony until the bishop specifically asked that ONLY people who were officially in the ward take time. AFTER church we got tickets to the Ogden temple dedication Sunday INSTEAD of church.

I sat with Julie in RS, Sunday School and then even during sacrament meeting. Renee is the ward chorister. We are all in different RS groups although we all attended the same one because we didn't know any better. Julie is in the Aves/Downtown, Renee must live near the U somewhere and then I'm in the peripheral areas since mom's house is in Rosepark. I can't believe I live here. I haaate this area although it is close to downtown. It really is the ghetto. At least my free zumba class is 5 minutes away in the heart of Salt Lake's ghetto.

I remember my friend Dave I used to work with in Salt Lake who was raised in Sandy. I remember him saying there were no bad areas in Salt Lake. RIGHT, of course someone raised in Sandy would think that. Just walking into the Smith's in Glendale feels like a bad area. Right now I am at the library lobby drinking my Diet Dr. Pepper. I parked on the side of the road, originally intending to sit on one of the benches under the tree near where I parked BUUUT one of the benches was taken by someone sleeping. A bike was tied up near him. I didn't really want to drink my soda on a bench next to someone sleeping so here I am in the lobby so they don't kick me out for drinking in the library.

I'm done with my soda and I think I'm ready to take over a spot in the library. I am hooking up my net asap. I called them earlier from home and got disconnected.

2 Nephi 2

I was up early and there for Zumba but I was dragging today. I hope it doesn't take me too long to get this down cold. It is a great environment filled with positive people Poly and otherwise. Melolini Tukuafu came today. She has had a work conflict but she is so fit. I also saw Betsy who I haven't seen all week because she was taking her kids to an early school bus. She is a regular and while she's lost weight she needs to lose a lot more. Sione Ika looks fabulous. He is a regular too and has lost a bunch of weight too. I like that it's at 5:30am because I'm sure I can do it with any job I get eventually.

There are no librarian positions I want that I see available now. There are so many academic librarian positions and I want to get away from that. I don't think my body ever fully recovered from my moving aches and pains. I filed for unemployment a couple days ago and they require that I apply for 4 jobs a week. Veeery doable and I'm grateful to have unemployment to tide me over before I find something permanent.

I want to see Curtis right now. Weird, I don't know why exactly but I was thinking about him a lot last night. He is very fine but it is more than that. He is goodness and kindness too. It could be because I just haven't met anyone else yet BUT I don't think so. I wonder if he'd ever want to move here or even consider it. I don't think he would but I never really found out just because I still don't know him well enough. I enjoy his company. I just doubt we would be good together long-term because we don't share a lot in common... BUUUT I never had the chance to find out. We are just so different.

I am very happy with my Zumba and I am grateful that it is so close.

I actually got to Zumba on time, this morning at 5:30am. They impressed me by beginning with an opening prayer. I'm not stopping. I love that it isn't far away. There are many Mexicans and Polys both Tongan and Samoan. Sinai always incorporates Poly music and moves all over the place. EMZ is a nice group. They also held a moment of silence for 9/11 this morning. On the 19th we're supposed to dress up for Latin Independence Day and bring a treat to share. Working out AND eating together. Interesting mix.

2 Nephi 1
14 Awake! and arise from the dust, and hear the words of a trembling parent, whose limbs ye must soon lay down in the cold and silent grave, from whence no traveler can return; a few moredays and I go the way of all the earth.

I noticed my mirror was missing from my passenger side door yesterday morning after early-morning zumba. After calling the dealership I found out to replace the part would cost 140. My brother suggested going to a place called pick and pull where you can find the part on wrecked cars then purchase this at a fraction of that price.

He helped me find the part and then he installed it after watching a Youtube video. He's done it before so I was very lucky. Now my red car has a green mirror. This morning on our way to the store my mother found the mirror. So much for blaming someone at Zumba. I called and asked George if he can install the original mirror but he told me the bolts were broken and there is no way to attach it to the car now. So much for that bright idea.

I'm going to have to paint the mirror. I wonder how much they'll charge.

I tried to attend church but it was Regional Conference or so I and the 2 other new members discovered from another bishop from the Union Park ward. Instead I attended church with my cousin in West Jordan who had me over for dinner too. This morning I went to change my tire. Now I'm going home. She reminded me to file for unemployment. I need to charge this computer and my plug is at home. I'm doing that then coming back.

OK maybe not entirely. I still have 2 more invisalign appointments. The next is on the 22nd. I tried VERRRY hard to fit everything into my car. I made 5!!! YES 5!!! runs to DI BUUUT I still couldn't fit everything and I didn't get much sleep. Yesterday morning I told my manager I was going to have to take what fit in my car to Salt Lake City and then return for the rest. Sooo... I did exactly that. I saw the same gas station attendant twice although I stopped there at the Chevron gas station in Brigham City 3 times that day putting $20 in each time I passed. SLEEP is like heaven.

Right now it feels like someone beat me up and I have bruises all over my body. I don't remember getting any of them. My mother had me just sleep and she moved EVERYTHING in the house. I didn't call the electric company to turn it off or change my address at the post office. I'll have to wait to do that on Monday. I haven't had regular sleep in 3 days.

I can't wait to feel better. I'm going to join the EMZ or Sinai's FREE early morning Zumba class she does in Glendale M-F. I NEEED a job. Not knowing where your next check is coming from SUCKS big time. I can't wait to start working OR to begin Real Estate. I need to set up my CenturyLink account asap.

I got home from packing and driving my last load to Salt Lake around 1:30am. My mother wanted me to take her to DI so she could buy me another set of drawers. We went to Sandy but didn't find anything then we went to Sugarhouse and I found the cutest red drawers BUT they didn't fit in my car so we called George to come and help but he hasn't answered yet.

I keep forgetting it's Saturday. Church is at 9am. Julie told me there's some letter you need to get your last bishop to fill out. RIDICULOUS although I am definitely attending a Mid-Singles ward now. I'm going to look into working at the temple too. I didn't really want to work at the Salt Lake Temple because it's live but the same work occurs at ALL the temples. I don't want to work Saturdays again because that's a big real estate day BUUUT who knows what I'll end up doing.

Just because I don't see Curtis at church for the early meetings doesn't mean he isn't attending. I never asked him what Sunday School he went to. I want him to attend temple prep and take out his endowments. I'm going to facebook him when I have to be in Logan for the orthodontist to see if we can do lunch. I am maintaining my friendship if nothing else with the hottest guy in Cache Valley. I don't care about keeping that with anyone else.

Tomorrow is Fast and Testimony meeting. A good time to meet the new ward. I've never had a problem sharing my testimony. Actually the best feeling in the world is when you share your testimony and can feel the spirit testifying to you and others that what you are sharing is real and significant. It is the ultimate buzz for sure.

I haaate job-hunting!!! Necessary evil unfortunately right now.

I'm letting myself take a break. I need to finish this BEFORE I go to sleep. AGAIN, it's good to be tired because the floor is just fine, it is like heaven to be able to lay down. BUUUT this isn't happening to me again. My flatscreen is in. I just have food, my shoeboxes. They are great!!! I am forever going to use them. I'm taking my walk and a couple baking pans. I'm throwing away the rest of my dishes. I decided to leave the cleaning stuff for the new tenants with the exception of my Windex, I looove that stuff. I parked my car right in the handicapped space outside my door where I intend to leave it until EVERYTHING IS PACKED. My flatscreen was so easy to stick in the car. It is so light-weight. I have a cooler, my shoe boxes, glass fountains, wok and food. I have 5 jars of mayonnaise. This is from couponing. I still have 3 boxes of tampons and all the mayonnaise and I haven't couponed in months.

Time to turn my lights on and finish this. I'm so freaking close I just want to sleep right now however.

Mosiah 16
13 And now, ought ye not to tremble and repent of your sins, and remember that only in and through Christ ye can be saved?

I just woke up from a nice nap. Be super-tired and you won't care if you sleep on the floor WHICH was my ONLY option a little after noon when I slept, and slept and slept. I FINALLY figured out how to fit my entertainment center/glass shelf thing in the car along with my velvet chairs I looove that I could NOT get in the car without driving with one of the car legs pointing directly into my boob. I could drive it to DI but I had to give them 2 of my chairs and leave the other two in the car. I found this awesome adhesive to cover the nail holes in the walls, most of them anyway. It dries clear or white although it goes on pink and I am NOOOT going to fill the nail holes in my olive accent wall because these white spots will just stick out.

This stuff is amazing. ANYWHERE I hung pictures and I hung these ALL OVER THE PLACE there is absolutely NO indication of that AT ALL!!! I'm going to pack these clothes I just washed, scrub my master bathroom, pack my bathroom drawers, sweep the kitchen and dining area, wipe the outside of the washer and dryer, wipe down my stove, microwave and fridge, throw away the rest of the cleaning supplies I don't plan on using, and THEN I will pack EVERYTHING left - kitchen appliances and food, into my car when I will drive to Salt Lake and out of The Falls at the Riverwoods for the last time. I have to see my orthodontist twice, later this month and then also in October FOR THE LAST TIME!!!

I went to look at air mattresses at Walmart last night and finally I couldn't bring myself to buy it when I still have to change another tire. I slept on a comforter I haven't used in a long time and it wasn't a big deal. I am sooo glad I didn't buy an air mattress and it really wasn't bad. I'm really glad I made that trip yesterday to Salt Lake because I will fit everything else I'm taking. I'm going to buy myself lunch at Burger King then come back here and pack my car with everything I'm taking. I'm also going to pack a DI bag for my final trip there. I'm so excited to be out of here soon.

I will miss Curtis. We just started to develop our friendship and I'm moving. I knew that was happening but I wasn't going to stop getting to know him better. He is incredible and I wish I could take him with me.

I better meet some good men in my new ward. I'm not expecting to meet someone who looks like a model, dresses well AND is intelligent AND LDS. BUUUT I'm sure I should be able to find men I would actually want to get to know better.

It's 3pm and waaay past lunch time BUUUT it is my lunchtime and I need to hit up Burger King now!!!

The fine guy I avoid because he has a teenage son is the new mission leader AND he is good. Myrick is an awesome mission leader, EXACTLY what I asked bishop for and he gave me Jon who doesn't know his doctrine, OR how to give a lesson effectively. Why did they pick the perfect mission leader when I leave???!!! Myrick is EVERYTHING Jon is NOOOT!!! Yesterday in our combined RS/Elder's Quorum meeting he asked for splits and told the women he would stand there waiting until people volunteered

It is a holiday BUT of course since I'm not working anyway it doesn't really make a difference. I am still a little nervous about fitting EVERYTHING and I feel like taking another trip to Salt Lake just to make sure. My big mirror, chairs, suitcase, sound system and kitchen things aren't going to make it in my opinion along with my flatscreen, entertainment shelf and all of these pictures I didn't take yet. There''s also all my kitchen stuff I didn't take of either. I said a little prayer in my heart and I feel like I should do it.

Curtis liked my picture with the Fridal twins. They are awesome. They were raised on a dairy farm too I think in Idaho. I could try and do lunch with all of them if he wanted that. I think they would get along well. He likes road trips. I don't. ESPECIALLY since when I worked for the newspaper at the U and they made me drive to St. George to cover the then-governor meeting with the Utah Board of Regents. I was rushing back to Salt Lake when I had a rollover and was life-flighted to the Filmore hospital. It is my miracle story and I shouldn't be alive right now.

It was such a faith-builder for my family BUUUT it happened to me which is why it is so weird to me because I don't remember much about the moments when I was in a comma, critical or should've died.

I wonder if introducing Curtis to the Fridal twins would be too weird for him. I know we have little if anything in common. He is gold however and I don't like throwing that away or even giving that away to someone else. BUUUT if he is interested in one of them I'm certainly NOT going to stand in his way either and I am his friend first so I should help him. He doesn't know many people in the ward. I know Jessica has a thing for him and then even Kendra probably does too BUT I like the Fridal girls best. He would have to pick one however. That is tough. They are equally amazing.

That cute girl who came to his party liked our picture. I added her as a Facebook friend but she didn't respond. I don't want her getting any ideas ESPECIALLY if Curtis is trying to date her which is why I wanted her to add me and see that I didn't just take a picture with Curtis although I did take pictures of people I want to remember.

I like Curtis a lot and I would get to know him better if I was staying here even though I can see MANY things we don't share. There is just no one else. He has type 1 diabetes and he was diagnosed when he was 19 a week or 2 into his first desk-job. That is just wild. All that manual labor kept his symptoms at bay his entire childhood and teenage life. He takes insulin to control it now but I bet if he just ate what he's supposed to all the time he wouldn't have to do that or even if he tried to do what I did or eat well every day but then once a week eat whatever he wanted to eat. If you feed your body healthy food all the time it can handle being bad once a week. It also makes obvious how bad the crappy food is to your health because your body is very sensitive to bad habits.

I'm doing laundry now and I am going to pack my car and drive to Salt Lake again today. I'm going to come back today too and then I will fit EVERYTHING I want to take. My mother's going to trip BUUUT she'll get over it. I can handle the long drives now although I haaate it. OR maybe I'll just do it tomorrow.

I made these rolls and a loaf of bread last night using a yellow cake mix. They are delicious and I have a lot of them left. NOOOT good for a diabetic like me BUUUT homemade stuff digests just fine AT LEAST it has for me.

4 Nephi