Urban Poly Princess

I was trying to find some sort of graduation list online because I wanted to know if Annoying finished school this weekend. Doug just graduated from USU and he has pictures posted. The graduate schools may have their own ceremonies. This German girl who used to be in my Logan ward is one of my Facebook friends and she posted a graduation picture of herself. I wonder what he'll do if he's done and where he'll work. I'm not excited about meeting anyone new although I am well aware of the many activities for Mid-singles all over the place in Salt Lake City. Tonight is dinner groups in my ward and I just didn't want to go. I filled my gas at Costco yesterday after my temple shift.

I didn't feel like socializing just yet. This Samoan girl in my ward bore her testimony. She just finished her MSW at the U. She started with a big Aloha. I told her I was from Hawaii. She gave me a kiss then she told me she remembers me from BYU-Hawaii and that she used to work at the Aloha Center. I hate it when people recognize or remember me when I don't have the slightest clue who they are.

This Tongan girl Moe I'm pretty sure used to be in my ward. I know she's aged out because I'm pretty sure she's 2 years older than me and I'll age out a year from September. I think she is part of the group that continue to socialize with mid singles even when she's already 46 or even older. She was always a little strange HOWEVER now she has reached a new height of strangeness. In Sunday school people can be talking about something completely different and she will chime in with a quote by some apostle that has nothing to do with what anyone is discussing.

Once I saw her in the temple cafeteria talking to one of the other single girls on my old Wednesday night shift. She kept talking to my friend Maggie about her own thing, quoting various apostles but really talking to herself because she seemed to just want to hear herself talking. Maggie just nodded and smiled, laughed and either agreed with her or not. I sat with them at first because I always sit with Maggie but when I saw no one else could get a word in, I left to sit with someone else. The couple times she spoke the Sunday school teacher ignored what she said but thanked her each time. We were ALL trying to ignore what she would say because she never said anything.

Even when I have more money Friday and don't feel uncomfortable about attending these Mid-singles activities all over the place I am going to do that with wisdom. I don't want to have to expend the energy to try to get to know someone new all over again. I was interested in Steve very gradually and I also had to force myself to even do that. I wanted to get to know annoying. He is the only one who stopped that. Steve tried really hard but when I started to get to know him better he disappeared.

Annoying is definitely not as smooth as Steve BUT I am confident in his spiritual state. He wants to live like Christ despite his shortcomings. It is that desire I like most. His temper is just as bad as mine. I like Curtis' chill attitude best. I need to stop dwelling on that. I am still not interested in living in Cache Valley for the rest of my life despite how great he is and how rare it is to find someone so physically attractive that is also a spiritual gem.

Annoying can be feisty but maybe that's what I need. I can't believe I'm entertaining thoughts about him again. Someone like Steve will be fine. I don't like how he's questioning the Supreme Court justices and how influential they can be. Not for the question but he studied this in graduate school. I was getting an MPA from the U when I stopped because I didn't like the 2 law courses I took. He works in local government in addition to having his MPA. How can he NOT get all that. He seems intelligent.

I know annoying will be a good provider BUUUT I have a bad feeling he is a workaholic like my brother. Steve has the time to devote to a family if he ever wants to do that. I really hope he starts dating someone. He is such a good person and he will be an excellent father and husband to some lucky girl.

STILL although I want to just even be cordial to annoying I still don't just want to be his friend and it is still better not to interact with him at all if nothing is ever going to happen between us so I think I need to get on that activity-train asap. All those men out there I haven't even met. This job is not conducive to a social life. I hope I get that church history library job!!!