Urban Poly Princess

I can't handle the schedule I created for myself. I work from 11:30-8pm M-F. That leaves no time for anything else. I can't live my life like this much longer. My job is fine if I had never had a librarian job which is what I want to spend my time doing. I am grateful to have money to pay my expenses. I am not staying here very long however. The hours leave me with nothing else. The temple early Saturdays just makes it worse.

I need to hurry up and find someone to date and marry. There are so many activities for mid-singles here in SLC. My mother told me she prayed about it and she feels I should leave to work somewhere else and also that's where I'll find my husband. Nice but YEAH NOOO!!! I prayed about it too and Heavenly Father is fine with wherever I choose to live.

Yesterday church was fine. There was the fine white boy who walked by so of course I went out of my way to meet him. I don't like the way he dresses. He was standing near me by himself at our linger activity so I said hi to him. His name is Ben White and he's from Hawaii. He went to Moanalua High School on the other side of the island. He is attending LDSBC studying Accounting. NOOO I don't think so. He is fine but he dresses bad AND he is old enough to be in my ward but still at a JR college.

I met with my home teachers next so I didn't really talk to him. I can't attend FHE, temple night or ANYTHING and it's driving me crazy. I am really good about attending zumba but I've been eating crap. I need to hit up Costco and buy some food today. We had a midsingles trifecta activity I am going to make the effort to attend. They are watching the Avengers in Sugarhouse. I love that because it is close. Dinner at Chili's downtown and then Poltergeist. I don't really like Poltergeist BUUUT I sooo need to be social especially with the schedule I've been keeping.

I saw Carlos Sunday. He made me think of real estate. I am going to pay those fees and get started on that asap. That's when I'll go to part time. I actually want to complete the 3 mos with the temp agency so I can feel good about that. Getting hired on with Sutter will have to be part time or nothing. It'll be alright and I can do this. If I just think of it as a temporary situation to get to do real estate the way I want to freeing up my schedule and allowing me to pursue my fitness love more and to get hired as a librarian making a decent salary.

I am so blessed and I have to remain positive even when it is difficult. I need to hit up Costco. We are celebrating Memorial Day next week with George and his family in Provo. I love them so much. I want my own children of course but I am so grateful to have his. They are so much fun and I love them so much.