Urban Poly Princess

My friend gave an excellent talk today. I wish I got more sleep last night. He was the last speaker and while the first two speakers were alright my lack of sleep started to catch up with me during the second talk. I was sooo ready for her to end it so I could listen to David. He's a good speaker but he was a little timid up there. He was stronger during fhe. Plus I was extremely tired but I wanted to hear what he had to say. He related the story of the children of Israel receiving manna from heaven and the faith they had to have to negotiate all of that. He reminded us that we still need the bread from heaven or continual blessings from our heavenly father.

He is gorgeous but the damn fan club is hella annoying and I don't have any claim on him at all. I don't want any right now. I'm glad our friendship has been able to develop naturally and I don't plan on doing anything to mess that up but REALLY enough!!! I'm in a no-win situation right now. I wish I could magically have all these feelings immediately but it doesn't work that way. I do have enough feelings for him to be jealous but that's not exactly the type of emotion I want to foster anything on. I'm not sure how to get over that. I do want to get closer to him but naturally with time not rushed because I feel like stepping on the female flies that constantly buzz around him. I don't want to limit him either though. Maybe one of those flies is exactly what he's interested in. I think I'm better but of course I'd think that.