Urban Poly Princess

I woke up at 7am which is plenty of time for me to get ready and go to work BUT I decided to sleep a little bit more-MISTAKE!!! Anyway what I got out of today? I've been thinking all day about the crappy start I had today and yesterday was too much for me-I think I went insane!!!-I began to wonder what I had to give-I could go back to absolutely no life outside of work and school ORRR I can keep going WITH BALANCE-finish school in 3 months and not have to worry about it again. I'm trying to B more social BUT once again I give some idiot the wrong idea. People must have the stupid idea that I'm just shy -L NO I'm NOT SHY and if I have any interest whatsoever in getting to know U better I will tell U that AND take steps to do that.
If I think U R interested in me and I don't feel the same way I will completely ignore and avoid U so get a damn clue!!!
I want the chance to be able to find out if I'm interested in someone naturally. This takes time. I can tell if I'm not interested right away however. I feel like I don't have time to find out. That is supposed to be the priority. I'm not sure what I have to change BUT yesterday was SOOO NOOOT WORKING!!! My Dynamics of the organization teacher gave me an I AND is letting me turn in work late. I feel like this is supposed to make me NOT dwell on school too much. Its OK not to ace my remaining classes.