Urban Poly Princess

I love my life. I am grateful for EVERYTHING. I need to call the Dealer to see how they are progressing with my car. So the part for my car just arrived today and she said it should be complete this afternoon. I wish I had the money NOW to pay her. I have $300 left along with the dollars in my purse. The 20th lands on Sunday which typically means we are paid on the Monday BUUUT with my credit union it could be there Friday which would be sooo nice.

I'm so grateful I don't have to pay the end of lease fee beforehand. There is a nice 30-hour marketing position with the library. After I have proven myself I'd love to negotiate 3 days a week so I can do my Real Estate too. That would pay for my ULA membership as well as PLA membership. I looove the county library system and I can see myself working there for a long time. The position is sucky because it starts at 16 an hour although since it is the county I know there are regular raises and I would love to work at a position that allows me to work with all the libraries. I REALLY like the 30 hours and I think I could negotiate so I could get it to 3 days a week so I could still pursue Real Estate. There are librarian positions that do that too and I could negotiate on a librarian salary which I could get a hell of a lot higher than this marketing position. I could live in South Jordan eventually if I wanted. It is a 30-hour position and I want to negotiate to work there just 3 times a week and NOT work Fridays AGAIN.

Yeah about living in South Jordan... NOOO!!! UNLESS I'm raising a family AND living in a nice HOUSE there it isn't happening. I'd rather live now in a loft downtown. If I was going to live in the middle of nowhere it would ONLY be while raising a family. I'm pretty certain of that and JUST by looking at pictures.

GRRR... I'm not sure if I should apply but I want to give it a shot. Getting a job right away is certainly a good thing. If I get rejected however I will be ticked and I am worried about applying for this job that pays crappy. Will it affect my ability to negotiate for another librarian job with the county if I do this? What exactly will this be like? Should I do it or not? It closes Friday meaning they probably want me to begin in August. Would they wait for me for September? Subbing is flexible but it pays horribly. 14 an hour vs. 16 an hour BOTH crappy rates. I didn't want to do anything that pays less than 20 right now. DAMN decisions. I keep praying about it but I don't feel anything either way. Is that the stupor of thought that actually means no?

I think this will interfere in my Real Estate thing. I need to give it a shot instead of finding ways to avoid it. How do I sit here and NOT apply for things when at the end of August I won't have a job. Unemployment, I am getting it. But for how long? I need to figure that out. At a minimum I need to pay for insurance, gas and some of the weird food I have to eat now. I really want a fulltime public librarian job and none of them seem to be available now which is why it is perfect for me NOT to do anything else except librarian subbing. Librarian marketing sounds like fun however but how will that affect my ability to get anything else? If I rock that job will I be able to change the nature of the position, be as flexible as I'd like to be BUUUT will I never be able to realize my full real estate potential then? I think so and I am going to stick with subbing and holding out for a job that pays me what I'm worth. With my experience AND MBA I should qualify for an assistant manager position that'll train me to be a manager and make over 75,000 in a few years. That is what I need to aim for.

A lucrative real estate career, eventually a library manager who still does real estate on the side and then begins to flip houses, pays off my school loans and then buys my condo loft in downtown Salt Lake City, my condo at Turtle Bay Hilton in Hawaii and then also $ to burn and have fun with traveling all over the place.This is harder than I thought it would be.