Urban Poly Princess

I woke up late which is beautiful for a Friday. It's sooo nice to have ALL my homework DONE!!! I'm going to keep doing this. My house is a mess which I'm actually going to begin an attack on as soon as I get off this thing. I need to find out the temple schedule. I don't want to ruin what I just started again. Friday temple days R a great thing. Everyone goes on Saturdays and they are sooo crowded. I like space and time to not feel rushed and just ponder the session, life, and where I am.

I feel so blessed. I am so grateful too for all the help I've been given despite making many unwise choices. I finally feel like I'm overcoming my financial hell. My spending is finally curbed. I want to see how long I can go without eating out. Weeks have been amazing for me. I just need to increase that to a month. I wish I had a clear idea of what type of jobs I qualify for with my MBA. I STILL have no idea what I want to write a giant paper about or even spend my time researching in a couple months. Whatever I decide I need to do it quick.

My social life SUCKS. I know I need to make an effort. I'm just not excited about that. Helene is having a party at her house tonight with... wait for it... GAMES!!! It doesn't cost money-something good-I just REALLY miss getting dressed-up and going dancing somewhere with music that doesn't suck with someone who actually enjoys dressing up a little himself AND then eating somewhere followed by watching a DVD at someone's house until 3 or 4 in the morning. I never had to drink or do drugs or make out with anyone to do all of this before BUT NOW I spend my time playing games, eating, playing more games, and wondering what the hell has my life become. Right, I'm the person who never got married so this is what I get to do until I finally meet someone who actually wants to do something different. OR I can paste on my best smile and fake it until I make it and fool myself until the fun I'm having becomes real. I have a feeling that's my only option now.