Urban Poly Princess

I have a tough time letting things go-I was trying to make things ok with my friend last night which is a good thing-BUT I didn't realize I still had some lingering animosity but yes it reared its ugly head. I need to get rid of the attitude before I spend ANY time with him.

Weird, I've had so many friends who have been sexually active AND I've spent so much time trying to get them to see how the atonement truly covers that-And they can go forward and they can be worthy wherever they R now. I don't judge them. I spend all this time trying to make people feel better about themselves despite the choices they've made. I always try to treat people well even and despite their shortcomings.

Then I meet someone who actually lives his standards the way I do and I focus on how he was rude to me when I know he doesn't even think he was rude in the first place. That should make it better but it actually makes it worse. I don't know why it's so easy for me to judge him.

And there I go again. My psycho mother freaked me out when she told me she had a dream I broke the law of chastity. Uh, NOOO-that would've been done a looong time ago if I wanted. Her freak-out actually freaked me out though and convinced me I needed to make sure my friendship with the one guy I know maintains high moral standards was all good. I told him I was still his friend-soon after he treated me like crap, but I really meant on the surface. I wasn't completely sincere. His lack of social grace is actually a very small thing comparatively. I need to remember that.