Urban Poly Princess

I looove Sundays. Today there were absolutely no parking spaces where I usually park. I ended up parking on a completely different side of the church. I entered right before the sacrament song which was perfect since I got to take the sacrament. Everything was alright. I feel better spiritually when I'm trying to perfect myself like I am now.

It really is the key to everything. When you are striving your best nothing else bothers you. I feel great. I need to wash some dishes and make some spaghetti for lunch throughout the week. There are things I need to do but I am calm about everything. Life is good.

I saw someone fine that I don't know in sacrament meeting. He looks very young but David looks young too so I'm hoping he's actually in the ward and not just a visitor. My nephews call me a cougar because I'm always dating younger guys but I'm not attracted to guys my age or even some a lot younger. STILL I want them to have a life and I end up in this catch 22 because younger men usually aren't finished with school and the ones I end up talking to have NOOO life. I wish I'd have a story like all the prophets who saw their wives and just knew immediately they should marry them. There are a lot of things I thought were extremely important to me that just aren't.

Kindness is huge. I know no one's perfect but that is essential. Intelligence has always been extremely important to me because I am intelligent and I want to be able to be myself with whoever I end up with for eternity. Intelligences is the term used in so much doctrine to describe our essence that existed even before we were completely created. This intelligence is eternal. I looove that scripture in D & C 88:40 about intelligence cleaving unto intelligence because it always made me feel better about looking for this quality but now I know without a doubt that kindness is superior to this.

Intentionally hurting someone else is just unnecessary and is completely the reason why I didn't want to have anything with my friend Tiffany when she showed this side to me. She was very nice initially, went to the temple every Tuesday, was kind to most people BUT when she got jealous she showed an ugly side that was abhorrent to me. That's the first time I completely eliminated someone I was once close to from my life. I just don't get it and I refuse to be around it at all. It hurt me sooo much that she could treat me like that. I prayed so hard when I realized what type of person she really was. A lot of crying and praying but eventually it doesn't matter and life always has more options. There are always more people I haven't met yet and more opportunities for me to grow and improve myself.

I'm grateful for the plan of eternal progression and although sometimes I feel like I'm standing still, I know as long as I keep working at it I am progressing.

My phone battery was dead today at church so it was VERY annoying not to be able to access anything.