Urban Poly Princess

I took candid shots all over the place and pictures with the people I wanted to take pictures with. I saw my old home teacher Jeff at church and I got Curtis to take a picture of us. I love Jeff because he served me as a home teacher and could be my friend WITHOUT him trying for anything more. When Michael told me who my new home teachers were last month I told him I didn't want any since I was leaving anyway BUUUT BOTH are a little too into me and I'm not having either visit me in my house.

I saw Julie today. She visited the ward. She's going to be in my new ward along with Renee. She wanted to know exactly where I was going to live with my mother. I think she was trying to make sure I was in the right ward. UHH... YES I know how to look up wards and boundaries. She is the one who isn't in the boundaries although she plans to move to them soon. She already has her new place. She just sold the condo she owned in Providence.

It'll be nice to have Julie and Renee in my new ward. They are both nice girls. I was always really impressed by Julie but after she was my visiting teacher once with Beth I saw a side of her that was unexpected. She has a strange way of thinking gospel-wise which I didn't expect. She's also not as smart as I first supposed.

I took pictures with Jeff, Curtis and Levi. I need to remember I'm in a Mid-Singles ward. Jeff's family and friends keep liking our picture and then one of our mutual friends posted we were a happy couple. I corrected him by writing happy friends. A lot of girls keep liking my picture with Curits which is fine BUT it is just a picture and I hope people aren't assuming things either. Of course I wrote that he is the finest boy in Cache Valley and one of the sweetest and I believe that too. We don't know each other very well yet however and we're definitely not dating. NOT that I wouldn't mind getting to know him better BUT dating exclusively ONLY comes AFTER we know each other A LOT better. NOTHING on Levi's picture. I guess his family and friends don't care OR they're not tripping like Jeff and Curtis' friends/family.

I was going to get a picture with Curtis one way or another. Some girl was sitting by him when I went to take it. She was not happy to see me there especially because I waited there for her to leave. I waited after getting my shot because Curtis was the only one there to take care of Linger Longer. They need to call more people to help him. If any of their committee misses it is too big a burden for one person to carry alone. It helps that Sister Henrie and Sister Johnson help too but I still think his committee needs at least someone else.

Curtis ALWAYS looks amazing. I didn't really notice it in person, but he was a scruffy grizzly bear today. I think ALL Mid-Singles are constantly having to tell their loved ones they want to get married and NOOO maybe they don't have a girlfriend. That doesn't mean if you take a picture with someone you are dating them. I think my PCC thing where I took pictures with tourists EVERY day gives me that perspective.

It took me OVER an hour after working at the temple to try to figure out how to take this desk apart so I could fit it in my car. I finally gave up frustrated. Now it can definitely fit in my car. I've taken off the slanted legs so I am definitely taking home EVERYTHING I want to take with me. It was so easy. I am convinced a lack of sleep makes you stupid. Trish the manager of the Magna library in Salt Lake County AND last year's ULA president posted on my page that the system will be looking for subs soon. That is what I wanted because it lets me work at ALL the county libraries PLUS provides me the chance to rock real estate.

Actually there's an assistant job with the tax commission that is 30 hours I'd like because it gives me benefits, pays alright BUUUT will allow me to pursue real estate the way I want. I want that job and the chance to prove how capable I am so eventually they let me work 3 tens. That would be veeery sweet.

I REALLY wanted the legislative analyst job but I called the lady who schedules interviews and I'm not even getting an interview. It's not flexible either but I would do well there. First things first and I know it is time now for me to focus on my packing. I haaate it but I also know it is inevitable and necessary.

I have a million papers to sift through. I need to wash my dishes and take my makeup desk and mirror and stick it in my car. Actually I'm taking my patio furniture to DI today. I also wish I could get rid of my couch with someone. I think I'm going to ask sister Henrie if she can help me take it to DI. I'm glad Keri took most of my things. I'm going to start putting my glass decor in with clothes I haven't packed yet in my large suitcase. I can also stick sheets in there too. I haven't gone through my shoes either.

Time to get this done.

Moroni 10
30 And again I would exhort you that ye would come unto Christ, and lay hold upon every good gift, and touch not the evil gift, nor the unclean thing.

So Stevens-Henager had a going-away potluck for me and Dale. Jimmy brought this amazing Jerk chicken salad from Rumbi's Grill. I'm definitely buying it again. Actually I bet I could find a recipe online. It is scrumptious. Just found and printed that recipe. I looove the Internet. How ever did we live before???!!!

I have to hurry up and finish barcoding these books and then stick them back on the shelves in our collection.

So much to do, so little time.

This was a fantastic first full time library job to have following graduation from library school even if it did take me 2 years to find one I was willing to do and take. I continued working as a librarian substitute for Salt Lake County Library Services following my graduation from Emporia in 2008. I am grateful to have had the chance to learn what I did here. I am grateful to have met all the neat people in this area. I am grateful I was able to finish an MBA and get my real estate license. Thank U so much Cache Valley!!! I am really proud of what the Cache Valley Library Association is today. Robert and then now Joseph were the perfect people to make the organization what it is today. If Sharla hadn't let me spend the time and energy organizing it, if she hadn't supported it by letting us use space here AND ALSO paying for bomb refreshments to begin with, it never would've happened.

I have had 2 amazing bosses here. I wish I could work with Jimmy longer, this is just not my passion and I can't stay here. It is doing nothing for me professionally or financially. Jimmy has been great so far and I know the campus is in very good hands. Sharla taught me so much too. I will miss Bryan very much. I love his understanding of the gospel and his testimony. It was nice to have someone to bounce ideas off. The girls who work here are all fun. I am pleased I could work with Afu who is professional AND Tongan. Sometimes my peeps reflect badly on my culture. He hasn't done that at all. I like that the women who work here are all attractive, intelligent and fun. Our Assistant Dean of Computer Science is leaving Stevens-Henager College too. Dale has had his office on the second floor with me. I told my assistant and his that they can have wild parties up here now. Dale and his wife have MANY stereotypical country bumpkin things that arise from time to time BUT they are still good talented people. They perfectly fit and exhibit Preston, Idaho, where they live AND Napoleon Dynamite.

I was forced to leave the little Polynesian box I placed myself in when I moved to Logan in 2010. That's why I love my ward. There are so many people I can't stand, BUT I met 3 men in my ward who I consider worth my time - Annoying, Rich and Curtis.

Annoying stretched me the most and it is still freaky to me how much I was pushed there and how hard I fell for someone I never dated AND who got on my nerves so much. That did not make sense AT ALL. I still feel like I know him really well. He is brilliant AND spiritual AND not bad physically although he doesn't know how to make the most of his looks which is too bad because he looks the most hafekasi Polynesian although he is shorter than I want him to be but I think that's because of my attraction to the too-skinny tall modelly types. Rich is the only person I've ever been specifically told NOT to go there with AND I never felt he was all that in to me although I was completely in to him and I know I would have had a blast with him. We had a freaky connection too. I love that he's an attorney and that his favorite book is Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand. I was attracted to him physically BUT it was his complete package. Of course he was ALSO divorced with 4 children. So this made me think I should specifically look for Chinese/White men, where or how I'm supposed to find this, I have no clue.

BUT then now Curtis I specifically went out of my way to meet because he IS striking. He is the absolute finest boy in Cache Valley AND he is the total package and if I was staying here although I can already see how we would have a huge Cache Valley conflict, I know I would get to know him better anyway. He is the ONLY guy I've ever known who dresses how I want him to dress but doesn't have a gay vibe at all. He looks like he stepped out of GQ plus he's LDS, is renovating the SECOND home he's owned AND is sweet. I love that someone as fine as he is can also be kind and humble. I love that although he doesn't have a college degree he is still intelligent. Curtis shattered ALL my stereotypes. Not only is this male model white, he is ALSO a farm boy from Wellsville with swagger, style, intelligence, humility and kindness AND he's LDS.

These 3 men were or are now in my Mid-Singles ward so ALTHOUGH there are MANY strange and irritating men who attend, it is worth it for me to attend because if I found gems in Logan, I should at least be able to find a few in Salt Lake.

I am grateful I was able to finish an MBA and get my real estate license. Thank U very much Cache Valley.

I will miss all my coworkers. They are so sweet, accomplished and fun. Jimmy is an awesome boss too. I wish I could see myself working here longer but I always knew it was a temporary situation and that I didn't want to remain in this place any longer than I had to be here. If I had answered Jimmy differently about staying here and working here he would not have eliminated my position. I know that and I am grateful to him for giving me the opportunity to do this WITHOUT owing Stevens-Henager College 31,000 for my MBA. I looove putting that on applications now, my 2 master degrees. If it hadn't been free I never would have done it. An MBA is a fabulous degree to combine with my Master in Library Science. It is going to allow me to be hired in Administration without the lengthy amount of time I'd need to do that.

I cleaned out and moved my wicker furniture to the dining area of my kitchen as well as the cart and plastic drawers I am giving Keri. She just needs to take that and the couch quickly. I'm going to appeal to my Logan friends to see if anyone will lend me an air mattress for the night of September 3rd. I just posted on Facebook. I think I'm going to look on KSL next. If I can find one now maybe I can get the bed out of here now and just use the mattress until I leave.

I hadn't thought of that. It may be worth the price of the mattress to get it out of my apartment quicker. Hmmm...

The air mattresses are really cheap so I am definitely going to buy one. I need one anyway. I should've looked up online how much they are before I posted. I deleted that post. I thought they were over $100. I thought wrong. I can get several for UNDER $50. Sooo I deleted my post. I need to get my nails done at lunchtime or I'd buy one then but I can just do it after I meet with Keri who is going to take something today and then tomorrow after work too. If she can take EVERYTHING Friday that'll be sweet - then I can take a load to Salt Lake and finish my very last cleaning/packing on the weekend too or the next week.

I am so excited this is all coming together.

I am glad I am leaving. I was thinking about how I tried to get Curtis to go to see a movie with me yesterday. He is so fine and sweet and although I don't want to stay here in Cache Valley I would STILL try to get to know him better if I stayed here because I'm still doing that now even though I know I'm leaving next week. AND I am going to continue to do that. He is gorgeous AND he is an amazing, kind and down-to-earth person who is intelligent and dresses EXACTLY how I want him to dress. I love that he has farm skills AND a profession as a designer. The only thing I don't like about him is that I know he loves it here and wants to remain here. He is unusually close to his family but I really like that ALTHOUGH I will not raise my family here or even live here by choice ALTHOUGH I have for over 4 years now - this was NEVER the plan and it is only because I got my MBA that I remained here as long as I did. Even if I just got married and never had children I could not live here.

I am very glad I talked to Keri to see if she needed any of my stuff. She was crying and so grateful. When my house guests were here on the day I was planning to give all my things to my visiting teachers I assumed that meant my stuff would go to them. When they ended up leaving I got that it shouldn't go to the visiting teachers but I still didn't know where it should go. I have no doubt it was meant to go with someone who needed this stuff and Keri was who it needed to go with. She took the black leather bench, shelf, foyer table and counter stools. 

I am grateful Jimmy eliminated my position and gave me the push I needed to get out of here. I can't wait!!! I miss all the Asian restaurants in Salt Lake. It is $5 Tuesday at all Megaplex theaters so I am going to the Expendables tonight at 6:30. Maybe I'll leave work a little early since it is also the night Keri is coming over to look at the things I don't want to take with me to Salt Lake.

 I messaged Curtis and invited him to go. Tuesdays he is responsible for milking cows. He does spend a lot of time helping at his dad's farm. That is a very good trait to have... HOWEVER I just hope he maintains some sort of a social life too. He was engaged not too long ago so he did find some way to do that. I love how close he is to his family. That is what is and should be most important. It is time for him to form his own family now AND make that his priority. He was just engaged to a very pretty lady recently so I'm sure he knows that. I like the Coalville girl I met at his party. She is genuine and she is gorgeous too.

My mother called me to find out what my plans are this weekend. She is sooo going to drive me crazy. I need to hurry and find my own place asap. I need a job first. I am going to look into SOS temporary services. They usually have something I can do right away that will give me the gas/survival money I need to rock the real estate world AND it'll be something I can quit when I find the librarian job I want. I am wondering if I should just apply for this Glendale Manager position.

I don't expect to be hired there for that and I don't really want to manage that library BUUUT I do want to be the assistant manager there and then work as the manager of the Marmalade branch that will be completed soon next year.I love the Salt Lake County system but Salt Lake City is where I plan to live.

19 And we did magnify our office unto the Lord, taking upon us the responsibility, answering the sins of the people upon our own heads if we did not teach them the word of God with all diligence; wherefore, by laboring with our might their blood might not come upon our garments; otherwise their blood would come upon our garments, and we would not be found spotless at the last day.

The Lego Movie???!!! REALLY, whose bright idea was that? I would rather stay home and clean some of the things I hope Keri will want to take with her. Keri kept talking about the nice three-dollar-something Crumb Brothers lunches... UH NOOO!!! My chicken salad sandwich was $7.50. I could have had several different lunches to go from The Elements that would NOT have cost me that much. The Elements has great lunch deals even though they've disappointed me on numerous occasions. Their Taco Night Tuesday for example just sucks.

I have less than an hour left and 3 MORE WORK DAYS at Stevens-Henager!!! I can't wait to be accustomed again to NORMAL things again so I don't get impressed every time I'm just in a normal area of Salt Lake City. I REALLY hate that the last few times I went to Salt Lake I kept thinking what a nice neighborhood West Jordan was... NOOO IT ISN'T, it is just when you've been in isolated Logan that you feel that way. I can't wait to lose that. 

When you think grocery stores in Salt Lake are nice... WHEN YOU NOTICE THAT... it is waaay past time to get out of the Dairyland. I used to complain about living on a farm because I live here and because it feels like I live on one huge farm BUT then now I know Curtis who was really raised on a farm and nothing is wrong with that and I feel bad saying that or thinking it. I'm grateful he shattered those stereotypes BUUUT there are still the bumpkin things that keep arising now and then. You would think after 4 years I would have some love for this place BUT O HELL NO!!!   

As fine as Curtis is, as sweet as he is, I know without asking him that he loves this place very much and  to raise his family here. It is the biggest problem I have with him that is my own personal problem.  

I REALLY don't want to drive to Provo but when I told George it is a small desk that just has slanted legs he told me to park at his house and drive his mini-van myself. I don't want to drive to Provo but he said any way it happens SOMEONE is going to have to drive and since it is my desk and I'm the one who wants it I am going to have to drive there myself and take care of it. He told me to just get rid of the desk if I don't want to drive to Provo to get it. Weird that my super-bulky makeup desk fits in the backseat of my car while the thin writing desk doesn't.

I went to Amazon again and it is actually 62.00 there. I was hoping to find some hints on how to take it apart but no such luck. I think I'll try the manufacturer.

GRRR!!! Is this desk worth me driving to Provo, getting his minivan and then driving it all the way to Logan and then back to Provo???!!! My brother is very wise. Why should he drive all the way down here when he can have me do it myself???!!! His van like I thought gets the same gas mileage as my car.

I am thinking there should be a way to take this thing apart that I am not figuring out. I want to take it apart and then I can assemble it again at home. I tried to figure it out for over an hour BUUUT it was AFTER the temple so I was super-tired and out of it. It really isn't worth the hassle of driving to Provo and picking up George's minivan to make the run.

I'm going to drive to Salt Lake Friday and come back Friday too. I should be able to get people to take all of my stuff they want or take it to DI Saturday. I can take my flatscreen, shelf, entertainment table, make-up desk, mirror, folding chairs. I'm going to get a lot done this weekend and use my remaining days next week to finish cleaning. It shouldn't take too long and I can get it done fairly quickly.

I HAAATE moving although I should be able to get it done fairly quickly. I think I will ask Sister Henrie and Monica if they want any of the stuff I'm not taking and see if they can take it before Friday when I will take everything I'm not keeping to DI. Getting rid of stuff is very attractive to me and I am happy DI exists to take this stuff off my hands if I don't want to keep it.

It is a new module BUUUT I've only had a couple students visit me for books. It is such a difference from what it used to be.  I have 3 days LEFT at work!!! I just talked to Keri Nyman here at work to see if she needed or wanted to look at the stuff I'm not taking to see if she wanted anything. She's going to come over and look at it tomorrow so I will have everything ready for her to take what she can tomorrow and then pick up anything else too.

Who knows maybe she needs my couch and double bed. There's also my clear plastic drawers she might need or want. I am going to transfer all of my clothes to a suitcase I'm going to use along with the small section in my closet. I still need to go through my shoes. I hope Keri needs this stuff because I just want to get rid of it whether it be through DI or somewhere else. She's going to go home with me tomorrow. It was just weird that my house guests came before I gave everything away to my visiting teachers.

I helped the Linger Longer committee today. I'm not sure where Holly was today. Curtis was there looking beautiful. It just seems silly to develop our relationship at all when I'm leaving although I do still enjoy his company. Bro. Henry was asking him what he did for fun and he said he works as in he works all day then goes to his dad's farm and works more.

He has a beautiful tan which is from his hard work outside. I REALLY hope however that it's not ALL he does. He is too young to be spending all his time working. He needs a social life but with his schedule I'm not sure how he can develop a relationship with anyone. He is too sweet and fine to remain hidden that way. He was just engaged however so I was thinking he was fine and then his other friend who came to his party was really sweet too.

I don't know anymore. Should I get to know him better anyway before I leave? What's the point?

Today was my last day working at the Logan temple. It has been so awesome working there. I can easily work at the Salt Lake Temple if I want to do that BUT first I'm going to try to figure out my working situation first.

I did initiatories twice and I was sister 2 in a session so I got to watch the new film instead of just listen to it like I did last week. I had an exit interview with President Taylor. That was very nice. Gabriela and I were talking Thursday about colored contacts. I told her I had a box and that I'd wear a pair Monday so when I wanted to change my contacts I put them in. I used to wear colored contacts a lot when I was younger. It is still fun to change my eye color.

I ate a lot of junk food today. So what else is new.

I hope all is well with Lakeesha and Taylor. When I woke up I watched my Korean drama episode I fell asleep to last night. When I was done I came out of my room and all trace of my house guests were gone. I hope Kira's Dr.'s appointment went well. I was VERY ticked when I gave Kira some popcorn and she ended up emptying the container all over my carpet. There is nothing wrong with that, she is a toddler. What ticked me off is Lakeesha didn't do anything to clean it up. When I finally noticed it I went and cleaned it up. I should have said something to her.

Gossner's cheese factory didn't need Taylor to work Thursday. I made musubi for them. I REALLY didn't need to buy a freaking bag of rice or ANY of the food I bought when they stayed with me. They are good people and I wish I was in a position to help them BUT I'M NOOOT and the damage has already been done.

No one forced me to help them BUUUT I feel like I didn't have a choice.

Kira spilled milk and Taylor cleaned it up. I know she just hurt her shoulder BUUUT if you come and stay at my house and do not a damn thing when your daughter makes a mess something is wrong with you. If someone lets you stay at their house the LEAST you can do is clean up after your child. That was NOT COOL with me and if I see her again she will hear about it.

I received this huge envelope with a letter and copies of talks from my mother trying to get me to not pursue Real Estate. My brother is completely supportive and told me to go for it which I plan to do. Glendale has a new manager position available. I am not interested in doing that. I AM however interested in becoming the Marmalade Library manager. I'm thinking of applying for it anyway to get the hiring committee at the City used to seeing my name in that position.

Regardless I intend to pursue Real Estate and my brother was very supportive. He told me to get a part time job somewhere so I can pay the monthly office fees and gas initially. I love that he was supportive of what I want to do. I don't want to be stuck somewhere I don't want to be which is why I am very grateful to be moving and I am grateful to Jimmy for eliminating my position so I don't have to pay the school back for my MBA.

I REALLY want the legislature to call me and set up an interview. I am going to call them tomorrow and follow up on that. I paid my insurance today and bought my rice but I didn't pay my utilities which I'll do tomorrow when Lakeesha and Taylor take their daughter to the doctor. It's about 6pm AND about time for me to hit the road!!! I am sounding like I have to drive more than 5 minutes home.

Delta Airlines STILL hasn't called me AND I am sick of calling them and they NOOOT responding to me AT ALL. I've come this far... It shouldn't be this hard. I know my father-in-heaven will help me get this position if it is meant to be. I REALLY want the legislative analyst position. It'll allow me to do something that'll require my mind to do some work AND it pays 56,000 which I would looove.

Real Estate would provide me with the freedom I want. I'm trying to think of where I am willing to work part time.

Today is my last day at work this week!!!

Saturday is my last day working at the Logan temple. : (

Next week I will work Monday through Thursday THEN I have about a week to pack and get out of Dodge!!!

Life is fantastic!!!

I need to pay my insurance AND Conservice utilities today AND buy a bag of rice from the Korean store.

I also need to attack and clean/pack my spare bedroom.

Yes I made it myself and it was delicious. I fried cut up zucchini and squash in coconut oil and Aloha Shoyu. I think I'm addicted to shrimp. I dip the shrimp in club soda first then in rice flour and then I fry it in coconut oil. It is scrumptious. I bought an apple fritter and also a chocolate cake donut from Johnny O's after that before I returned to work. I still want to eat something but I'm not sure what. Those donuts didn't taste as good as they did when I was thinking about getting them in the first place.

My apartment looked untouched and Lakeesha and Taylor packed and put away ALL of their things. I hope they are alright. I wonder what they have planned and what they've figured out. Taylor brought me my key well before lunchtime. I really hope I made them feel welcome. It is something hard for me but they are the perfect house guests. I need to buy some white rice from the Korean store so I can make some musubi which they love.

I am trying to stay calm BUUUT I am uncomfortable leaving people in my apartment when I'm not there. I trust them and I'm sure I'm getting excited for nothing BUUUT I left my key with Taylor and he's going to drop it off here before my lunchtime. I said a prayer with them this morning. I really want to be a good influence on them but I need to lighten up. Instead I am freaking out. The spirit tells me it is a good thing, I just can't help the way I feel. REALLY what's the worse that could happen? Nothing. I am imagining EVERYTHING that could go wrong in this situation. I hope they find a place that works for them. We saw one for just $350 that would be perfect. I can move most of my furniture there except the stuff I'm taking with me to Salt Lake. I don't need my bedding because my bed in Salt Lake is a queen. I'm taking my dishes and my wok but they are welcome to take my utensils, the container that holds these and even my matching dish drainer.

When you are a missionary you can spread the gospel but you never have to put people up in your home. Can I really fellowship someone if I'm unwilling to do that?

They aren't going to do anything when I've always treated them well STILL I am freaking out as I sit here and that will probably continue until they move into their new place. Since they lived here before Taylor knows where he can find work almost immediately if he needs to do that. They really need to be closer to to Primary Children's hospital for their daughter who may need multiple appointments and/or treatments. I hope everything is alright. George had some sort of fatty tissue he had to remove surgically. Now you can't tell anything was wrong.

With growths of any sort cancer is a concern. That is why they have to check Kira out and have her appointment scheduled.

Helaman 11
37 And it came to pass in the eighty and fifth year they did wax stronger and stronger in their pride, and in their wickedness; and thus they were ripening again for destruction.

The cycle of pride, wickedness, destruction, humility, righteousness, blessings and then pride is repeated many times in the Book of Mormon but is described in this chapter as it is in many others.

It is a blessing that I am able to help Lakeesha and her family right now. I hope for the best for them. I wish I would quit tripping so much. I never had a sister to have to share anything with. Why is it bothering me so much. I've been blessed with parents who raised me in the gospel, who supported me financially to attend school and then on my mission too. I didn't take a school loan out until graduate school which I tried to do on my own but then my mother ended up paying for me to finish. 


I was lucky enough to get my MBA without it costing me a cent through this job. I have been so fortunate. If my director hadn't let me leave work early twice a week I wouldn't have been able to attend those classes. The content wasn't difficult, the amount of hours I had to spend with the subject in class AFTER my 10-hour work day up until 9:45 meaning I got home around or after 10pm was pure hell. It made me sympathize with the students here who often work full time somewhere else.

Taking and passing my test, studying instead of going to spend time with my family at Christmas was actually the best decision I could've made. I have to do this. I need to talk to my mother and help her see how this is important to me. She should show me support then. I know my father-in-heaven will help me with this. I know I need to talk nicely with my mother. I've been ignoring her phone calls. 

So we had a student Lakeesha who would visit me all the time in the library. She was studying Medical Assisting and came to Stevens-Henager College to be with her boyfriend a crazy-talented gifted artist named Taylor. They quit school but before they left I had them over for dinner a few times and took them to a missionary fireside at the tabernacle. I want to be their positive contact with the church. She messages me on Facebook today and tells me she is in Logan and that they are looking for someplace to stay. She asks me what I'm doing tonight and I tell her I'm meeting with "ladies from the church". I finally ask her where she's staying tonight and she tells me she doesn't know yet so I tell her to come over and I give her my address.

I was veeery nervous BUUUT I shouldn't have been. They have a plan and they brought an air mattress with them. I took all of my stuff out of my extra bathroom and I am exclusively using my master bathroom until they either find a place or I move out. I had planned on giving my visiting teachers as much of the furniture I didn't plan to take with me but now I'm going to give it to them. They can use this stuff a lot more than Curtis can and I am happy to give it to a couple I know can make use of it. Their adorable daughter Kira has a growth on her head they have to address at Primary Children's hospital and it is one of the reasons they moved here.

I was so dreading them staying with me at first but it is fine and they are kind and respectful. I hope I can be a positive influence on them and that I represent the church well.

We went to Taco Tuesday at The Elements for $2 tacos  and I WAS NOOOT impressed. I do like Burger Thursdays BUUUT Taco Tuesday sucks.

I wish I was at home now so I could be preparing furniture for people to come and take away or rather my visiting teachers to take away after their visit with me. I'd like to get rid of my white wicker bedroom furniture, leather bench, shelf, foyer table, glass table and leaf pictures. I also can get rid of those big plastic drawers plus my green stools. My mother was driving me crazy this morning. She doesn't want me to pay my real estate fees now. HOWEVER, I NEED to do something and I WANT TO WORK IN REAL ESTATE FIRST. She doesn't want me to do that. Ideally I'll get that Legislative analyst position AND the Delta airlines job AND pay my real estate fees AND start that. I'm going to need gas money to get around too so the Delta airlines job is good for that. Although the training portion is full time hours the actual work after 12 weeks is maybe 20 hours a week if that. Speaking of gas money, the first thing I need to do when I'm finished here is get some gas before going home and meeting my visiting teachers.

I am ready to do this now. I feel like not having any public librarian openings in Salt Lake is a blessing so I can do this. I can start working now to prepare myself. I may not be paid right away but the first check averages 5k so it is worth it to work it and work it well. I have no doubt my father in heaven helped me take classes and get my license. It sure wasn't easy but my former boss allowed me to make it happen. After working here which I love, I realized how much I want to work in public libraries. I'm not going to apply for just any librarian job. I don't want to work at an academic library. I also don't want to just sit around until the job appears. I want to be actively working and learning real estate UNTIL I find the job I love and want to work at.

Federal librarian positions start at 82,000. I need one of those. I'm not willing to just work at any job. Maybe that's my problem. BUUUT I don't think so... I think this is a rare opportunity for me to do this now without distractions.

I went to our FHE last night. It didn't look like the cricket game I remember playing. First there was no cricket bat, just a regular baseball bat. Next, there were 3 soda cans NOT the MUCH taller stick configuration I remember. People also hit the ball like baseball. I remember the ball being hit lower BUUUT I only played cricket once so it was probably played correctly in everything else.

I saw Jon my mission leader there holding hands with Jamie Drake!!! Hallelujah!!! He made my skin crawl every time he'd touch my shoulders. Creepy irritating man who I am glad found someone who I don't know very well BUUUT is definitely the type he should have checked out to begin with because hell isn't freezing over any time soon for me to give him the damn time of day. I ONLY ever talked to him because he was my mission leader HOWEVER... he hasn't done a damn thing since the day he got the hell on my nerves by his constant attention at that barn party in Millville. I was kind BUUUT I had to leave to get the hell away from him which is what I did. I hope this works out well for him and her and that they continue to find happiness together.

I was hungry and I had made myself shrimp tempura and vegetable tempura at lunch so I didn't feel like cooking for dinner so I bought a pizza at Little Ceasars. I ate the entire thing. I can't believe I did that BUT I was hungry then I fell asleep on the couch until I woke up at around 3am and could take out my contacts, wash my face and jump into bed.

My visiting teachers are coming over tonight. I am going to try to get them to take as much furniture I'm not keeping as possible when they visit AND see if they want my couch and bed. They will have to get that on the 4th however because I will need that stuff until then. My friend Lori here at work is taking my banquet table. If she doesn't take it by the 4th I'll give it to Jeff who I haven't called yet just because I'm going to see if Sister Henrie and Monica want that stuff first tonight. That will be so great if they can take everything away tonight.

Nicki asked me when was my last day. She was in Stacey's office. I told her next Thursday then began a happy dance but I tried to temper that and I started to try to say something but then I told them I couldn't lie and I left. I am sooo excited to be leaving!!! There are many people I am sad not to see again BUUUT there are also people I am happy not to see again. Some, actually most, I am just neutral about.

Helaman 10

20 Saying unto him: Thou art confederate; who is this man that hath done this murder? Now tell us, and acknowledge thy fault; saying, Behold here is money; and also we will grant unto thee thy life if thou wilt tell us, and acknowledge the agreement which thou hast made with him.
21 But Nephi said unto them: O ye fools, ye uncircumcised of heart, ye blind, and ye stiffnecked people, do ye know how long the Lord your God will suffer you that ye shall go on in this your way of sin?

I looove that response. When can I ever say something like that and it be deemed justified? Probably never. That is just common language then. 

I don't have a job yet but I'm not nervous and instead I'm worried about having enough money to pay my real estate fees. I should be fine especially since I have 2 checks left before I need to pay it. I'm going to read the book Keller Williams gave me. I REALLY am happy with my broker choice. The company is very agent-centric and the agents serve on local councils. I like their values and their training available. 

Curtis gets 14mpg on his truck. That didn't mean anything to me so I looked up my car and it is 18mpg. George's van is 14mpg too so it's just as bad as Curtis' truck but he has to drive from Utah Valley. I don't think it really costs him $100 to go from there to here. 

I can drive to my mother's house and back for about $20. Does that mean it'll be 30 or 40 for his truck? I'd say that would make George's entire trip closer to 85-100 instead of one-way. He is exaggerating. 

I just called George and he said it was around $50 one-way, $100 round-trip so I asked him why I thought it was more than that and he said because I'm stupid. Hahaha!!! Alright, so that's going to make it from 60-80 from Logan to Salt Lake City round-trip in Curtis' truck. That is still pretty bad. Alright I'm going to look up my desk now online.

I found it on Amazon for 22.00 BUUUT the shipping is 44.00. Sooo about $70 if I order it from Amazon. It is inexpensive, I just like it and I probably won't buy it online for myself. My assistant said her son has a pickup and it cost 106.00 to fill. She told me $50 would be a fair gas amount to give. That's what George said he'd have to spend one-way. Of course I wouldn't give George ANY gas money just because that is his Tongan cultural responsibility as my brother, PLUS he'd have to buy us dinner too - BUUUT I don't want to take advantage of him either. I know what my assistant said but I think with what George said $60 round-trip sounds like a fairer estimate. What sucks is George could be exaggerating because he knows I'm not going to give him any money for doing it. 

One of the girls I used to hang out with at the Y passed away recently. It is so weird. She left several beautiful children and a husband. They lost their son several years ago so I am happy she is reunited with him at least BUT it is still freaky to me that she died. It seems like it happened out of nowhere. They were sealed in the temple however which is an awesome assurance her family has to comfort them. She served a mission to Japan. She had an amazing testimony and I am grateful to have had her as a friend.

She was a beautiful jazz AND Hawaiian dancer. Although I haven't associated with her for years I was also told she was an amazing wife and mother.

When I first started job-hunting there was a public librarian job at the Springville public library. My mother was watching BYU-TV yesterday and  they played a story about some lady who was old like me and still single who felt she should work in some remote town where she met and married her husband. My patriarchal blessing is VERY clear and it states my father-in-heaven will bless me WHEREVER I CHOOSE to reside, MEANING I GET TO CHOOSE THIS!!! I looked into this because I always hear these stories about people being led specifically to certain cities or towns because they feel Heavenly Father wants them there.

Lauresa and Melissa had that happen to them. Annoying was also led to move to Logan BECAUSE he would find his wife here. I am sooo grateful I met Curtis when I did because I was getting psychotic and seeing annoying all over the place BUUUT I don't know how much of that was imaginary and how much wasn't. I needed to meet someone that fine to get me to think about someone, ANYONE else. Curtis is EXACTLY what I needed. He looks like a model, dresses well, and takes care of himself WITHOUT the gay vibe that usually accompanies that. I am not sticking around here long enough to become anything more than his friend BUUUT that is alright. He fits ALL the stereotypes I have about Cache Valley BUUUT he also defies them. He is intelligent without a graduate degree, stylish AND raised and lives in Wellsville, he helps on his family farm but he doesn't live at home still, he likes Stevie Nicks who is rock rather than country AND he is very fine BUUUT he definitely isn't a player and while he is confident in his appearance he is down-to-earth and even has a psychotic friend like Carline. He is kind and I'm glad he's my friend.

We are playing cricket for FHE today. That is such an annoying thing to do. He even follows the scores of professional? cricket teams. Cricket reminds me of Jason Harris who I grew up with in Tongan. His name definitely doesn't sound Tongan although he is full Tongan. He would always try to get the neighborhood kids at Liahona to play cricket but it never really caught-on. Tongans in general never really embraced cricket although the Samoans have and they have cricket leagues in Samoa.

Since it is one of my last FHE's I'm going to attend although I'm going to change my shoes at lunchtime.

8 days of work left!!! 2 work weeks!!! 1 more Saturday working at the temple - that I'm not so happy about. BUUUT other than that, I looove this!!! My mother keeps getting on my nerves. She keeps calling me and ticking me off. The latest is she had a dream and she saw her visiting teachers helping her with something because I wasn't living with her and I was working somewhere else. I told her I'm going to work in Real Estate and I am completely excited about that. I just don't know how living with my mother again is going to work out.

She called me twice this morning. Curtis was sporting his freshly cut fauxhawk today. I love that he isn't afraid or uncomfortable to do that to his hair. He told me he never messaged me back... DUUUH!!! - it is difficult to be irritated with him for long because he is so sweet. I didn't like seeing him putting away the chairs by himself. I hoped the guys helped him. If there are guys there I'm not going to do that. It's my cultural upbringing GUYS move furniture, I DON'T. Well I am going to move my own furniture BUUUT if my brother, cousins or nephews were around I wouldn't lift a finger.

I think I just may end up making 2 trips. It would cost George $200 round trip and its really not worth it just for me to have him help me with that. I've been thinking I should give my old home teacher my stuff. Jeff is cool and I've never seen his house before. While Mark could probably use my stuff I don't feel good leaving my things to him because his house is a pigsty. I'm going to keep my pretty shower curtains and rings.

Curtis has an empty house BECAUSE he is renovating. That does make sense and I'm sure his house would be furnished if he wasn't. He said they are harvesting grain now which means he probably can't drive me to Salt Lake. I don't feel good getting my brother to do it when I think about how it will cost him $100 each way. I'm just going to leave my desk here if Curtis can't take me. I don't think it'll happen although it would be nice if it did.

Since I'm off Fridays they are typically my cleaning days. While I continue to look at job listings I am more interested in doing real estate right now. I need to pay what I have to pay to be ready to just begin my real estate career when I hit Salt Lake City. While I don't have rent left to pay I do need to cover my car insurance, utilities, phone and gas bill for the last time.

I've just been cleaning interspersed with watching my addiction HGTV. They are playing a lot of Love it or List it. I love seeing the renovations they do get completed. I also like to see the real estate component although the Million-Dollar listing shows on Bravo are still my favorite. I do love this stuff and I hope I keep feeling that way once I am truly immersed in Real Estate.

While I wish Curtis had a graduate school degree, he IS grown up as in he supports himself. He has bought his second house already and he just turned 31. I don't know why I assumed he still lived at home when I first met him. He seems to love his field too which is something I actually love right now too or something similar anyway. His farming skills are just bonuses. I am glad he's not in school still or living the life of a student. He can always go to school part time if he wants later. It's not like he's an idiot. He is very intelligent and can develop any area he wants successfully. He could get a degree in architecture and even a graduate degree in the same field. He doesn't live at home and he hasn't for several years. He purchased his first home in his twenties ALSO a great thing.

He STILL hasn't answered my message and since I'll be gone in a couple weeks it doesn't really matter. He is very fine AND a very good person too BUT soon I'm not going to be in his ward or associate with him in any way which could very well be exactly what he wants. I hope my brother can help me move stuff. Even if he doesn't it's alright because anything I want to take I can fit in my car except my small desk BUUUT I'll get over it if I have to lose it. It'll take me 2 trips but I'm pretty sure I need to drive there for an interview anyway which will require me to take 2 trips whether I want to do that or not.

I'm going to miss working in the temple. I have 2 more Saturdays left. I am excited to meet new people in my new ward however as well as starting a new career. I think people will think I'm crazy for doing this since I have 2 Master degrees BUUUT it is what I want to do and I plan to work in a library too part time. The real estate thing is just how I'm using my MBA.

She's not here yet which means we can't have our meeting until she shows up. I tried to take off my dark teal nail polish but my remover doesn't take it off. I took it off as much as I could and just painted over it with my shiny creme stuff. The teal still shows through and it's probably not going away until I get my nails done again. They look silvery grey now. Marjorie did show up and we were able to discuss things.

I looove looking at the calendar now. Yesterday Katie told me I was glowing and that I just looked really happy. I'm trying not to let it show too much BUUUT I am so excited to be leaving. Except for my real estate venture I don't have anything else lined up BUUUT I can't wait!!!

Helaman 6
25 Now behold, it is these secret oaths and covenants which Alma commanded his son should not go forth unto the world, lest they should be a means of bringing down the people unto destruction.

The power of covenants BOTH good and evil is emphasized here and attests to the strength and importance of making and keeping covenants.

I have 2 more Saturdays left of working in the temple. I still haven't seen the latest new film. I have 2 weeks to go at work and 4 days!!! I looove that!!! 

There is an opening for the manager of the Glendale Library. I want the Marmalade Library manager job. This means they will be looking for librarians soon which I am excited about. I roasted cauliflower AND broccoli at lunchtime. It was good but it didn't have the crunch I was looking for. Also I left a bulb of garlic on the counter and it was gross and disgusting when I tried to use it. Saaad. What a waste of garlic so I just used olive oil and salt. I'd like to stick it in the oven again when I go home. I want the roasted crunch factor. These tasted good but they were just mixed heated veggies. 

Your Four Minutes - Gary E. Stevenson
This life is your four minutes. While you are here, your actions will determine whether you win the prize of eternal life. The prophet Amulek described, “This life is the time … to prepare to meet God; yea, behold the day of this life is the day … to perform [your] labors.”
Self-discipline is needed. Daily prayer, scripture study, and church attendance must be the foundation of your training. A consistent pattern of obeying the commandments, keeping the covenants you have made, and following the Lord’s standard found in For the Strength of Youth is required.
Now, you may be thinking to yourself, “I already blew it. My four minutes are already a disaster. I may as well give up.” If so, stop thinking that, and never think it again. The miracle of the Atonement can make up for imperfections in our performance. 
I express my utmost confidence in your abilities. You have the Savior of the world on your side. If you seek His help and follow His directions, how can you fail?

It is almost 3pm. I am sooo glad it's the weekend and I can go home soon!!! I need to pick up some club soda so I can cook my shrimp. I could also get some cashews and condensed milk then I could make my honey glazed cashew shrimp. Yes interesting because the recipe doesn't actually have honey in it. Condensed milk, mayo cashews and shrimp. 

I think I just have to stop eating bread period. I never feel good after eating it. BUUUT I love the taste of it. I can eat it once a week if I just eat clean the rest of the week. Last night I went to Smith's and they had Hawaiian sweet bread sandwich rolls marked down so I bought a pack. I made 2 ham sandwiches I ate this morning with a banana and I'm still drinking water. I need to roast my cauliflower and broccoli at lunch time. I have garlic, olive oil and salt which is supposed to be all I need for this.

Roasted veggies are really good. I can get sick of things pretty quickly. When I first changed my diet I loved roasted/salted almonds. Now I can still eat them but I don't polish off huge amounts in one sitting. They are just alright. I feel the same way about celery. I used to love eating these with almond butter. Again I have a whole bag in my fridge cut up that I'm going to end up throwing away because the thought of eating it right now is gross to me.

Last night I packed the rest of my coats, jackets and boots from my closet that I didn't take with me to Salt Lake the last time I went there. I filled my large duffle luggage bag and one laundry bag. I'm going to use the other laundry bag to pack the rest of my boots, hangers and handbags. I'm going to go through my shoes tonight and figure out what I can get rid of and begin another DI bag. I'm glad I already went through my clothes and that most of them are already in Salt Lake.

If I can convince Curtis to take the rest of my stuff it's going to really help me. I think it could help him too BUUUT he hasn't responded to my Facebook message AT ALL. I'm not sure what his problem is exactly. If I have to go to Salt Lake for an interview in the next couple of weeks I just may have very little to have to take there when I move permanently.

Helaman 5
 2 For as their laws and their governments were established by the voice of the people, and they who chose evil were morenumerous than they who chose good, therefore they were ripeningfor destruction, for the laws had become corrupted.

Ripening for destruction - is another beautiful phrase I just like!

I looove this!!!

Looking at my calendar I have 10 working days left. 2 this week then 4 for the next two weeks. My visiting teachers are coming over today. I didn't go to our FHE yesterday. It's that time of the month and yesterday I felt like a river. I thought about the pioneer women and how that must have been so horrible for them. I'm glad we have a pioneer heritage. I also thought about them a lot when I walked to work over a week. Walking is easy but the scorching temperatures are from hell.

Helaman 4
5 And in the fifty and seventh year they did come down against the Nephites to battle, and they did commence the work of death; yea, insomuch that in the fifty and eighth year of the reign of the judges they succeeded in obtaining possession of the land of Zarahemla; yea, and also all the lands, even unto the land which was near the land Bountiful.

I like the phrase commence the work of death. I'm not morbid it is just beautifully said. Poetic even.

24 And they saw that they had become weak, like unto their brethren, the Lamanites, and that the Spirit of the Lord did no more preserve them; yea, it had withdrawn from them because the Spirit of the Lord doth not dwell in unholy temples—

Grateful in Any Circumstances - Dieter F. Uctdorf
We can choose to be like the Mormon pioneers, who maintained a spirit of gratitude during their slow and painful trek toward the Great Salt Lake, even singing and dancing and glorying in the goodness of God.⁶ Many of us would have been inclined to withdraw, complain, and agonize about the difficulty of the journey.
You do not need to see the Savior, as the Apostles did, to experience the same transformation. Your testimony of Christ, born of the Holy Ghost, can help you look past the disappointing endings in mortality and see the bright future that the Redeemer of the world has prepared.

I complain a lot but I am always grateful. I have been blessed beyond belief. I can't believe what I have received and continue to receive EVERY day. The biggest blessing I enjoy is the testimony I have of the Savior and his role in my life. Just the ability to improve each day is such a gift. Progression brings me joy. 

I remembered seeing house pictures when I first looked at Curtis' Facebook Page. I went back to try to get a sense of his design style. I think those are pictures of the first house he bought. While I love how he dresses very much we don't share the same interior decorating preferences. While I am going to give him the first shot to take everything I don't want to take to Salt Lake, he may not like the same things I do. Who knows he might like my ugly couch. This is why I want him to look first. Before I take down my decorative things he can see if he'd even want that. 

It's about lunchtime and I'm hungry.