Urban Poly Princess

I am trying to stay calm BUUUT I am uncomfortable leaving people in my apartment when I'm not there. I trust them and I'm sure I'm getting excited for nothing BUUUT I left my key with Taylor and he's going to drop it off here before my lunchtime. I said a prayer with them this morning. I really want to be a good influence on them but I need to lighten up. Instead I am freaking out. The spirit tells me it is a good thing, I just can't help the way I feel. REALLY what's the worse that could happen? Nothing. I am imagining EVERYTHING that could go wrong in this situation. I hope they find a place that works for them. We saw one for just $350 that would be perfect. I can move most of my furniture there except the stuff I'm taking with me to Salt Lake. I don't need my bedding because my bed in Salt Lake is a queen. I'm taking my dishes and my wok but they are welcome to take my utensils, the container that holds these and even my matching dish drainer.

When you are a missionary you can spread the gospel but you never have to put people up in your home. Can I really fellowship someone if I'm unwilling to do that?

They aren't going to do anything when I've always treated them well STILL I am freaking out as I sit here and that will probably continue until they move into their new place. Since they lived here before Taylor knows where he can find work almost immediately if he needs to do that. They really need to be closer to to Primary Children's hospital for their daughter who may need multiple appointments and/or treatments. I hope everything is alright. George had some sort of fatty tissue he had to remove surgically. Now you can't tell anything was wrong.

With growths of any sort cancer is a concern. That is why they have to check Kira out and have her appointment scheduled.

Helaman 11
37 And it came to pass in the eighty and fifth year they did wax stronger and stronger in their pride, and in their wickedness; and thus they were ripening again for destruction.

The cycle of pride, wickedness, destruction, humility, righteousness, blessings and then pride is repeated many times in the Book of Mormon but is described in this chapter as it is in many others.

It is a blessing that I am able to help Lakeesha and her family right now. I hope for the best for them. I wish I would quit tripping so much. I never had a sister to have to share anything with. Why is it bothering me so much. I've been blessed with parents who raised me in the gospel, who supported me financially to attend school and then on my mission too. I didn't take a school loan out until graduate school which I tried to do on my own but then my mother ended up paying for me to finish. 


I was lucky enough to get my MBA without it costing me a cent through this job. I have been so fortunate. If my director hadn't let me leave work early twice a week I wouldn't have been able to attend those classes. The content wasn't difficult, the amount of hours I had to spend with the subject in class AFTER my 10-hour work day up until 9:45 meaning I got home around or after 10pm was pure hell. It made me sympathize with the students here who often work full time somewhere else.

Taking and passing my test, studying instead of going to spend time with my family at Christmas was actually the best decision I could've made. I have to do this. I need to talk to my mother and help her see how this is important to me. She should show me support then. I know my father-in-heaven will help me with this. I know I need to talk nicely with my mother. I've been ignoring her phone calls.