Urban Poly Princess

We always have this and we have always been blessed with this. I was looking at Steve's profile last night and I saw his pictures from an African volunteer trip he took. That is great that he did that. I have mixed emotions about those trips in general and how they really help a country or hurt it and who it is done for in the first place. The countless celebrity trips and publicity surrounding that is controversial. What did stick out to me however is how prepared he is to lead the church and how he will be an effective tool worldwide. I like that he has traveled internationally on his own.

I knew when I was 14 and got my patriarchal blessing I would marry someone who would devote his life to the church and be its representative to the world. When I got to know annoying it was clear he thought he is going to fill that role. He tries hard and has lived his life well for the most part. How he treated me however is inexcusable. His utter lack of respect he exhibited was a choice he consciously made. He is STILL acting like this. Heavenly Father and his gospel are all about free agency. Until and unless he learns to deal with people better he will never become what he could. I think it is too late for him and I don't believe he will ever reach the potential he once had. He doesn't rely on his father in heaven as much as he needs. Instead he seeks counsel from inappropriate people with their own agendas.

Steve by contrast has the image of the Savior in his countenance. He treats all people well. He will be a great leader in the church with or without me. That doesn't mean we are meant to be together or anything like that. He just impressed me when I saw those pictures.

This is my day of interviews first one with BYU-Testing center at 9am and then the City Library at 5:45pm. I need to get ready now.