Urban Poly Princess

Church was alright, nothing spectacular although I did meet my home teacher. He is very nice. He looks very old despite that. He invited me to dinners he attends with other members of the ward and other people in the area. I told him I'll go next week. He told me the girl he's dating is in Monument Park 11th ward and they have get-togethers there every week. He named other people who attend but I don't know any of them.

I saw Steve but I didn't say anything to him. Actually I avoided him. He is righteous so I don't know what the hell is my problem. I feel like if I date him we'll end up getting married and I don't want to marry him. He is amazing so again I don't know what's wrong with me. I do want to get married. I just thought I'd have this huge push towards him but instead there's nothing there but I don't get why because he is what I want at every important level. Stupor of thought? Maybe.

I am just going to try to get my job and begin this real estate thing. I miss Zumba so much. I didn't miss a day there since I moved here UNTIL this injury that is - I want this in my life. I want fitness to play a central role and Zumba too. I am a little annoyed that despite my experience AND my 2 master degrees it doesn't seem to matter and I can't get a job. I finalized my chapter 7 bankruptcy so I'm wondering if that had something to do with it. I just wanted to keep it at a 13 but without a job I didn't want that payment arrangement being broken.

Spencer has a girlfriend but I do feel something there. He is in the temple and I really like that too. Yea right, I'm not taking anyone's boyfriend away.