Urban Poly Princess

I was wearing my noisy shoes so I sat at the closest table BUUUT I soon saw that Steve was sitting where I could've sat right by him but I didn't want to have to bother walking around and then I remembered how he has a bunch of girls he's going with to Midway and that ticked me off although I know I don't have any right to be ticked off. I just looked at it and there are at least 4 guys going now so I feel better about that. Anyway that was very stupid because some girl went and sat by him where I SHOULD HAVE MOVED TO SIT NEAR HIM. I guess I deserved that. I wanted to kick her and I don't even know her. She's probably really nice. She certainly doesn't deserve these violent thoughts I was having. I don't really know him well enough to get mad but I thought I finally got over myself and decided to get to know him better AND I have. I'm not shy, I don't know what the hell is my problem. I'm the one who hesitated and I'm the one who had to watch some other girl sit with him. GRRR.

Then we are looking at our relatives and while I'm related to a bunch of people in the ward the one that REALLY hit me was Vaughn Cameron Armstrong who is definitely on the MP19th site. He is my 13th cousin once removed. The removed thing is 1 generation away. I am also bishop's 13th cousin once removed.

It was interesting. If I had just calmed down I would've had fun with Steve and acted like a normal person and not an idiot. He usually goes to sealings so hopefully I'll get the chance to be normal then. Why am I making this so difficult. It's not that big a deal. I don't know him enough to be freaking out over nothing.