Urban Poly Princess

My friend Shem posted something on Facebook about going to Mass and being confused at the empty parking lot until he remembered right, the Superbowl. Why does an RM feel the need to attend Mass. I don't get why someone as intelligent as him can be so stupid. You spend your time doing what you value. Why do people get disenchanted with the church. My librarian friend Joseph is an amazing friend, father and husband. How did he fall away like that?

One thing I really appreciate about meeting my friend Curtis is how he shattered all of my stereotypes of Logan. He's not even from Logan, he's from a surrounding small town. He grew up on a dairy farm. He didn't go to graduate school or college. Despite that he is intelligent, gorgeous and dresses extremely well. He is close to his family and continues to spend time with them. He has a strong testimony of our Savior and he seeks the direction of the scriptures and the spirit. He is responsible too. He owns his own home and is actively trying to find his wife. He is kind to a variety of people.

It used to be so important to me to find someone who finished graduate school. If I found someone like Curtis around here I wouldn't care. He is far from stupid. The only reason why I went out of my way to became his friend is because he looks like he walked out of GQ. I was pleasantly surprised to find out he is also intelligent, responsible AND spiritual.

Mike is brilliant but I have no sense of his spiritual state. I've never seen him at a temple session. Steve is still the best I've met so far despite being shorter than I want him to be and not attending graduate school. I feel like there are many more people I need to meet but I think right now Steve is the only one I should try to get to know better. That moment when we were doing sealings however still haunts me. I really wanted to feel something with him but I felt nothing at all. I should have faith that I will meet someone else that I will feel that with. Does that really matter?

The spirit was sooo strong with annoying and despite my repeated attempts it never worked that didn't make sense and sooo intense against Rich. Do I wait until I get that again? What if it never happens. Can't I just get to know Steve better. Will I feel something if I just keep spending time with him? I felt something for Colton after I spent a lot of time with him. Colton always was wrong for me and I thought it would be fine to spend time with him because I never wanted what he was. I do want what Steve is and I know the things I don't want aren't important. I like that he owns his own home, has a good job, and I love his church activity. I like that he attends FHE and the temple. I enjoy his company too. Can't those feelings be fostered and grow in me? Steve is clearly apostle material. Why do I keep hesitating. Is is just my own personal problem? The only thing I don't like about his way of thinking is he seems to have a very romanticized idea of Polynesians. There is no harm in finding out.

I've missed so much church thanks to this calf strain. So now I've come to this Steve conclusion. Will he even be single now that I think I know what I want?