Urban Poly Princess

Today is fast Sunday and again I didn't prepare like I wanted to do. I am grateful for all my interviews but it is more than time for me to be hired. I hate church only because I have to fend off the sweet ladies who are going to ask me how I'm doing and if I found a job yet. Love it and hate it at the same time. I am doing everything I can so now I have to exercise faith. I have to work as if everything depends on me then pray and have faith as though all depends on my father in heaven because it does. It always does and with him I have hope. I don't know why I lost it so badly last week. I was such a B. I don't feel like I am in the depths of despair like I did. There is no difference. My account is still negative and now I have 25 in cash left. I really hope I don't have to close my account but whatever happens I will deal with it. There are other banks out there even if I really like this one. I am so fortunate I can live at home with my mother. I am grateful for that. I feel like time is running out for me to get to know other people but I also know I am gorgeous and that goes a long way in this world whether it should or not.

I know my strengths and weaknesses and that allows me to work on or exploit these. I am so grateful for repentance so I can become better.