Urban Poly Princess

After going to bed I tried to go to sleep but I kept thinking about what was bugging me for several weeks before and is bothering me AGAIN-and how I prayed about it when I went to the temple and then my epiphany later which was awesome but also told me exactly what I wanted. Can I really trust an answer if it is exactly what I want? It was sooo powerful and I can't deny what I was told BUT then the adversary can appear as an angel of light and deceive even the very elect. I may not have my calling and election made sure but I definitely consider myself one of the very elect. Even as I write this I still have hope that it is real. Still-after I emailed my friend I felt much better and I was finally able to go to sleep. That doesn't give me ANY hope but it is as real as my earlier epiphany and the most recent answer is always what we should adhere to following.
Faith and following the spirit can be very difficult because the spirit is so sensitive and inextricably tied to our emotions. There's always that moment when you have to step into the dark before you are rewarded with the light. I feel like I stepped into the dark but that the light never came. I feel like part of me dies inside every time I'm confronted with what bothers me.
I'm going to just avoid the situation now because I can't handle it. I'm making a conscious effort to strengthen myself spiritually. I'm giving myself a 2-week vacation from what's bothering me. I hope at the end of that I'll be strong enough to just be normal again because right now I'm anything but. I know my Father in Heaven can help me with this and I know I NEED his help right now.