Urban Poly Princess

I feel great because I took my Navajo friends from school to a missionary fireside at the Tabernacle. I fed them dinner too. Lakeesha wanted musubi so I made a bunch and it looked like there wasn't very much so I made some shrimp noodle stir-fry too. Taylor REALLY liked the musubi. He ate several and then he asked for the rest. I kept one. I'm glad he liked them.
It's nice to get to know people better. I'm glad they came over and I had fun with them.
Jonni convinced me to go visiting teaching between sessions AND it's actually a great way for me to boycott the conference weekend parties. Sooo I'll stay in Logan another weekend.
I thought I was doing what I was supposed to do BUT I don't know anymore. I don't want my friend being unhappy BUT I'm not going to sit there and chip away at myself either. I'm going to turn into a bitter B. Why can't this just be clear? I don't like being in limbo. I want to either have a great relationship OR get the L over it. I don't want to hope for something that's never going to happen. I don't want to be some deluded idiot that never moves on. I don't like being stuck on the fence like how I feel now. I just want to be on a side.
Still, there is sooo much for me to be grateful for. It's easy to ignore what I really need to confront and work at because so many things need my attention. I guess I need to think about how I can best progress and what I absolutely need to do to bring this to pass.
I answered myself. I know what needs my attention right now. Enough running away.