Urban Poly Princess

I read everything posted in my online Thesis discussion forum. EVERY step is broken down and the result is a minimum of 30 pages. I REALLY need to take advantage of having the state librarian here next month at the Cache Valley Library Association meeting we're holding at Logan City Library. I can interview her as well as many of the other librarians that'll attend our meeting. I looove how everything's come together with that. I've been compiling a list of public high schools, middle schools, and elementary schools and recording the names of their Media Specialists/Librarians. Public schools in Utah usually don't hire MLS or MLIS individuals because they are required to pay anyone with a master's degree more. Public school librarians tend to get master's degrees AFTER employed as media specialists/librarians. I plan to invite as many as possible in person because I really believe that makes a huge difference and I'm confident it led to the great numbers we had at our initial meetings. Another thing about Directors and/or librarians in the smaller towns outside of Logan is they may not hold master's degrees either.
The Newton library for example is entirely funded through donations and has absolutely no city support. Individuals in the smaller libraries and towns sometimes work because they really believe it helps their community. I did an internship at the Herald Journal when I first moved to Logan, I remember talking to the features editor Lance Frazier about the vote for a county-wide system. He said he was for it although it didn't affect him if it didn't pass because he lived in Logan. I told him actually it DID affect him. Access to more materials through a public library certainly affects EVERYONE in a community. Libraries provide access to individuals who NEED these services.
I see a huge need for Spanish services and outreach here. With all the Spanish-speaking students I know at Stevens-Henager College I know I can do something there.
Tonight fhe featured the missionaries of our ward. There was one Elder from Provo and another from Micronesia. They talked about testimonies and asked us to share how we gained ours. They said it was hard to get a testimony. I wanted to tell them it wasn't hard for me and that I've known the truthfulness of the gospel my entire life. That doesn't discount how precious that knowledge is to me. I am grateful and NOOO I'm NOT brainwashed. That doesn't mean choices haven't been difficult or that I haven't had challenges. I can't lie though and say I struggled when I never struggled with that. My parents taught me and I recognized the truth. I don't have a miraculous testimony story although miracles in my life have abounded.
I don't know why I haven't had that struggle. I don't wish it was any other way. I love my life exactly how it has happened. Bishop challenged all of us to learn our standing before the Lord. He implied that we are much greater than we suppose. Our RS sisters were asked to write things that we stuggled with. The list was apalling to me and made me wonder if most of the sisters need professional mental help. I wrote that I need to conquer my financial problems but I feel like I have now although the process to pay my debt off isn't done yet, I feel like I've done everthing in my power to overcome this.
I feel really good about myself-I think instead of telling me how great I am the Lord will tell me to calm down and work on my weaknesses more since I think I'm amazing. I know I have many imperfections but I really do think that. I don't know why I have all that confidence. I know I always have to be careful not to let that turn into pride. I know my divine worth as a child of God and as someone the Savior chose to give the atonement to even though we as a world and a people caused him to weep in the Pearl of Great Price because of our wickedness-he did this even when we are the only world that would crucify the Son of Man. There is something really poignant about that.
I'd like to invite some of the nonmember students that visit me all the time in the library to a missionary fireside Sunday but I need to let the spirit guide me with that. Some of the guys I know have ulterior motives and I got too close to a student once before. I constantly need to assess that and keep professional while still being a good friend and member-missionary. I love missionary work so much. There are very few things I love more.
My novel writing's definitely in full force tonight.