Urban Poly Princess

Yesterday I fell asleep around 7pm but then I was wide awake at 3am. Sooo I played on Facebook and then went to sleep again and had to rush getting ready this morning. I didn't want to do this because it's ward temple night and it is going to be a looooong day for me since we're doing sealings for some of bishop's family history names.
I found out the caucus time and place for where I live yesterday. A Cache Valley Republican caucus should be interesting. I'm sooo NOT a Democrat but being here sometimes makes we want to be one. During Sunday school we were discussing secret combinations and someone that talks ALL the time shared how she and her dad discussed how some Native American tribes are extinct and how that could be because they were Gadianton robbers originally. I was sooo annoyed and ready to shoot her down BUT luckily I actually thought about what type of spirit that would bring which would be worse than her stupidity. My Navajo friend Brandon also happened to be in class when she talked about that. Secret combinations can be attributed to MANY organizations.
When I first started working here in Logan our Computer Science Dean who has his office on the second floor with me told me he could never vote for Obama because he refused to salute the flag or something during the pledge of allegiance. I thought SERIOUSLY???!!! What about issues? Their political philosophy? The role they think government should play???!!!
My other friend at work told several inappropriate jokes about Obama right before staff meeting calling him Osama and other stuff. I DID NOT vote for Obama although I like that he's black and from Hawaii. It was John Stewart in reverse. Obama's state of the union address didn't even make the front page of the local paper The Herald Journal.
I bought Bush's biography Decision Points for our library BUT I also bought Obama's The Audacity of Hope. I'm ONLY going to this caucus tomorrow BECAUSE the first presidency said to go AND the bishop AND stake president spoke about the high price that was paid for the freedom we enjoy. I'm sure people there will be surprised that someone who isn't white is attending.
I seriously need to work on my attitude. Why do I ALWAYS have to work on this??? Why am I at this point??? I'm not sure how to renew the freshness and optimism everywhere. I know I'm jaded BUT I don't like that because when you are too jaded your attitude becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. I want optimism, I don't want to be naive either though. I have a lot of preconceived notions I need to lose. I haven't been to ANY type of political gathering in a looong time. I know part of the reason why we are counseled to write in our journals is because it helps us focus our thoughts and identify areas we can improve. How do I change this?
I'm going to just focus on doing the stuff I know I should like more meaningful prayers, reading the latest conference issue talks and scriptures. All of that increases hope which is adverse to pessimism. It's all I can think about doing to overcome this now.