Urban Poly Princess

I watched part of the funeral streaming live and I enjoyed looking at all the pictures posted. I was struck with how beautiful it is and how much I love the tradition and culture I was blessed with. I can't help thinking about a bunch of other things too though-ALL IS NOT ROSY IN THE KINGDOM!!!.
When I lived in Tonga Tupou the IV reigned and for me he is who I think of when I think of the Tongan King. The crown prince was synonymous with scandal. He was a womanizer AND my dad actually saw him with several YOUNG pretty Tongan girls once on a flight to Hawaii from Tonga. His exploits were many as were his victims. I have a few gay Tongan friends however who ALL maintain his later preference for men. It doesn't help that he never married or enjoyed flamboyant clothes and all the foreign trappings his position gave him.
People keep praising him for moving Tonga toward democracy but I think the riots including fires destroying several key buildings downtown were more responsible for that. His coronation had to be postponed because of the political upheaval. Despite that he STILL spent 1.2 million on his coronation-something the impoverished nation can NOT afford. I'm glad everyone wants to remember the best of him BUT I think ignoring the choices he made is silly. I admit to loving all the pageantry-the pomp and circumstance surrounding his funeral is a treat BUT-at what cost does this come? I am glad the new king-his younger brother Tupou the VI cut the mourning period from 3 months to 5 days.
This brother was never expected to reign. He is the youngest son. He is married with 3 children. I think he's been spared many of the weaknesses the late king had simply because he was never treated like one day he would be king. I hope I'm right about him and that he leads Tonga the way it needs to be led. I've never heard of him involved in any questionable schemes. Whatever happens it'll be interesting to watch.
I made myself go to fhe tonight. Avoidance has always been my solution but I know it's not a good one. Good lesson on general conference. I am excited to watch it and I love conference. I heard someone say once that EVERY challenge and question we have is answered in conference and that we can find the solution to ALL our problems there. I would've shared that tonight I just don't know who said it but I know it's true. I love that my friend reads his scriptures in the morning AND right before he sleeps 2. It's because he does these things that I trust the decisions he makes.
So REALLY I don't have any problem with him. OK-the bathroom humor???!!! I think that is a guy thing that I detest. My brother is the same way and Sam and Bro. Kitchens kept trying to go there too. NOT uplifting BUT NOT neutral either although they might beg to differ. I REALLY don't think it is-Player men know somehow NOT to go there BUT they seem to know a lot about being smooth. Unfortunately players are all about style over substance. Can I just have someone with both? Is style AND substance too much to ask?
I've always wanted to be gorgeous AND spiritual, confident AND humble, brilliant AND fun!!!. I don't think we need to sacrifice any of our positive traits. It is why I love Marianne Williamson's quote in A Return to Love-By being fabulous we make manifest the glory of God. We need to let our light shine!!!-I aim to defy that stupid stereotype that is probably just in my head that U have to be homely to be spiritual or an idiot not to intimidate your husband. That good LDS women bake great bread and sit around doing crafts all day.
There are a lot of things I need to complete BUT I don't feel overwhelmed. I feel good about the challenges. Stepping stones NOT stumbling blocks!!! My friend seems to have a lot on his plate. He's doing what he's supposed to do. I know he'll be fine. I know he knows that too.
He asked someone on a date last night. Meeting someone I want to spend time with at all isn't easy for me. I think I get along well with lots of people and really I do BUT as far as wanting more with anyone-that doesn't happen until I get to know them better-of course I have to want to get to know them better in the first place and that doesn't happen too often for me either.
Even when I do like everything, somehow if I get the feeling they're not for me that'll be it. I don't need anything else-and that-is Y I'm still single!!!-My friend is right-all the things pulling me in different directions are NOT equally important. I went to fhe BECAUSE I know this BUT there R other things I can do-First I need to end my cluelessness!!!-I know how to pray, I know how answers come, I know how to feel and recognize the spirit. Why do I keep trying to make things more difficult? I may not have a clue, BUT I've known how to get one for a looong time.