Urban Poly Princess

I didn't rush anywhere since I wore a dress to work I just came home briefly, broke my fast and took a spoonful of spumoni before heading to the temple. There weren't as many ward members as usual AND there were a few faces I've never seen at ward temple night. Usually I ALWAYS see Sarah, Erin, Diantha, Renee, and a few other people. The same guys were there except Aaron Poe and Russ was there too and I've never seen him there before. A couple of David's fans were there-one who I've never seen at ward temple nights and another one. I'm glad he wasn't there because I just would've been annoyed when they stuck to him like glue and left angry or done something stupid like flirt with Russ.
I love the calm I felt there. Margaret Grey was there. I like her a lot more than I thought I would. Her testimony has always been impressive. I was just really upset when she speculated about Gadianton robbers and how an American Indian tribe had died off and that she and her dad discussed how it could possibly be a remnant of the Gadianton robbers. I think that is a really asinine thing to say and is reminiscent of Bruce R. McConkie's statements in Mormon Doctrine about why blacks were denied the priesthood. It had something to do with being a fence-sitter. It also reminds me of my idiot MTC teacher who told the class the "true doctrine" and asked me what tribe I was descended from. When I told him Ephraim he couldn't support his stupid theory with me. He told me MOST Polynesians i.e. BROWN PEOPLE are from Manesseh because uh... Ephraim is the leadership tribe. According to my MTC teacher we were all separated into kingdoms and that the degree of righteousness and how valiant we were is directly related to our skin color. Sooo the whiter U R the more valiant and obedient you were in the pre-existence. Alvin Dyer, another church leader expanded on this false and idiotic view that anyone white will think-yes that has to be true and oh the poor colored people of the world. That narrow-minded thinking leads to excusing poor treatment because-they were less valiant-UH Y R people so stupid. We've had Hitler trying to create the super race and exterminating people born with deformities, handicaps, and just any other race. Get a freakin CLUE!!!
What I love about the late and still great Bruce R. McConkie is that when he was asked about his statements, he simply said he was wrong. It used to be printed in his book his statement that blacks would NEVER receive the priesthood. At the end of my mission I was able to travel with GA and now also Idaho temple Pres. John H. Groberg. He answered a million of my questions with amazing patience. He visited the different zones and I was able to go because I extended my mission a month so I could get him to speak at a special missionary fireside for the Tongan community in Sacramento. At one of the zone conferences an Elder asked him why blacks were denied the priesthood. He said he didn't know and we didn't know why but that it was the way the leadership at the time interpreted the doctrine. Bruce R. McConkie gave the BEST talk EVER and I have yet to see ANYONE speak in such a way that I know immediately that he knows the Savior because he lives his life striving to be as he is-Alright if I remember this I can get over the fact that I really like Margaret Grey.
The chapel in the temple has a player organ and it was playing hymns. She told me how thin the veil was since the spirit was playing the organ. She made me laugh in the temple. We were appropriate everywhere else AND we weren't THAT inappropriate. I think I was supposed to see that side of her so I can hurry up and get over how I feel about her and quit basing my entire opinion on a single statement.
O. K. major tangent there. It never occurred to me to get Elder Ruff kicked out of teaching at the MTC BUT the idea that he was teaching missionaries false doctrine is offensive, despicable AND reprehensible to me. I REALLY look forward to the time when I get to speak at the MTC because my husband gives the main address. I am going to blast the false doctrine to where it belongs. I REALLY hope the spirit lets me do that!!!
All in all I looove the temple because of how I feel when I'm there!!! I have a very good idea of why I had to be sleep-deprived too. I was reading Mosaiah 2:9 I have not commanded you to come up hither to trifle with the words which I shall speak, but that you should hearken unto me, and open your ears that ye may hear, and your hearts that ye may understand, and your minds that the mysteries of God may be unfolded to your view. I know what I do and I need to get over myself and quit "trifling" with that. I'm acting like someone who hasn't been allowed a peek into her future. It is inevitable BUT I need to recount this experience one day so I need to make it one that is beautiful and uplifting. I can't afford even a sliver of pride.