Urban Poly Princess

Today was a looong day. My Basic Skills Sunday School class is alright although I was sitting there in class thinking-Margaret Oak is a therapist so perhaps Sarah asked me to join it because she thinks I'm slow? Everyone else in class seems a little out of it. I can learn something however. Today we talked about tithing. I have ALWAYS paid my tithing. That has NEVER been an issue for me EVER. I did however like Margaret Oaks quote she shared that she got from her former priesthood leader "tithing gets U by BUT fast offering gets U ahead."
I feel like people perceive me as shallow and stupid. It's irritating and annoying. It is why I think Sarah asked me to be in that class. It doesn't matter how many degrees I get or articles I publish-I'm always going to be the stupid Polynesian girl who cares too much about the way she looks. Of course I must be an idiot because I'm pretty.-Oh I almost forgot! I certainly can't be spiritual, or understand the gospel BECAUSE yes I have a shoe fetish and the two don't go together!
Actually the better you look the better you are treated by most of the world. When you do look good strangers will bend over backwards to accommodate you. I don't think this is necessarily right but I have no problem exploiting that and I do as much as possible in different situations. That doesn't mean anyone thinks about what an intelligent person I am when I meet them initially.
That is one of the things I REALLY like about my friend. He is really intelligent and unless you are you will never know how smart I am. He is aware of my multiple strengths. Unfortunately I have also shown him my weaknesses, a lot more than I wanted. I have no doubt he is destined for greatness. He already is great but his potential is off the charts. His biggest strength is his desire to develop his spirituality to the best of his ability. He can be mean, contentious and rude BUT for all of that I've never doubted his desire to be a good person.
He is dedicated and keeps the commandments. What he lacks is what I can sometimes. On my mission it was easy for me to keep the rules and to do my best to cultivate the spirit. The letter of the law in or out of the mish has always been easy for me. What hasn't been easy all the time is loving all people. I can usually love the downtrodden or people who have committed heinous sins. I have a hard time having patience with people I think should know better.
So I'm doing a load of laundry. BUT my towels are drying now so I can go to sleep!