Urban Poly Princess

I just ate some Asian macaroni and it was surprisingly good. I never have been a fan of cho fun but this tasted like it because of the noodles. Usually I use either angel hair pasta for regular pan-fried noodles because it is versatile and I can usually eat it with spaghetti too. I have lots of macaroni and cheese and I didn't want to eat that AGAIN so I just seasoned it Asian style since I always have garlic, onions, soy sauce. This time I used oyster sauce and chili sauce. I've never used chili sauce with my noodles before and they are very good.

It was a great Sunday because I felt the spirit all over the place. I think I was just in the right frame of mind. I really want to be the best version of myself spiritually, physically and professionally. The spirit was buzzing during relief society as we talked about searching for truth in the scriptures. My scripture reading is similar to how I feel about prayer. When I was younger and I always heard about how we need to read our scriptures it had a mystical almost magical type of blessing in my head. I didn't really connect it or think about what reading actually does.

OF COURSE it will bring a spirit into our lives that is palpable. You intentionally focus on reading about the Savior and his dealings with people in a book written by prophets inspired to be used to bring the world to Christ. HOW CAN YOU NOT BE INFLUENCED???!!! Even without the divine, WHATEVER you read has eternal consequences. That is why it is so important to screen our media and decide if we want to fill it with trash or with quality. Like our physical body needs clean nutrient dense food, our spirit also needs frequent doses of the divine through the scriptures and the words of living prophets. How vital our choices are and how easy to see this. DUH...

Conference talks are prayed about and given mostly by men and women who work to advance the Church of Christ full time. Apostles are called to be special witnesses of Christ to the world. TO THE WORLD. How can anyone take what they say lightly? Why would you want to do that.

Holly sat with me in sacrament meeting and I asked her where that cutie Curtis was because he wasn't in church AGAIN. She didn't know so after Linger Longer which I stayed for because I wanted to fill up on nachos before going home and having to cook something to eat with my limited supply at home right now I asked Keri who is who he dragged to the parking lot to check me out.

She told me he took ice-cream over to her house and she told him she liked him but he told her he didn't want to date her. Keri is gorgeous, THE ONLY gorgeous girl in EITHER Midsingles ward. She is pretty AND dresses well. She is fit too. Not one ounce of fat ANYWHERE. She is divorced however and went through some serious addiction issues. I'm gorgeous too and so is my Asian friend Krista who is leaving the ward this week to get married! There are a few pretty girls too BUT gorgeous NOOO. OF COURSE the gorgeous girl would like the ONLY gorgeous guy. I was asking for myself AND because he brought her to the parking lot to check me out the last time I saw him. OF COURSE she's not going to tell me anything if she's interested. I wouldn't. I like Keri. I think the only thing that would've scared Curtis away is that she's divorced and her past addiction problems. We should never hold anyone's past against them BUUUT because I taught seminary before I know you can't teach seminary and be divorced. There are quite a few divorced people in my ward. Does that mean I am wrong to hold that against them? That is a huge problem for me. I'm alright with that. I also am not interested in considering anyone with children.

Kevin is another new guy in our ward. He looks good enough for me to talk to after a fireside but talking with him once was enough for me to determine he isn't what I want because he used to be in school or plans to return but has no idea what he wants to do. If you are at least 31 and haven't figured that out you can surely get to stepping away from me.

I like that Curtis took over ice-cream to Keri's house without wanting to date her. I like hanging out with someone first and getting to know them and see them in a variety of situations. I think it's my Poly dating history. How do you know you want to date them if you don't spend time with them first? Keri told me she thought that was leading. I think he was trying to get to know her FIRST.

I am very excited I'm moving to Salt Lake City next year. The sheer number of people in those singles wards has to be a good thing. The ward I'd be in meets at a church near the U. I want to get to know Curtis because he's LDS AND because he's beautiful. I already don't like many things about him especially that he seems to want to stay in Cache Valley forever and while I like that he designs  homes very much he also doesn't seem to have any inclination whatsoever to attend school. Of course I know absolutely nothing about him except that he's gorgeous and anything I figured out through his Facebook page which actually tells me nothing about the type of person he is.

I haven't had ANY sign of annoying whatsoever AND I haven't seen his vet friend either which makes me happy because seeing either of them gets on my nerves. They are probably together planning their wedding now. I shouldn't give a damn but I still do BUT I am very happy time is going by quickly and soon I'll AT LEAST get off the damn farm when I live and work in Salt Lake City.

I heard a story about how someone was miraculously saved from death. I had that type of major miracle experience when I didn't die in a car accident in 1999. I thought to myself then well, why the hell am I still here if in order to progress spiritually I need to get married and I haven't found anyone to marry yet. That was 15 years ago and I still wonder. If I'm not going to get married in this life what am I supposed to do? I have my physical body now so what more am I supposed to do in this life. I know I can have a family in the next life and if that's what is my life why did I have to go through the miraculous life-saving thing. I could've been working in the eternities possibly now.

I know that's a morbid thought and life is fun and filled with opportunities I enjoy. I do want a family however. I am grateful to have come to Cache Valley to get an MBA, a real estate license and work in the temple although there are temples everywhere I can work at. If my relationship with annoying was never going anywhere I would've rather not met him at all.I hope I never see him again. My patriarchal blessing tells me I'm going to marry an apostle. Am I destined to marry some old apostle like Dallin Oaks who married his old single wife after losing his first? I don't want to be a second wife. Is that wrong? I'd rather go younger. When I was in high school I liked college men. Now I'm attracted to younger men.

All the "special" spirits in Midsingles wards. I am right there with all of them. I hope I enjoy my Salt Lake City ward when I move there. Thank goodness I am leaving this place in a little over a year. The first week in July 2015 is when I'm excited to leave. I loved church yesterday. I was feeling so filled with the spirit. What the hell is wrong with me today. I seem to have just spiraled down in this negative Nancy way.