Urban Poly Princess

My sweet relief society president Cara took me to lunch for my birthday next week. She is such a sweetheart and I love Indian food.

Last night we had a regional smores midsingle activity. I drove there but I kept thinking of how much I hated wearing my tennis shoes to attend a smores activity in some outdoor location. I want to meet more guys but if I hate the activity I shouldn't have to force myself. It feels like when I lived in Logan and I'd force myself to try to have fun eventually I did find some degree of joy but it was something I had to keep on working on. I started walking there and I noticed how far it was away and it was dark and the location was ridiculous. I didn't finish walking there.

Instead I went home and thought about how I just wasted money driving to Holladay. The temple was perfect today.

Cara wanted to know if I was feeling anyone in the ward. I told her I liked Spencer's qualities but I'm missing that attraction spark. I probably do like him since I think about him. I just want that spark is that too much to ask?