Urban Poly Princess

It occurred to me yesterday that I was waiting to get a job before working at the temple. I don't want to try to get to know anyone better either but that is stupid when it is supposed to be the most important thing in my life. I feel like I've been psychotic for a little over a year. There is no way in hell I will consider anyone unemployed but I expect them to consider me but since I don't intend to be the breadwinner anyway it shouldn't matter as much. I want to freeze my eggs now. I wonder how much that costs. I wonder how the church feels about surrogate motherhood. All these things freak me out. I want to try myself but I wonder if getting a surrogate who is younger and healthier wouldn't be better. Actually I need to be at my healthiest so I am best prepared for that. While there are many things I can't do, there are many things I can.