Urban Poly Princess

Until I get a job I feel good about at the very least in my field or making the money I should be making right now, I don't feel good getting to know anyone better. How am I struggling so much now. I've felt like crying for almost a year. How is that healthy? Until basic needs are meet how can progression occur. Even my physical goals have been derailed again and again. How and when do I attend activities to meet new people. I just need one spiritual rock who I can stand physically. Spencer or someone like him would be fine. He reminds me of Sean Reyes who is extremely charismatic and attractive if you hear them speak. They are both capable leaders. Something I also really like very much. How can my social life be my priority when simply paying for my basic necessities is difficult.