Urban Poly Princess

I read my scriptures yesterday. It's my first small step to conquer this funk I'm in. I read again this morning too. It's not difficult especially with all the apps out there. I finished season 4 of Game of Thrones last night. I'm still not sure what I think about it. It reminds me of Lord of the Rings only not as good. The battle scenes never seem to end. It reminds me of most of Ether filled with battles and persistent power plays. Extremely stratified societies will always be a problem. Cara sent me a message telling me the Salt Lake school district is hiring for a number of things. I just don't want to try anymore and certainly not where my niece Nakita is the director of continuing education. My last job felt like same huge slap in the face, it didn't matter how long or how hard I had been actively searching for a job, getting fired on the third day was a reminder that effort didn't matter one bit.

My mother told me she saw on the news that there are over a hundred jobs that can't be filled in aerospace engineering. She said it was too bad I didn't major in that. While I love math I love people more. I want to be a working librarian but other than that I need to work in training and or real estate asap. I want that librarian job at East Millcreek  but I also know it's anyone's position. I am taking my break now from all of this but I don't feel good unless I'm actively progressing spiritually physically and professionally and I know i can progress professionally with or without a job

I am going to continue to actively pray and fast about this. I am such a defeatist and I know I'm not doing myself any favors.