Urban Poly Princess

Sooo I was able to do what I needed without anyone's help BUT it made me think of what I really want AND I think I've done everything I'm supposed to do-I know what I want and I know what I'm worth AND these little cultural things that keep jolting me ARE REALLY important to me. It would NOT have taken my friend very much to help me AND he still didn't. I'm done and I don't care if I never sleep again right now. If this is supposed to happen it's going to take a miracle and I'm sooo done waiting for it to MAYBE manifest itself. My blessings are my blessings and I'm sure there are other men out there that have lived their lives the way they should-MAYBE it'll just be in the next life. I'm not making this ugly because I don't hate him-actually I love him but I don't want to and I can get over this which is what's happening now.