Urban Poly Princess

Today I went to church without much incident and without talking to anyone really. We have our Christmas choir party on the 14th. We are also supposed to perform the same day. That is the same day Nata is giving her last testimony so I'm going to miss it. That kind of upsets me. I wanted to attend. Our choir director is so good. I am grateful for everything I've been able to learn from her.

Alma 63
2 And he was a just man, and he did walk uprightly before God; and he did observe to do good continually, to keep the commandments of the Lord his God; and also did his brother.
5 And it came to pass that Hagoth, he being an exceedinglycurious man, therefore he went forth and built him an exceedingly large ship, on the borders of the land Bountiful, by the land Desolation, and launched it forth into the west sea, by the narrowneck which led into the land northward.

Some prophet said the Polynesian people are descendents of Hagoth. 

I'm going to see David Archuleta at a Christmas concert thanks to my cousin Liane who wanted to go and Noe and Brent my other cousin who lives near Liane who usually goes with her and her family went to Vegas for Thanksgiving. I don't like spending $25 for my ticket but it is worth it and I spend more on things that aren't worth it. She'll come over after work and get ready here. She works at the post office right here in Rose Park.

I haven't really had any extended family time lately since Nata is preparing for her mission. I'm so excited for her.

Alma 62
11 And thus ended the thirtieth year of the reign of the judges over the people of Nephi; Moroni and Pahoran having restored peace to the land of Zarahemla, among their own people, havinginflicted death upon all those who were not true to the cause of freedom.
 29 Therefore, all the prisoners of the Lamanites did join the people of Ammon, and did begin to labor exceedingly, tilling the ground, raising all manner of grain, and flocks and herds of every kind; and thus were the Nephites relieved from a great burden; yea, insomuch that they were relieved from all the prisoners of the Lamanites.

I am thinking a lot about Nata and how she needs to prepare to enter the temple. 

2 I, Pahoran, who am the chief governor of this land, do send these words unto Moroni, the chief captain over the army. Behold, I say unto you, Moroni, that I do not joy in your great afflictions, yea, it grieves my soul.

3 But behold, there are those who do joy in your afflictions, yea, insomuch that they have risen up in rebellion against me, and also those of my people who are freemen, yea, and those who have risen up are exceedingly numerous.



 8 They have got possession of the land, or the city, of Zarahemla; they have appointed a king over them, and he hath written unto the king of the Lamanites, in the which he hath joined an alliance with him; in the which alliance he hath agreed to maintain the city of Zarahemla, which maintenance he supposeth will enable the Lamanites to conquer the remainder of the land, and he shall be placed king over this people when they shall be conquered underthe Lamanites.
19 And now, Moroni, I do joy in receiving your epistle, for I was somewhat worried concerning what we should do, whether it should be just in us to go against our brethren.

This could have gone sooo wrong. Pahoran  could have responded badly. I know I would want to ask Moroni where he got off condemning me when I was subject to civil war in the homeland. They neglected Moroni not because they were lazy or unfeeling. They were driven from their own homes. They had to worry about just surviving themselves. 
I'm glad this record was preserved. Even prophets of God can misunderstand, YES even WITH the spirit guiding them. 

I looove my nieces and nephews. They are so much fun. Mom and I went to the Lindon Walmart on the way home so I could pick up a waffle maker for 9-something and she wanted shoes she saw advertised there for the same price. The line was unbelievable just to check out. I will NEVER do that again!!! Not anytime soon anyway. I am fine to buy stuff online at deep discounts. ALSO I would've rather paid full price than go through that. We had to park at Wells Fargo bank. 

My Chinese friend Mike from the ward posted his non-traditional no-turkey meal last night. I want to take food to him but I don't feel like I know him well enough and I don't want him to get the wrong idea. I do like him and I wouldn't mind dating him as far as I know right now BUUUT I don't know him well enough for him to stick out more than any of the other guys in our ward. If he was a girl it would be easy to share Thanksgiving goodies with him. 

We are going to see Nata a lot soon. She is going through the temple in the next week or two and I might have to be her escort. Her farewell testimony is on December 14th too. I love her so much and I'm so excited for her. 

I want to fast with her the day she goes. The symbolism in the temple is so heavy. She has to focus on how she feels because everything will be strange to her if she doesn't have the spirit with her. I want her to have the amazing glorious feeling she can experience nowhere else. It would be such a treat to be her escort.

It was sooo nice to be back at EMZ. My left eye is still a little pink so I'm just waiting a little longer before I put my contacts on again. I wanted to take pictures but I'm not taking any like this and I'm staying clear of makeup too. I used some old liquid eyeliner since I ran out of eyeliner. I am thinking that was the culprit and I am throwing that bacteria trap away.

I need to make my soup but my mother is in the kitchen making pies now. I'm taking a spinach salad to George's house. I am making my pumpkin soup since it was very yummy and I got so many compliments on it when I took it to my ward pumpkin potluck. Steve wrote on his Facebook page he plans to graduate to a Tesla about his Subaru. I hope he was serious. I sooo approve of this Tesla-driving ward. Mike's Tesla is electric and he gets 250 miles when it's fully charged. Steve also told me some Tongan family rented his house from him. The Fakatou family. While I know some Fakatous, I didn't know these. I love my house-owning mostly professional men ward. They are the lovely MAJORITY, so there are a lot to consider!!! This is sooo how it should B. Now if they were only as fine as Curtis!!! Determining their spiritual caliber takes a little more. Steve already checks that box. Taller, taller, taller - how do I get over that. I'm only 5 "4, he's probably taller than me but I love wearing stilettos.

Marriage is my first priority ALTHOUGH in the meantime I want to have a killer job LIKE THAT ASSISTANT STATE DIRECTOR OF PROGRAMMING FOR THE STATE LIBRARY, along with real estate, flip homes with my brother successfully, drive a silver Mercedes SUV, and own and live in my Westgate in downtown Salt Lake City plus a couple of bugalows that I use as income-generating properties that end up paying for all my expenses and begin saving for when I am married so I can stay home with my children. While I want to live in my loft and I plan to own it forever I don't want to raise my children in a loft downtown.

Either the Avenues, Federal Heights, Draper or South Jordan or even Cottonwood Heights. I'd like to do all this stuff before I'm married. But I'm fine with doing it WHILE I am. I also must marry someone ready to serve as a mission president WHILE my children are young. I DON'T want to give birth on that mission but I do want to raise my kids in a mission home so they can be around that spirit ANYWHERE in the world. Foreign I think is better for my kids to develop an appreciation for the life they have. I want them to realize what is really important and what is not. Money is important to me only as it allows me to spend more time with my family and to serve God and build his kingdom best.

Alma 60
13 For the Lord suffereth the righteous to be slain that his justice and judgment may come upon the wicked; therefore ye need not suppose that the righteous are lost because they are slain; but behold, they do enter into the rest of the Lord their God.
26 And this because of their exceeding faith, and their patience in their tribulations—
 36 Behold, I am Moroni, your chief captain. I seek not for power, but to pull it down. I seek not for honor of the world, but for the glory of my God, and the freedom and welfare of my country. And thus I close mine epistle.
This was a scathing but beautiful epistle. It is received with so much humility and understanding. It is to their credit they resolved this so well.

The state emailed me to advise me to apply for the assistant Director to the Program Manager. It is posted with more pay than the last position had although I am sure the Program Manager Director is paid A LOT more. This one starts at 69,000 which I would be more than fine with making. I can apply now and prepare better for my interview since it doesn't close until December 16th. I would LOOOVE this.

I need to get out of here now and hit up the store.

This is the first time I missed and I haaate that BUUUT yesterday my same or left eye was a little pink although it cleared up later. I just didn't want an eye infection now because I don't have insurance right now and I just don't want to pay the big fee it'll probably be. I'm just wearing my glasses today and maybe for the weekend depending on how it feels. It is white again but it feels a little different from my right eye.

My body wishes I went to Zumba BUT I just can't afford to pay any eye doctor fees.

I also feel like I have a tiny cold.

Alma 59
11 And now, when Moroni saw that the city of Nephihah was losthe was exceedingly sorrowful, and began to doubt, because of the wickedness of the people, whether they should not fall into the hands of their brethren.
12 Now this was the case with all his chief captains. They doubted and marveled also because of the wickedness of the people, and this because of the success of the Lamanites over them.
13 And it came to pass that Moroni was angry with the government, because of their indifference concerning the freedom of their country.

I love that Moroni was subject to feeling angry over something he finds out isn't what he first thought. This is the same Moroni that it was said if all men were like him the very gates of hell would be shaken at his presence.

Yes, Lord I Will Follow Thee - Eduardo Gavarrett
“It sounded so much like the right one,” I said to myself.
May we make the decision today to increase our level of worship and commitment to God, and may our response to His invitation be heard loud and clear: “Yes, Lord, I will follow Thee!”

I am being lazy now and watching the Voice that I ididn't watch last night. I still need to hit up the store with my mom for stuff we need to cook for tomorrow. Tonight my friend from Tonga Sinia has her cousin Lisa visiting from Hawaii. She is taking us to Chuck O Rama tonight at 7pm. This is why I will never go to Chuck O Rama, Golden Corral or Chinese Buffet, I will always get some invitation there several times a year from my Tongan friends and family.

I love the holidays!!!

9 And now the cause of these our embarrassments, or the cause why they did not send more strength unto us, we knew not; therefore we were grieved and also filled with fear, lest by any means the judgments of God should come upon our land, to our overthrow and utter destruction.
They didn't know why their lives sucked and they wondered if they were spiritually sound. I can REALLY relate to this because life just sucks without a job right now although for not having one yet life is pretty great.
10 Therefore we did pour out our souls in prayer to God, that he would strengthen us and deliver us out of the hands of our enemies, yea, and also give us strength that we might retain our cities, and our lands, and our possessions, for the support of our people.
11 Yea, and it came to pass that the Lord our God did visit us with assurances that he would deliver us; yea, insomuch that he did speak peace to our souls, and did grant unto us great faith, and did cause us that we should hope for our deliverance in him.
34 Now we do not know the cause that the government does not grant us more strength; neither do those men who came up unto us know why we have not received greater strength.
35 Behold, we do not know but what ye are unsuccessful, and ye have drawn away the forces into that quarter of the land; if so, we do not desire to murmur.

Parents: The Prime Gospel Teachers of Their Children - Tad R. Callister
Unbeknown to me, my mother was standing in the doorway. When I finished, she said, “Tad, are you asking the Lord to help you find a good wife?”
Which parent in Book of Mormon times would have let their sons march out to the front of battle without a breastplate and shield and sword to protect them against the potentially mortal blows of the enemy? But how many of us let our children march out the front door each morning to the most dangerous of all battlefields, to face Satan and his myriad of temptations, without their spiritual breastplate and shield and sword that come from the protective power of prayer?
We might all ask ourselves: do our children receive our best spiritual, intellectual, and creative efforts, or do they receive our leftover time and talents, after we have given our all to our Church calling or professional pursuits?
May we in our divine role as parents, and in partnership with God, become the prime gospel teachers and examples for our children

I drove EARLY to Logan for my orthodontist appointment to take out the attachments and to get my retainer made. I went to see Interstellar since one of my Facebook friends posted it was one of the best movies IN HIS LIFE he had seen. I could've been expecting too much. It was good but not the incredible I was expecting. I am very pleased with my invisalign results. This was the best choice for me. I need to wear my retainer all the time except when I'm eating for the next month. My next appointment is in January when the next step will be when I can just wear my retainer at night. I can't wait. 

I locked my keys in my car and had to call a locksmith which pushed my appointment so it was later and I finished later which meant I drove home LATER!!! Tomorrow is cooking day for Thanksgiving. George called us and told us to be there at noon.

I love his kids so much and I can't wait to see them. I love the babies and am excited to see them the most. 

Mike Wong is really nice. He had the entire ward over for FHE and there was a very good turn out. I played JUST DANCE with a bunch of our ward members. I love that game, probably because I love dancing which is why I love Zumba too. He has a killer sound system and an amazing theater system. There is a sweet girl Anne pronounced Annie who I saw again. While I like her very much she began to display Clingon characteristics. What the heo???!!! Why does this always happen to me?

I talked to Bryce when I first got there. Steve came and sat by me and talked to me for a minute. When he introduced himself he said he was from some small town in Northern California. When I told him I served in Sacramento he seemed shocked and unsure of offending me by clarifying I was in fact talking about a mission. VERY ANNOYING!!! and he made me want to slap him. It was like he couldn't believe I served a mission. He doesn't even know me. There was this girl that interrupted our conversation and then he soon left after which she did too. She probably likes him and I think he is trying to keep his distance.

This new girl Claudio asked me to talk to Brad and Amy who were sitting by themselves without engaging in conversation. I'm glad she told me that so I went and had a nice conversation with them before Anne came and interrupted our conversation then engaged just me and finally asked me if I wanted to go downstairs with her. I did and it was nice to spend time with her until she mentioned we should hang out sometime... uh NOOO!!! I am going to hang out with guys because that is my priority and I already have more women friends than I want anyway. I don't have time for that.

Tomorrow I am driving to Logan. I haaate that damn drive. I hope it doesn't snow. Fine, it is probably everywhere, that doesn't mean it has to snow when I'm there.

19 But behold, my little band of two thousand and sixty fought most desperately; yea, they were firm before the Lamanites, and did administer death unto all those who opposed them.
26... And we do justly ascribe it to the miraculous power of God, because of their exceeding faith in that which they had been taught to believe—that there was a just God, and whosoever did not doubt, that they should be preserved by his marvelous power.
27 Now this was the faith of these of whom I have spoken; they are young, and their minds are firm, and they do put their trust in God continually.
35 And behold, we are again delivered out of the hands of our enemies. And blessed is the name of our God; for behold, it is he that has delivered us; yea, that has done this great thing for us

Come and See - David A. Bednar
Devoted disciples of Jesus Christ always have been and always will be valiant missionaries.
Our invitations to you are not an attempt to diminish your religious tradition or life experience. Bring all that you know is true, good, and praiseworthy—and test our message. Just as Jesus beckoned two of His disciples to “come and see” (John 1:39), so we urge you to come and see if the restored gospel of Jesus Christ enlarges and enriches that which you already believe to be true.
Rather, our desire to share the restored gospel of Jesus Christ with you is a reflection of how important these truths are to us.
His desire to share was the natural consequence of a most helpful and beneficial personal experience.
Absolute truth exists in a world that increasingly disdains and dismisses absolutes. In a future day, “every knee [shall] bow” and “every tongue [shall] confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father” 

Tonight is ice-cream at Mike's FHE. They don't have FHE groups in this ward. All FHEs are combined. 

The food was amaaazing. My ward party not so much. I had fun at my ward gathering but the Menace group knows how to cook well. I talked to Shem a little and the girls who were sitting at my table with me. I took a plate of food home too so I have breakfast for tomorrow. This Mexican lady I met told me I just look white instead of Polynesian/Chinese.

It was fun talking to her ALTHOUGH I definitely don't look white. I have an early orthodontist appointment in Logan Tuesday. They are FINALLY taking off the attachments AND making my retainer but I have to pick it up the same afternoon sooo I get to waste time on Tuesday. Maybe I'll go see a movie for $5 Tuesday. I didn't think about that, it's perfect!!!

I was wondering what I would do. Now I have a plan to take up time!!!

While I enjoyed meeting Mike last night I didn't see him at church and actually I only see him at activities and not including FHE. I wonder if that's why someone planned FHE at his house. I couldn't find any trace of his mission meaning maybe he probably hasn't served one. Today at church I decided to observe the men who stand out for the right or spiritual reasons.

Steve is still a good albeit short guy who has the spirit with him. Jason is very nice too. I noticed he and Steve pass the sacrament as does this other guy Bryce who was in Julie's dinner group. He is an engineer for some company. At dinner and then again last night Jason impressed me because he makes an effort to make everyone feel good and include everyone in a conversation. I like that quality very much. He is thoughtful and he is quiet and unassuming. He does something in finance. He impresses me the most. Bryce knows his scriptures very well. His comments in Sunday School are always thoughtful.

So as far as great men are concerned I will rank Jason first followed by Steve and then Bryce. Jason doesn't dress well. Steve has everything, he's just short. Curtis is STILL the finest Mid Single boy I've ever seen and while he doesn't drive a Tesla he has a great job he enjoys AND is on his second house he's owned. Most of the men I met last night

Brett Wilson is the other Software Engineer. I never see him at church either. Jeff our executive clerk, he and the other Mike I met last night climb mountains and have all these climbing pictures on their Facebook pages.

I was talking to my sweet visiting teacher right after church and she broke down crying. She is the one job-hunting too. She like me is equally frustrated too but she also received an email from an old boyfriend who is a high councilman. Despite that he emailed her and told her his wife has ovarian cancer. She asked him why he didn't marry her. He is such an asshole for playing with her emotions like this and I don't think he should contact her at all even if his wife does have cancer. I asked her how she felt and she said she felt really good and that she will marry him if his wife dies.

Wow! I just kept giving her a hug and I tried to make her feel better. Sometimes the spirit will tell us things that don't make sense. She is really the only one who can decipher that but I don't think the spirit would tell some man to email his ex-girlfriend while his wife is still alive. Sure I get it, he probably needs the company now more than ever before and it is easy to seek comfort with someone you know.

Mike has a lot I can relate to as far as his Chinese heritage is concerned. We are both foodies. Shem and I would have a blast together because he is as outgoing as I am and we both appreciate authors and discussing books and I'm sure films too from the little we did together. Neither is gorgeous like Curtis. BUUUT both don't have the testimonies that are the most important to me. I like Jason's humility, kindness AND diligence.

Alma 56
46 For as I had ever called them my sons (for they were all of them very young) even so they said unto me: Father, behold our God is with us, and he will not suffer that we should fall; then let us go forth; we would not slay our brethren if they would let us alone; therefore let us go, lest they should overpower the army of Antipus.
56 But behold, to my great joy, there had not one soul of them fallen to the earth; yea, and they had fought as if with the strengthof God; yea, never were men known to have fought with such miraculous strength; and with such mighty power did they fall upon the Lamanites, that they did frighten them; and for this cause did the Lamanites deliver themselves up as prisoners of war.

I kept thinking it started at 7pm but I received a text saying it was at 5:30 when I was half asleep. I sat by some nice people. Beverly, Rose, Jeff, Mike who bought a house in West Valley then moved to our ward, Mike Wong, Jason from my dinner group, another guy I'm going to look up in our directory. Everyone in my ward is friendly, easy to meet and talk to AND pretty normal which is VERY nice. There were too many weird people in my Logan ward. I had to be extremely careful who I spoke to there because they'd assume I was interested in them or other stupid jump-to-conclusions things.

Dinner was alright, nothing special. Mike Wong is Chinese, raised in Salt Lake City, went to Highland High School and works as a software engineer. He told me his mother is in a nursing home and that she had a stroke last year. He told me she is in her eighties. I told him my mother is 70. I just added him on Facebook. He has pictures of his very pretty red Tesla. Uh huh, that's a car over 100,000. Everyone at my table was really nice.

The other Mike grew up in Midvale. I wish I remembered the other software engineer guy's name. I'm going to look through our ward directory. Jeff is one of our clerks. He is an attorney. On his profile he just writes that he is gainfully employed. I hated having to tell all of them I'm an unemployed librarian but they didn't really seem to care. How refreshing nice men who own their own homes AND are gainfully employed. I wouldn't have to support anyone sitting at my table. I looove that.

Tomorrow is the Menace Thanksgiving dinner. I am REALLY glad I decided to attend my Midsingles ward here.

Living in Logan and attending a regular Midsingles ward made me think Logan was filled with hiking enthusiasts BUUUT really they are all over the place and characteristic of any white LDS singles I encounter, I just wasn't into it here and the Poly world really isn't either. Almost all of my ward Facebook friends have the same type of pictures the ones in Logan did. Lots of mountain shots or just hiking in the mountains.

NOOO I'm not adopting hiking!!!

Nothing really stood out to me in this chapter. This is when they get the Lamanite guards drunk who fall asleep while they arm the prisoners and surround them.

The Book - Allan F. Packer
I hadn’t taken the cover off the hatchet. I can report, however, the cover was chopped to shreds. The lesson: I became distracted with other things.
Qualifying for exaltation is like entering another country. We must each obtain our spiritual passport. We do not set the requirements, but, individually, we must meet all of them. The plan of salvation contains all of the doctrines, laws, commandments, and ordinances needed for all to qualify for exaltation.² Then, “through the Atonement of [Jesus] Christ, all mankind may be saved.”³ The Church helps but cannot do it for us. Qualifying for exaltation becomes a quest of a lifetime.
“The ultimate end of all activity in the Church is that a man and his wife and their children can be happy at home.”
“Our success, individually and as a Church, will largely be determined by how faithfully we focus on living the gospel in the home.”¹² Temple and family history work is part of living the gospel at home. It should be a family activity far more than a Church activity.
There has been a renewed emphasis on family history and temple work from the First Presidency and the Quorum of the Twelve.¹³ Your response to this emphasis will increase your individual and family joy and happiness.
owever, there is one obstacle the Church cannot remove. It is an individual’s hesitation to do the work. All it requires is a decision and a little effort. It does not require a large block of time. Just a little time on a consistent basis will yield the joy of the work. Make the decision to take a step, to learn and ask others to help you. They will! The names you find and take to the temple will become the records for “the book.
Even with the dramatic increase in member participation, we find that relatively few members of the Church are regularly involved in finding and doing temple ordinances for their family.¹⁸ This calls for a change in our priorities. Don’t fight the change, embrace it! Change is part of the great plan of happiness.
With few exceptions, everyone—everyone—can do this!

Sobering reminder. When I was an ordinance worker of course spending time in the temple was much easier. It certainly isn't now. It should be. It's not like I'm doing anything taxing. Although I'm working out consistently, at least M-F, I still have bouts of fatigue. I know it is because of my diet but I'm also working on that. What is going on? 

Today just sucked because I partly wanted it to suck as in I AM SOOO SICK OF LOOKING FOR A JOB. I tried to call Bassett furniture TWICE to followup on that Design Consultant position so I can actually plan for my real estate venture. I am just going to work in real estate now. I am definitely NOT waiting for any more librarian positions to work out because I could be waiting forever. I know what I need to do. Find a part time job doing something, ANYTHING, work real estate like I planned and still manage to volunteer in public libraries until I can actually get a job there. Many successful businesses were started because people couldn't get hired.

I haven't been praying like I should. My resume is updated sufficiently. I need to rehearse all my answers to interview questions I could receive. I thought about applying for school librarian positions I don't want but I'm not going to do that again. I need to pray about a suitable part time job so I can work the real estate world like I want to do. The design consultant job is perfect AND I did call them twice without anyone even picking up the telephone.

My mother wanted me to apply for libraries in Hawaii. OH HELL NOOO!!! I didn't get this real estate license for nothing and I need to be strong about what I want to do. Perhaps I need to be willing to work a crappy part time job. I've been really choosy about that in my head. I have to spend my money wisely too. I am grateful to be receiving unemployment. I can continue to do that, apply for my mandatory jobs AND work in real estate for a gradual transition. I just haven't tried that yet.

I've been so frustrated and irritable today. I really am blessed to have a place to live that allows me to pay the few bills I have. I am not doing everything in my power if I'm not working the real estate angle. I have to save my money I do receive and pay all those fees.

The position became available AGAIN so... I applied AGAIN. As I logged-in AGAIN to my profile I answered the initial questions which consisted of saying I was alright with the crappy pay of ten-something an hour and that I would be alright to work ANY shift. DESPITE this a message appeared saying the way I answered the questions meant I wasn't eligible to be considered for the position. REALLY!!!??? WHAT THE HEO!!! and YES I started crying. I haaate this damn job-hunting. I can't seem to get a job to save my life.

It's like having my MBA too is NOT an asset or people don't even want to consider me. I still need a damn job!!! I need to pay my bills. I don't have many thanks to living with my mother right now BUUUT this is ridiculous.

23 I am Ammoron, and a descendant of Zoram, whom your fathers pressed and brought out of Jerusalem.
24 And behold now, I am a bold Lamanite; behold, this war hath been waged to avenge their wrongs, and to maintain and to obtain their rights to the government; and I close my epistle to Moroni.
The notion that rule is something gained at birth is still alive and well in Tonga. Here it is birth order that is emphasized. Laman and Lemuel should take the leadership positions because they were older than Nephi. We still practice it to some degree here in the good old U. S. of A. 

Our Personal Ministries - Hugo E. Martinez
Like Brother Udine Falabella, father of Elder Enrique R. Falabella, used to say, “He who serves in some thing is good for something; he who serves in no thing is good for nothing.” 
As Sister Linda K. Burton, Relief Society general president, said, “First observe, then serve.”
We have the special opportunity to be instruments in His hands. We can be so in our marriages, in our families, with our friends, and with our fellowman. That is our personal ministry as true disciples of Jesus Christ.
And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.

Looove my EMZ!!! The lady who started it all Sinai just started working at Jet Blue. She shared with us that she failed her test yesterday. She said it reminded her of a time when she first started teaching Zumba and they let her go after 3 months thinking she wouldn't be able to attract enough people for a full class. 

She has helped so many people. She said that made her want to do even better and try harder to improve as an instructor. I and many other people are grateful she never gave up.

Following lunch with the RS sister I came home and took what I thought was a nap. When I woke up it was dark outside. Trippy. Weird I feel like my whole day was a waste. Lunch was good. Punjab Express in Sandy is STILL my favorite Indian. This was alright but nothing to make me want to go back. Punjab Express has naan to die for. AND everything else is scrumptious, just in Sandy.

I'm glad Nick told me about this restaurant when he did my hair. I like the food at Curry in a Hurry but it is always so dang crowded. Domoina agreed to do lunch there instead. I hope she's really alright with that. EMZ continues to be the bomb. I love it. Before I left to Logan finding a job was extremely difficult. I know my competition is national now. I think the only way I can gain more public library experience is to volunteer my time and services. I REALLY want that design consultant job. They maintain you don't need experience but all the people on their design team have a ton of experience. I hope they even give me an interview. I will call them to followup tomorrow since I just submitted my application. It would be an incredible opportunity to learn a new skill although I think I already have that skill it is an opportunity to be certified. I've always wanted to stage my own homes.

Working there will help me in my real estate business. I could decorate the homes I sell and then also make a deal for all the furniture too so it would increase my business there as well. I would like that very much. I still want to maintain my library skills too however. That calls for volunteering somewhere until my perfect part time County position presents itself. This just may have been a blessing in disguise to NOOOT have anything turn out yet. OR probably I'm just learning to find the silver lining that can be found in ANY situation. I also like that Basset furniture has some sort of relationship with HGTV. I spend hours watching that station.

Alma 53
20 And they were all young men, and they were exceedingly valiant for courage, and also for strength and activity; but behold, this was not all—they were men who were true at all times in whatsoever thing they were entrusted.
21 Yea, they were men of truth and soberness, for they had been taught to keep the commandments of God and to walk uprightly before him.

Continuing Revelation - Henry B. Eyring
We all know that human judgment and logical thinking will not be enough to get answers to the questions that matter most in life. We need revelation from God. And we will need not just one revelation in a time of stress, but we need a constantly renewed stream. We need not just one flash of light and comfort, but we need the continuing blessing of communication with God.
Continuing revelation comes to stake presidents to lift them above their own wisdom and capacities. And, beyond that, the Lord gives to those whom the president leads a confirming witness that his commands come from God through the Holy Ghost to an imperfect human being.
That personal revelation of acceptance, for which we all long, does not come easily, nor does it come simply for the asking.
The Lord gave this standard for the capacity to receive such witnesses from God. It is a guide for anyone seeking personal revelation, as we all must.
“Let thy bowels also be full of charity towards all men, and to the household of faith, and let virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly; then shall thy confidence wax strong in the presence of God; and the doctrine of the priesthood shall distil upon thy soul as the dews from heaven.
“The Holy Ghost shall be thy constant companion.”
I have seen how the Holy Ghost can touch a softened heart to protect a humble disciple of Jesus Christ with confirming revelation.

Now it's almost time for me to leave for lunch with Domoina at Saffron Valley. I asked Nick about restaurants and he recommended it. I'm pretty sure he's gay now and gay men have exquisite taste for the most part. I guess I'll know for sure when I go there. Which is now!!!

The Park City lady responded to me which I appreciate saying there were many applicants. That is consistent with what Salt Lake City said. I don't want special privileges, I just thought my MBA would mean more and it doesn't seem to matter as much as I wish it did. Salt Lake is VERY competitive in my field. I probably have the best chance of finding a job in Salt Lake County... that is if they EVER have an opening that isn't internal. I feel like I've been unemployed for a long time although really it hasn't been that long. Eventually I should volunteer at the City Library again. I wonder if Michael Nordenstrum is still the coordinator there.

I talked to some guy at the county Tony Summers at 385-468-0558 and told him what had been happening with my applications. He found my profile and sent me a digital copy of it in case this happens AGAIN. I think it's just some bug in the system or perhaps these positions I applied for just weren't for me. I have learned sometimes my Heavenly Father will let me erase or delete things for whatever reason he doesn't want something done or communicated. ORRR posted. I really believe that for whatever reason.

I have a visiting teaching appointment at 5pm today.

The job hunt is EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING!!! I received an email from Salt Lake County requesting that I fill out an application. THIS IS THE 3RD TIME I DID THIS!!! Your profile is supposed to remain in the system so you just have to UPDATE THE DAMN THING AS NEEDED!!! I filled out everything AGAIN!!! WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING???!!! Salt Lake City Library emailed me and told me they had 63 applicants and that I wasn't chosen to get an interview even... that was over a week ago, still - . I want to scream!!! Park City Library just emailed me that someone else was selected for the Adult Services Librarian so I emailed back asking what I was lacking since I have 2 master degrees AND over 7 years of librarian experience. No response yet.

I applied for a design consultant position with Bassett furniture. I am NOOOT living in another small town JUST so the same damn thing can happen to me again. I can't seem to get a librarian job here in Salt Lake City. BUT if that were all it would be easier to take. The county conveniently looses my application all the damn time. What the freaking hell???!!! I feel targeted and I am ticked.

My hair looks great and feels great BUUUT the difference is NOOOT significant enough to warrant the time or money I spent on it. I could've just had him blow dry it with the same results. I did get this amazing shine serum however I just happened to come across as I was sitting there waiting for him. It does give my hair some dimension but you can't see it unless you're in certain light. It reminds me of when I dyed my hair blue and it didn't show up unless you sat in the sun and then you still couldn't really tell.

My hair still looks professional however which is good because I still don't have a job. My hair is naturally jet black and people think I color it all the time with my extremely subtle highlights they might think it's natural.

Alma 52

With those scripture pictures in mind, we can be prepared to endure in our service when it seems hard.
You seasoned companions can bless a young priesthood holder in preparation whenever you can show him that kind of trust. It will help him trust the gentle feeling of inspiration for himself when it comes as he someday places his hands to seal the blessing to heal a child the doctors say will die. That trust has helped me more than once.
You will remember the Lord’s counsel: “Reproving betimes with sharpness, when moved upon by the Holy Ghost; and then showing forth afterwards an increase of love toward him whom thou hast reproved, lest he esteem thee to be his enemy.”

I just applied for job #2 with the church. I am frustrated with applying at the church because I never seem to get the positions I apply for there despite applying and applying AND applying. 

I am also frustrated in general with looking for a job. Real estate is becoming more and more of a sure destination. I have to pay bills but I am going to start saving specifically for my real estate thing.

49
 9 And it came to pass that the Lamanites, or the Amalickiahites, were exceedingly astonished at their manner of preparation for war.
The importance of being prepared is only emphasized here.
51
8 Now those who were in favor of kings were those of high birth, and they sought to be kings; and they were supported by those who sought power and authority over the people.
14 And it came to pass that when Moroni saw this, and also saw that the Lamanites were coming into the borders of the land, he was exceedingly wroth because of the stubbornness of those people whom he had labored with so much diligence to preserve; yea, he was exceedingly wroth; his soul was filled with anger against them.
15 And it came to pass that he sent a petition, with the voice of the people, unto the governor of the land, desiring that he should read it, and give him (Moroni) power to compel those dissenters to defend their country or to put them to death.
This is the great Moroni. I have such a problem with this. It seems to be a national security issue to force the dissenters to comply or be killed. I know there are many things I don't understand just about the time they lived in, it just seems severe.

Loving Others and Living with Differences - Dallin H. Oaks
Thomas S. Monson taught us last April, “love is the very essence of the gospel, and Jesus Christ is our Exemplar. His life was a legacy of love
We are to live in the world but not be of the world.
Less grievous behaviors, even though unacceptable to some believers, may simply need to be endured if legalized by what a Book of Mormon prophet called “the voice of the people” 
On the subject of public discourse, we should all follow the gospel teachings to love our neighbor and avoid contention. Followers of Christ should be examples of civility. We should love all people, be good listeners, and show concern for their sincere beliefs. Though we may disagree, we should not be disagreeable. Our stands and communications on controversial topics should not be contentious. We should be wise in explaining and pursuing our positions and in exercising our influence. In doing so, we ask that others not be offended by our sincere religious beliefs and the free exercise of our religion. 
When our positions do not prevail, we should accept unfavorable results graciously and practice civility with our adversaries. In any event, we should be persons of goodwill toward all, rejecting persecution of any kind, including persecution based on race, ethnicity, religious belief or nonbelief, and differences in sexual orientation.
The Savior taught that contention is a tool of the devil. That surely teaches against some of the current language and practices of politics. Living with policy differences is essential to politics, but policy differences need not involve personal attacks that poison the process of government and punish participants. All of us should banish hateful communications and practice civility for differences of opinion.
Kindness is powerful, especially in a family setting.
Where vital, our side of these differences should not be denied or abandoned, but as followers of Christ we should live peacefully with others who do not share our values or accept the teachings upon which they are based.

I slept late so it was really tough to get to Zumba this morning. I made an appointment to color my hair today. I'm freaking out a little although I know Nick is very good. I'm a little scared. It's good to have a change every now and then. I still can't help feeling nervous.