Urban Poly Princess

After EMZ I decided to try to incorporate the latest Dr. Furhman diet which is mostly veggies, nuts and VEEERY limited meat. It hasn't been difficult. I want to do this until and then even after I take the EMZ certification this time in March since I didn't pay my fee on time. I don't want to pay over $225 for this especially since I don't know how soon I can teach classes and incorporate it into my life.

FHE was awesome, EXACTLY what I needed. We had an excellent speaker who reminded me of how many opportunities we all have and that we can do so much if we work hard and believe we can attain it. We should pursue our passion relentlessly which I completely agree with. It is so hard to maintain that faith. I want something part time that will allow me to pursue real estate with the vigor I want. I ALSO want my library job ALTHOUGH that is very discouraging right now.

I saw Steve tonight. He looks old which I don't like. I still have this young freshness that belies my age AND I'm still attracted to younger men. It'll only get worse as I get fitter and wear what I really want to all the time. I like his spirit however. He has a testimony and his spirit is obvious. He attends his ward activities AND more importantly he attends the temple. I still don't like his height.

I do like him in general. I always look to see if he's there at church or at any of our activities. The only thing that is stopping me from getting to know him better is the temple and how I didn't feel a thing when we were doing sealings. He hasn't gone to graduate school which I don't like either but maybe he wants to although if he hasn't gone yet it's hard to imagine he'll want to do that later.

He is definitely GA material even with the things I don't like which is why I should go for it. Shem is more fun AND looks better however. He looks younger too. I don't have the same spiritual sense Steve gives off however.

I love the scripture the man who spoke to us tonight shared. It is in Alma 29:4

4 I ought not to harrow up in my desires the firm decree of a just God, for I know that he granteth unto men according to theirdesire, whether it be unto death or unto life; yea, I know that he allotteth unto men, yea, decreeth unto them decrees which are unalterable, according to their wills, whether they be unto salvation or unto destruction.