Urban Poly Princess

David's house is beautiful. His roommate Darryl owns it but I'm glad he lives there. He lives right by Stacey Brown who was in my fhe group. I don't remember exactly where it is but it could be the same street for all I know. We had our sushi party there.

I'm so happy Krista agreed to take something to Amanda for me. I bought a Tommy Hillfiger bag that I've never used. I decided to give it to Amanda. I made a stop at TJMaxx to get her some perfume and I still had that new bottle of Tommy for her husband. I just bought her Sung-it's the only one I recognized there and at least I know what it smells like. There was a Daisy gift box there I REALLY like. I might buy it for myself. REALLY I should buy a small bottle that'll set me back about $30 instead of the gift set at $60. I hope she likes what I'm sending her. I miss Amanda and I hope everything is well in her life.

David gave a really good lesson based on a conference talk by some GA who used to be over Russia and speaks Russian well. The spirit was nice. He asked us what were some things that come in the way of following the spirit. He talked about worldly things. It made me think of busyness and other good things.

The spirit has been very clear with me BUT it's been easy for me to find other good things that demand my attention although REALLY it doesn't require much from me and I know I'm filling my time that is prolonging what I need to be doing. I should be making an effort to get to know David better. I should've stayed at his house or gone back in after giving Krista my stuff for Amanda. I just detest being one of many. It felt like a harem. It's not like I want him to be rude.

I know this is a pride thing. I feel like I ALWAYS have to give it up with David. Situations constantly arise where I have to do things I wouldn't normally do-He is fun. I do enjoy his company but why do I always feel like I have to grit my teeth and ENDURE something associated with him. When we first met and started to get to know each other it was fun. I don't know how or why that had to change.