Urban Poly Princess

Uh huh-it's been a couple days but I'm still there. Avoidance doesn't work unless U R actively trying to get over this and can focus on ANY negative thing. I'm actually not avoiding, I got over this before because he was still being a jerk and hanging out with people I can't stand. While I don't group him with them anymore, as far as Katie is concerned if I never see her again it will still be too soon. She hasn't been outright rude and she should have some redeeming qualities if he is her friend. I just am pretty sure she is responsible for ANY negativity we experienced-I'm just not going to see him until Sunday if I actually make it back to church. I wonder what we're doing for fhe. I hope we don't help anyone move/clean. I still have daymares about helping Jennifer clean. Her kitchen made my skin crawl. I don't know how people can live like that. I'm sure she was often sick from living like a pig. She is a sweet girl. I didn't want to make her feel bad or I would've left. I used to visit teach Renee but I couldn't help her move and then Marci visits me and I still stayed away from helping her move. Becca was fine but that was before I helped Jennifer. I couldn't sign up to clean the church either. Any cleaning service project after Jennifer I've just refused.
I miss my friend BUT I don't have any reason to contact him-Stalking him on Facebook is fine but he doesn't update his own status so I just keep seeing the same thing. I want a hug...