Urban Poly Princess

I just wrote a bunch of depressing crap. That benefits no one. Highlight and delete!!! If only life were that easy. I'm enjoying my time with my mother even as she simultaneously gets on my nerves. I'm at the library to work on my Intellectual Freedom Committee Power Points I promised my group but DID NOT FINISH. It shouldn't take too long. Time to do it.

I have so many blessings I am so grateful for. Despite this I am still a basket case. It's difficult to understand how I can repeatedly be blessed but still NOT want to follow the spirit because of what it seems to require. I hate that and I know I need to just keep walking by faith even as I just don't want to deal with everything that demands from me. I know intellectually it'll be worth it BUT I don't feel that yet. Right now it feels like a big waste of time.

I hate where I live. I love my job. I am grateful for guidance and the spirit. I trust it or I wouldn't do it BUT that doesn't make it easy.