Urban Poly Princess

Last night class was hell. While I just wanted a new tighter top aligner, my bottom aligner hurts like the heo!!! I have been using ibuprofen which helps a whole lot. I don't feel like my top aligner is doing anything but the bottom has me in pain. Add that to Real Estate class UNTIL 9:40 last night and I was ready to scream/shoot/cry/kill someone!!! Stressed much???!!!

Weird it's not 1 specific thing it's ALL of them at once.My friend Deb in my real estate class had Ibuprofen to share!!! BUT it was hooot in the classroom and I didn't know how much longer I was going to be able to sit through that. It wasn't so much a physical tired, although there was that, it was an overload of simply being either in class or at work. I felt stressed beyond what anyone should be able to withstand like a bow already pulled taut that is pulled even further than expected without breaking, only I want to break.

The bottom row of my teeth feel a little better but I couldn't workout this morning. Even after sleeping my house isn't as clean as I want it to be. I have laundry to do and a few dishes to wash. My beautiful GoGo boots broke yesterday. I called a shoe cobbler in College Ward who will fix it for me. I didn't even get a price. I love those boots. Not only are they cute they are comfortable. They may be high but the heels are big and sturdy. I am so excited for conference and I'm excited to see my cousin Jared and his family. Rich texted me thanks last night for setting him up BUT he said while she was nice and personable, they were very different people. He's taking his kids to Disney World this conference weekend. I hope he has fun.

We have so much in common. It is the REASON why the dramatic instruction to stay away. I really think any two people can make a marriage work if they want to do that. Divorce is NOT an option to me. The ONLY thing that would change that is if my husband was physically abusive. That is the deal breaker. I don't like that Rich is divorced, has 4 kids, has an ex-wife and loves Mendon. He is stuck here because of his children. He should be however. Despite ALL of these things AND how much he enjoyed kissing his date his family set him up on, if I didn't have that dramatic warning I know I could completely fall for him. Although filled with misgivings, left to my own thoughts I would sooo go there with him. He is so much fun AND fine AND brilliant AND an RM AND active in the church. We also have the same sense of humor.

My friend and I DO NOT have the same sense of humor. We don't communicate well either BUT I do feel like I know him really well like I do Rich. My friend feels cleaner and more innocent because he is. Even if he did travel with his girlfriend to Hawaii AND have his make-out sessions with her, he still feels pure. Rich has a testimony and loves his heavenly father and the gospel BUT I don't think he made the same consistently good choices.

Despite that he doesn't feel bad. I feel like he is right and worthy before the Lord. Of course he's divorced with children but he is doing what his heavenly father wants him to do right now. He's just not for me. Rich feels more righteous to me than Russ did who wasn't divorced and didn't have any children. Actually getting married and having a family is a very good thing. It's what we all should be doing. Rich has a spiritual goodness about him. Rich made me see beyond Justin's beautiful face. Justin is good and he was so golden. Besides the way he looks and his testimony however there's nothing to interest me there. He's not stupid but he isn't brilliant like Rich or my friend. If Justin wasn't gorgeous AND a new member, I wouldn't give him the time of day. Rich is like my friend. He is certainly attractive but that isn't what draws me to him. Now it doesn't matter what he looks like BUT I still appreciate how well he dresses AND how good he looks.

My friend is fun in a different way. Rich has his Hawaiian/Asian cultural thing that makes us relate to many of the same things. My guidance has been significant and dramatic with both. My friend has consistently had the seal of approval while before I even knew Rich I was warned AGAINST developing anything more than friendship with him.