Monday, October 21, 2013

Monday morning!!!

I started making cookies about a month ago so I had 2 blocks of butter in a bowl with saran wrap covering it. I FINALLY decided to do something about it last night BUUUT it ended up taking until after 1am this morning. I baked exactly 1 batch. Now that I think about it I could've just turned the oven off after mixing the cookies. I felt compelled to bake a batch since I began preheating it for almost an hour when I was finally done. They taste great although they'd taste better with some macadamia nuts mixed in. These are the cookies I worked to perfect years ago with coconut and white chocolate chips. They are perfect. They just need the macadamia nuts.  It was a double recipe so I have lots of batter. I originally planned to bake these cookies for Justin's baptism so it's been awhile. He wasn't in church yesterday. I hope he's just at his construction site working and that he checked out church wherever that may be.

My new aligners are in. While they are tight they are nothing like when I first had them on. My lower teeth are used to the movement now so I won't need ibuprofen. I was a little worried about that. My teeth are looking like what I want them too. Hallelujah!!! I don't need Inivsalign!!! The cost is the biggest annoyance with that plan. Next month we change our flex-spending amounts. I could keep the full amount and get laser surgery next year. Getting rid of my contacts would be so amazing. Decisions, decisions.

2 Nephi 12
17 And the loftiness of man shall be bowed down, and theahaughtiness of men shall be made low; and the Lord alone shall be exalted in bthat day.

 18 And the idols he shall utterly abolish.
 19 And they shall go into the holes of the rocks, and into the caves of the earth, for the fear of the Lord shall come upon them and theaglory of his majesty shall smite them, when he ariseth to shake terribly the earth.
 20 In that day a man shall cast his idols of silver, and his idols of gold, which he hath made for himself to worship, to the moles and to the bats;
 21 To go into the clefts of the rocks, and into the tops of the ragged rocks, for the fear of the Lord shall come upon them and the majesty of his glory shall smite them, when he ariseth to shake terribly the earth.
 22 Cease ye from man, whose breath is in his nostrils; for wherein is he to be accounted of?
Beautiful language from Isaiah. He was an incredible writer. 
Wilt Thou Be Made Whole? - Timothy J. Dyches
Corrie ten Boom, a devout Dutch Christian woman, found such healing despite having been interned in concentration camps during World War II. She suffered greatly, but unlike her beloved sister Betsie, who perished in one of the camps, Corrie survived.
After the war she often spoke publicly of her experiences and of healing and forgiveness. On one occasion a former Nazi guard who had been part of Corrie’s own grievous confinement in Ravensbrück, Germany, approached her, rejoicing at her message of Christ’s forgiveness and love.
“‘How grateful I am for your message, Fraulein,’ he said. ‘To think that, as you say, He has washed my sins away!’
“His hand was thrust out to shake mine,” Corrie recalled. “And I, who had preached so often … the need to forgive, kept my hand at my side.
“Even as the angry, vengeful thoughts boiled through me, I saw the sin of them. … Lord Jesus, I prayed, forgive me and help me to forgive him.
“I tried to smile, [and] I struggled to raise my hand. I could not. I felt nothing, not the slightest spark of warmth or charity. And so again I breathed a silent prayer. Jesus, I cannot forgive him. Give me Yourforgiveness.
“As I took his hand the most incredible thing happened. From my shoulder along my arm and through my hand a current seemed to pass from me to him, while into my heart sprang a love for this stranger that almost overwhelmed me.
WOW!!! It was sooo hard for me to forgive my friend for how he treated me that time I tried to help him with FHE. It is NOTHING that even compares to this in the slightest. There is a lot about forgiveness I need to develop. That really shook me to the core. It still gets me upset when I think about it although I've let it go for almost a year now. We ALL need the atonement, even the seemingly small sins. I never thought I could hate anyone BUT I did AND although I've overcome those feelings I'm still sad it had to go there and my opinion of him and everyone is less. I hate experiences like that because it makes me lose my faith in people in general. If someone so strong spiritually can treat me that way, how far can everyone else go? It is sobering and not in a good way. Your true character is revealed when you don't think anyone will discover what you did. It is still chilling for me to think he believes that was appropriate. 

Despite that he STILL worked in the temple, was active in the church and I believe he tried what he felt was sufficient to magnify his calling. I have a completely different take on that ALTHOUGH it's not my role to judge whether anyone else ever magnifies their calling. If he thinks he did, he did. We can and should only ever judge ourselves. I realize that also applies to how he behaved with FHE the time I tried to help HOWEVER I don't think Heavenly Father wants us to be blind to imperfections or he wouldn't allow us to discern things. We are supposed to be fully aware of these and STILL see the good in the person. The worth of souls is great in the sight of God. I can't imagine how hard it was for Corrie ten Boom. It is sacrilege for me to compare how I felt with my friend to her BUT it is what I can relate to the most.

BUSY, BUSY, BUSY day. 




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