Urban Poly Princess

I went to dinner at Elements with Krista. While I like their food this is the third time I've eaten there and had to shoo a fly away. This is a huge problem. It happened twice when I had lunch there. It WAS my favorite restaurant BUT I think that needs to change. The clam chowder was too salty and the grilled linguine with shrimp, salmon and scallops didn't have any scallops. Even the ahi spring roll appetizer was good but it was made with egg roll wrappers NOT spring roll wrappers. I still haven't had their Saturday breakfast which sounds great BUT uh not if I have to shoo another damn fly away.

I talked to Krista about David tonight which annoys me because he didn't text me back. He's probably married and expecting his first child now which ticks me off. Not because I don't want him to be happy but because I give a damn. I wouldn't answer him either if I was married or even if I was dating someone. I never believed he didn't like me very much BUT he didn't want to be with me despite that and it doesn't matter because what does is what you are willing to do and he was never willing to do anything.

I am a lot like my home teacher Rich in that I don't just think I'm amazing, I know I'm amazing and despite his flirting and dating the world I tried so hard to preserve even our friendship over and over again BECAUSE the spirit kept leading me there and while I didn't embrace that quickly or fully initially, ultimately I kept trying when that was the last thing I wanted to do. I would finally decide to try with him but then I'd just get shot down so why the hell was I supposed to try in the first place.  I'll NEVER understand that.

I know how he feels about me and I know how much I can hurt him because of that BUT I just don't get why he doesn't do anything. I don't think he's married because of some of his online stuff I can detect but really there's nothing definitive. I am up now because I looked up his damn LinkedIn profile that is the ONLY evidence I have of his existence right now hoping to find some clue there. I tried to google his marriage which probably doesn't exist NOW at 3:28 am. I fell asleep with my contacts in and makeup on which is why the stupid hour. Thinking about David married got the hell on my nerves so I wanted to confirm that somehow.