Urban Poly Princess

13 And behold, in the end of this book ye shall see that thisGadianton did prove the overthrow, yea, almost the entire destruction of the people of Nephi.
Secret combinations can be very influential.

Last night I stayed home and decorated my tree and did some laundry. I missed FHE which was shopping at Walmart for the needy families we raised money for at the auction. My RS was also cleaning the chapel which I missed. Now I need to work on attending things again. There are a lot of good men and I need to get married. There is no one I like however. Aren't I supdposed to feel something extra. I see good men who are financially stable. I should just have to determine the extent of their testimony. Weird. This is probably why I am still single. If I spend time with someone I can grow to love them. My Colton experience should have taught me that BUUUT I don't want to spend time with anyone really. 

I know I should figure something out then get confirmation from my Father in Heaven. After that at least I'll have an idea of someone I want to get to know better but I don't have that at all. Should I get to know Steve? I don't like that Annette likes him. I love her personality. She is overweight. I know I am too but I am gorgeous. There's this other tall girl that seems to stalk him. I don't know her name, I just know she is tall. I like his spirit, I just don't like that he's short and he probably never served a mission. I'm not going to compete for his attention and I don't like him enough to think about him a whole lot. Mike is super smart, has the Asian thing down AND he has this financial page on Facebook where he discusses the pluses and minuses of having a financial planner, how to prepare for retirement, whether real estate is an investment if you live on the property and how paying your taxes is really not a bad thing since you can invest that money you get throughout the year which is going to be less than the money invested over the year.

I love everything except his spiritual state which I'm not sure of yet. I am pretty sure Belinda likes him too. I really like her and she is Chinese-American born in Salt Lake too. I also think Emily has a thing for Steve. She is amazing. Why haven't either of them hooked up with these women. What is their problem? What is my problem? I need to figure out what to do then I can proceed.

Right now I don't care about anyone and I know I need to find someone and build a life with them. It is the plan and I believe in and trust that plan. Why do I STILL have such a problem with this?