Urban Poly Princess

We are paired with people at random and I was paired with Steve. What are the chances? It felt wrong. Is it ALWAYS going to feel wrong. What the hell is wrong with me? I was very specifically told NOT to do or go anywhere relationship-wise with Rich. I think because Heavenly Father knew I'd like him and get along with him as well as I did. Steve doesn't feel right but I don't feel like my Father in Heaven really cares if I go out with him or not. Probably because he knows it won't go anywhere.

SERIOUSLY what the hell is my problem and what is it going to take.