Urban Poly Princess

I'm probably just going without food and water since I just thought about it this morning and I haven't eaten anything. There is a fireside in Draper I want to check out tonight. I am wearing flats to church but I am going to bust out the heels for tonight. Draper isn't too bad and I think it's for a good reason. I suppose I could just talk to more guys in my ward but there isn't anyone really. Steve went to temple sessions, sealings and FHE - it was easy to see how great he was. Add that to the fact he bore his testimony randomly and magnified whatever calling he had -OF COURSE I was going to like those qualities.

I sort of want to get to know Spencer better but he isn't attractive to me. He isn't unattractive AND he is spiritually on point, is a software engineer for some sort of gaming company - he creates new video games. I am sure he makes enough money to support a family. He was dating some girl when I first joined the ward last year. She is nice and pretty. I'm not sure what happened although I always felt she was more into him than he was into her. Maybe he fascinates me because he looks like he's from Hawaii.

I am ready pretty early today. I woke up wanting a shower so I did that right after getting up around 7am. I have a rash on my lower left leg. I went online after I saw an advertisement for diabetes Eczema. I'm pretty sure that's what I have and I have no choice but to address it. There is diabetes related fatigue too and I am pretty sure that's also something I'm facing. The solution is pretty simple -eat well and work out more AND I already know how to do that even if I'm not consistent with actually eating that way anymore.

I don't exactly want someone fat and sedentary, I certainly need to change that myself. I don't consider myself sedentary thanks to Zumba but I definitely need to put everything I know works together. I need energy once I return to work too. I also read this article last night about some woman my age trying to conceive. She was given specific advice but eating well and maintaining a healthy weight was right there. She suggested fertility yoga too. I can do that. First things first however.

When I prayed about my own children I felt I'd have 3 girls but it just seems more and more impossible the longer I remain single. I do know Heavenly Father expects me to do my part physically AS WELL as make the effort to get to know worthy men in my circles. I am so lucky to live where I do and to have as many activities always going on around me. I really don't have any excuse. I think I could be happy with Spencer even if I'm not physically attracted to him.

I wouldn't have the slightest interest if it really was a turnoff.