Urban Poly Princess

Charity wanted to know if I was attending the tomorrow. I told her I wanted to do that but there were things I needed to negotiate. I didn't tell her the real reason or because I don't have money to pay for my gas when I need to make sure I can get to my interviews. I  am numb but I feel like I've been that way awhile. All hope is gone. But again I've felt like that for a long time now. What am I supposed to do now?