Urban Poly Princess

I remember on my mission when I served in a wealthy area Cameron Park. There was a section of the town where families had their hangers on the side of their homes so they could park their planes. Unfortunately it was against mission rules to ride the planes because we had invitations to go to the San Diego temple that we had to refuse. I served in several wealthy areas along with several poverty-stricken areas. There are good and bad people at every income level.

So I'm done crying. I knew my chances weren't very good for this Children's Librarian position because other Librarians not only have experience, I know I'm competing against individuals who are already merit employees. I know that. STILL, I wanted one of those jobs. I want to end up in administration and that may not be the best path for that anyway.

I think I applied for 15 jobs today, yes even while I had tears streaming down my face. I never really thought of what else I might want to do. I didn't try to just apply for jobs not in my field that I might like. I started to do that today and then I even explored this temp agency that places mostly production people but they have a few clerical and administrative listings. There is a clerical position that is perfect - M-W from 8-4:30 which leaves me time to do real estate AND look for the full time job I really want as a Librarian.

I also came across something else I might actually enjoy with Sirsi-Dynix - they sell ILS systems to libraries across the globe. Travel is 25% of the time individuals spend. I can't wait to apply for one of those positions. The website is acting up or I would do that now. Tomorrow I'll call and confirm before I do my best to apply. I want to do that. I love training and traveling to train on library software and talking to people and companies about library software is wonderful. I could do that with no problem full time. I've been a trainer before and I taught research writing along with gave presentations not just at Stevens-Henager College but also to the Utah Library Association conferences for the last 3 years. I hope this works.

NOOO I didn't curl up into a little ball. People with money can afford psychologists and therapy. It is not a luxury available to me or even what I consider necessary. I'm not trying to make real problems seem light. BUUUT with the bright light of the gospel who really has time for that. I know I don't and while I have cried throughout the damn day I still made myself homemade veggie pizza, cut my pineapple and applied for a bunch of jobs and called a bunch of people because I need to get out of this damn stagnant state asap.