Urban Poly Princess

So new attitude too. Yesterday most of my entire day was taken by Veronica who REALLY wanted to take me to lunch. There are always women who REALLY want to be my friend and I usually avoid them when they do that UNLESS they are relentless like she's been. I gave her every excuse in the world why I couldn't but she never quit so yesterday she treated me to lunch. I think she just wanted to talk. She grew up in California with her dad who suffered from ptsd from the Vietnam war and was also an alcoholic. She became a single mom at 28 then joined the church after a year of investigating. She really misses fireside and the social aspect singles enjoy in the church. I never really thought about that before. I told my mother I need to get to know guys better NOT women a and she reminded me my father in heaven knows that. I guess I just need to have faith for both my professional and personal life. As long as I do everything in my power anything that doesn't or doesn't occur is my Father's will. Sooo I just need to stop tripping all the Damn time. One thing Veronica was telling me yesterday is she wasn't impressed by a ward friend who was telling her how her daughter had her first kiss. I had to explain to her that most people were fine with kissing and even making out casually and even in high school. She was shocked and told me kissing leads to other things and she's always told her daughter who is 14 now she'll get pregnant if she starts kissing guys. That was so interesting to me. I always attributed my views on kissing to my extreme Tongan conservative upbringing but Veronica came to the same conclusions all by herself. I know now why she tries so hard to include me in her life. It is the gospel.

I hope I never take it for granted. The church really does a fantastic job of providing spiritual opportunities for singles. It doesn't do the same for people who are married. I'm also beginning to understand Krista better. She kept wanting to attend my ward activities and I kept steering her to the family ward. She misses that singles interaction or at least having friends her age to relate to on a consistent basis.

Veronica told me she hasn't been two a fireside in the 3 years she's been married. This is a segment of the church with needs that aren't being met. I don't really feel like I'm supposed to meet these however. I think I should get to know singles and concentrate my efforts first on my ward. I feel like I should get to know Uai just because he is Tongan, a professional in the medical field and I am pretty sure he can support a family well. He is spiritually fine inasmUch as I can tell now. Maybe once I get to know him he'll begin to be attractive to me. I have to introduce myself at least and be his friend at a minimum. I've been reluctant to do that since I know his sister and first cousin very well. I know he's never been married at least not as far as I know. He is tall at least. Why wouldn't I want a family with someone like him. I'm not attracted to him or I would've found out what he was all about a long time ago. I want the immediate thing. I am going to find out anyway I don't know anything about him but at least I like what I don't know so far. His testimony is there. I just don't know how committed he is. Steve is the level I want. Annoying has it too but if I didn't know him I'd never know that. I don't think it's and accident Uai or anyone else is in my ward. Especially with my inability to go anywhere really now. I feel like if I don't at least get to know Uai I'm not doing my part to find my eternal companion.