Urban Poly Princess

I only attended this class in my ward to avoid a clingon. I intended to adopt indexing and I love that it's a form of crowd sourcing, but after my initial training I didn't do anything. I was once called as a family history advisor to my Tongan singles ward in Salt Lake City. There is so much for me to learn. I just don't want to learn anything associated with it. My mother is a familly history freak. It IS the reason why she lives in Rose Park-so she can be close to the family history library. She is sooo excited about it each day and it's like there's a switch in my head  that turns off when she starts talking about it. Now I tell her not to tell me and that I don't care. She has countless dreams-many of which are family history related-the rest are "warnings" for how me or my brother will sin next IF we don't do exactly what she tells us to do and the whole thing just gets on my nerves.

Fhe is a family history lesson probably because David's either teaching that class or in that class now. In any case he advertised it throughout our ward before it began. Sarah texted me about attending the Basic Skills class. I told her I did once but that it got too crowded and I didn't want to attend it anymore anyway. Margaret Oak is one of the teachers. She is awesome and hilarious HOWEVER I AM NOT INTERESTED in attending any Social Work type classes and that's what it is COMPLETELY!!! I detest those lessons and EVERYONE there seemed to have a screw loose-that is if they weren't one of the 5 teachers spouting off about how to improve our lives. I told bishop in no uncertain terms that I didn't want to attend the class. I'm sure he thinks I'm stupid although he finally told me I didn't have to attend. My old friend David was a social worker, my cousin Luisa I hung out with at BYU-Hawaii also graduated in Social Work. I was always the lone person with a different opinion when we'd have policy discussions. The entire underlying social work philosophy feels like nails on a chalkboard to me now. Working as a mentor to kids with the Asian Association and then as a Youth Worker at The Christmas Box House, I recognize how real the problems are BUT there are MANY things I can spend my time and life doing. I don't NEED to attend classes that are trying to sell me on the idea of education. I USED TO GIVE THOSE DAMN TALKS TO POLY YOUTH MYSELF.

I took a payday loan to buy a second-hand washer and dryer. I could've paid that off fine. I wasn't expecting to have to spend close  to $700 on my stupid car repairs AT THE SAME TIME. That double whammy is HOW I found myself in a position where I HAAAD to declare bankruptcy. I watch how I spend my money even more now. I know how to make my money stretch. This WAS AN ABERRATION. How the hell would I even have my own apartment if I couldn't pay my own damn bills. Bishop DID NOT help me when I talked to him about my financial mess-he sicced Jared on me which was STUPID. He asked Jared to talk to the places I had loans with and to make arrangements with them. I used to train bill collectors. PAYDAY loans DO NOT negotiate because they have a check I wrote that they can cash. I'm sure I could talk to creditors and negotiate with them a whole hell of a lot better than Jared. I had to do extensive research MYSELF online just to figure out what to do. Credit counseling FINALLY gave me some relief while I paid them $400 each month. One of my creditors refused to accept the affordable terms and garnished my wages. That single garnishment took close to 700 a month. It was paid for a month. I had no choice BUT to declare bankruptcy. With my chapter 13 filing my attorney figured out $140 a month to pay off ALL my bills. The savings are significant and I can begin saving again soon. I still owe $80 for my ticket I received for driving without insurance. I will pay it off on the 5th. I can't wait!!!-Sooo BECAUSE I went through this my basic skills suck???-I don't think so!!! Maybe I've been spoiled and maybe I spend too much money BUT this experience is something I am placing firmly in the past.

My mother certainly didn't help by calling him BUT I'm sure the same tired pretty brown girl equals stupid brown girl assumption persists with my bishop. I choose not to correct it anymore. I just don't care. I've wasted enough energy. People can believe what the hell they want. 

Right after sacrament meeting I talked to bishop about the damn basic skills class. Alright sooo my budgeting sucked big time but in anything else what the hell am I lacking???!!! I should take the Marriage Prep. class with Mark because that is definitely an area I need help with. Jared's started attending Gospel Doctrine. I've very obviously avoided him but I'll do it more if need be-He really annoyed me with his last phone call and then Darryll asked for and took my Blood Drive list. Matt Sinfield ended up there anyway which was stupid for Jared AND Darryll to get the list from me in the first place. Probably just lack of communication in the Stake. Whatever.

Sarah Biggs is taking me to the mid-singles institute class Tuesday in Providence. She said it's really good. It forces me to be social AND it's a different environment. I hope I like it tomorrow. That will pack my week-Monday fhe, Tuesday Institute, Wednesday-usually ward temple night-maybe I'll just make it my personal temple night too. Thursday is my Friday. I'm going to spend my weekends working on my Thesis now until it's done. Levi came and sat with Krista and I yesterday. Nice man. Krista is a clingon but she doesn't get on my nerves the way Karen or my friend Ele do-Maybe it's because I know she's from another country and I want her to feel better about just being here. I don't know what my deal is-Krista wants me to attend the Brigham City Temple Open House with her. I told her we'll go and get pie from Maddox first. I can check out the fruit stands too. Brigham City Day coming up!!!