Urban Poly Princess

My initial thoughts were dang... most of these people are older than my mother-waaay worse than those Singles firesides BUUUT the teacher is awesome!!! The Pearl of Great Price is beautiful and probably the deepest scripture we have. It recounts the creation story highlighted in the temple. There is something profoundly significant about that. I learned new things tonight and I look forward to learning more. Tonight was the first class. I'm so glad I went. I tried to participate by answering questions twice and he ignored me. THAT I didn't like BUT I'm not ready to rake him over the coals just yet.

A regular institute class studies the Pearl of Great Price in a semester. This is going to just look at Moses first and then consider Abraham next semester. Several girls were there from the ward-Teima and Morgan from the North Relief Society, Lynette ? not Checketts, Carline, Evan our new member was the sole guy there from our ward. Katrina Scoggins was there as was some other girl I think is in our ward. Once again, it's good to be a guy and single if you're over 31 and LDS. Sheirsta-David's vet friend he's dating-several times anyway-drove in as we were leaving the parking lot. I guess Sarah knows her because she said there's Sheirsta an hour late so then I saw her and rejoiced that I wouldn't have to be subjected to her presence. I hope she doesn't start coming. David doesn't attend so maybe I'll just have to see her there once next week before she figures it out that he doesn't attend and she can leave my class alone even if she won't leave my fhe alone. I hope she asks David if he attends before next Tuesday so he can tell her NOOO and I won't have to see her AGAIN!!!

I am ignoring her like I ignore Katie and Camilla. They all annoy me mostly because I know they're interested in David. As far as being their friend is concerned, that's not happening AT ALL. Camilla AND Katie have definitely tried on several occasions. I just can't stand Camilla and I did get to know her better as much as I didn't want to do that. How I feel about Camilla is independent of David. Her personality just drives me insane. She's not mean-spirited-she does love the gospel and want to do what is right. She is just sloooow AND completely lacking in social skills. Katie is sooo fake. I feel like she wants to get to know me better to use what she learns against me. That's how I feel around Nikki but Jonni is a good friend of hers and Jonni is genuine so I will give her the benefit of the doubt. Shiersta luckily I don't know and it's going to remain that way. I don't dislike them BUT I'm not going to get to know any of them at all. Lark, Nikki, Jonni, and Julie all have David things too but I had friendships with all of them before. Their crushes or whatever aren't as bad as Katie, Camilla and Shiersta. Lark and Julie are pretty great. Both are intelligent women who strive to live the gospel. Jonni is the kindest person who lives the gospel to the best of her ability. Nikki is sweet but I sense a fakeness her friendship with Jonni helps me almost but not quite dismiss. Neither Jonni nor Nikki are stupid but I don't get that they are as smart as Lark or Julie AND then I am being the judge of the world right now.

I am moody and full of attitude-I think I'm gorgeous-I know I'm spiritual, I tend to think I'm right all the time BUT I usually am. I know I'm not as great as I think I am. I was spoiled by my dad who only exacerbated my diva princess ways. My brother helped that too as did my culture which I looove and am grateful for. Bishop always tries to inspire confidence in us-self-esteem seems to be sooo lacking in my ward. I don't know why I have so much. I always try to work on my humility because I know I think I know everything all the time and I know that's ridiculous. I'm still single BUT I don't attribute that to any fault on my part although maybe if I would I'd discover why I'm still single. I don't feel like I've done anything wrong despite my loner status. I certainly make mistakes along the way but I've never done anything I'd think would keep me from that blessing. I don't think I'm picky but I'm certainly not willing to settle either.